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Oct 2016 Aztec

Don't

Oct 2016 Aztec

mrmonst3r

Don't

Don't open your eyes
Today.
Don't stir from thoughtless
Slumber.
Each word you say is wrong.
Each choice that's made — a blunder.
Don't try to give your all today
For it won't be enough.
Don't fight against this devil dog
It's bark is not a bluff.
Just go and hang your weary head
Perhaps go back to bed.
You might not win each battle,
So win the war instead.

#depression #defeatism

Oct 2016 Aztec

Now Awake

Oct 2016 Aztec

Keishia Sharine Gordon

Now Awake

The feeling was the start of it all
When you would walk right by me
I could hear you pleading
Through your energy
I could hear the whisper in your voice
Saying that you love me
I could feel you'll never let go
Especially when you hug me
I can tell how honest you are
Right through those eyes
I can see your flaws
Under your disguise
I can hear all your dreams
When you peacefully sleep
I can tell you now
You are one to keep
I can vision our future
Your heart along with mine
I would walk miles
Through distance and time
I will love you endlessly
As I've never loved before
Because my real love wasn't alive
Until it felt yours.

Oct 2016 Aztec

Him

Oct 2016 Aztec

Naqiah azzahra

Him

I had a moment.*
I was sitting there, a bit sleepy
Holding a guitar that i can't play
-Then he came in.
He sat next to-
in front of me,
He took the guitar from me and started playing a song,
he sang.
Two songs later, he gave me an update on this girl he's crushing on
Then he sang,
Another 3 songs that i love-
-he didn't know i loved those songs,
Those songs in my playlist
That i listen to
When i'm down

Idk how to say this and i dont want to say anything about this to anyone but i just feel like i need to share this moment with those i dont know, just to make it kind of eternal

#love #broken #secret #crush #him #song #unwanted #unnoticed

Oct 2016 Aztec

Hugs Not Drugs

Oct 2016 Aztec

SøułSurvivør

Hugs Not Drugs

Confessions of a former drug addict

I was an alcoholic
Did drugs into the night
I started at 11
Did anything in sight
'Til my brain was addled
I wasn't very bright
Soul sickness was my problem
Did not know wrong from right
But Jesus healed my spirit
I finally saw the light

I started as a bartender
For my family do's
I catered to their parties
And I began to use
I served up martinis
They could not refuse
Made 'em good and strong
Began with one or two
Soon I became drunk
And started to abuse

Then I did white crosses
Marijuana trees
I did angel dust
Also known as ***
No ******* or ******
But I did LSD
Discovered yellow jackets
And drank peyote tea
I couldn't ever get enough
And that was all for me
At 14 years old
It was catastrophe
Then I found religion
Known as Scientology
It was total *******
But I finally broke free!

I went for years not drinking
Had no acid trips
I loved a natural high
And no drug passed my lips
But life has twists and turns
Much pain and great hardship
I had to run away
Just took a couple sips
Embarked upon a journey
On substance abuse ships

I finally found the needle
******. *******.
I preferred the uppers
Manic highs obtained
I found I could not get away
And so my soul was stained

Then I started smoking it
I liked that best of all
It was like the peak of bliss
That high I still recall
But with every High
There's always a hard fall

I tried Scientology
The SRF and more
But my soul was very sick
Rotten to the core
I was finally Shipwrecked
On a hostile shore
I tried AA and Rehab
But they could not restore
Beaten down to nothing
I was finally floored

Then I met my Jesus
And I was so inclined
To go to church 3 times a week
And the Spirit shined
Gave water to my thirsty soul
My very bones aligned
He restored my body
And He restored my mind
When I finally broke free
Of the religious grind
No matter how the roads will turn
How they wend and wind
I have seen the valley
Mountains I have climbed
Now I know within my soul
His Mercy I will find

And so Jesus saved me
It happened overnight
I woke up a different person
With the strength to fight
I have new eyes to see now
He's restored my sight
No longer in deep Darkness

I have seen the light!*

SoulSurvivor
(C) 9/3/2016

Drugs are not the answer. Any drug. And cutting can be a drug too! It is foolishness to think you can "just say no". I tried and tried to no avail to do that. Without Jesus's help I was totally bereft. I tried every treatment program in the book. Nothing helped me. Especially not religion. I now have a relationship with Jesus Christ. I talk to him everyday. Sometimes even when I'm angry and hurt with him. I tell him so. I have a very difficult life. But I'm not using or drinking. And I have joy beyond anything I've ever experienced! Yes I have my bad days. But my bad days now are better than any good day that I had on drugs. I did almost anything to get those horrible shackles. But now Jesus has broken them off of me... I'm finally FREE!!!

I haven't been on the site and I apologize to everyone for not responding to their commentary. And I haven't been reading. I've just been extremely busy. Thank you for understanding.

I love and pray for you all!

♡ Catherine

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#addiction #life #god #death #suffering #jesus #struggle #christ #alcoholic #survivor

Oct 2016 Aztec

in love.

Oct 2016 Aztec

Julia Mae

in love.

i knew that i was in love when it broke my heart to see you hurt
i knew that i was in love when it killed me inside to watch you waste away your life
i know that i am in love with you,
because love still remains
despite all of your bad parts

i feel like my ex is an alcoholic and all i could do was sit there and watch him down his potential....

#love #alcohol #hurt #bad #iloveyou #you #heartbroken #inlove #alcoholic #lovepoems

Oct 2016 Aztec

your love is alcoholic.

Oct 2016 Aztec

Julia Mae

your love is alcoholic.

i have never felt so terrible
i have never been an option
it's either me, or a bottle
and you choose the bottle
every time
every single time
your addiction does not love you
not like i do
yet you cannot see
you never listen
you are drowning, lost and gone
i can't help holding on
i can't keep hurting myself
along the razor edges of your broken bottles
as broken as you are
so i only wish, for you to take of yourself
i cannot keep watching you **** yourself

thoughts. i am really lost lately.

#love #addiction #alcohol #hurt #you #gone #forgotten #alcoholic