i can't stay here
i can't stay away
i'm split bewteen
what to say

i love you
but you don't love me back
so i'll go hide
in my hearts crack

don't say you miss me
cause i know you don't
don't say you need me
i know i'm not what you want

sometimes all you have to do is look within yourself, to realize you don't need anybody else.

When you first fall for someone you never think that eventually you'll be doing all you can to get over them.

God it's crazy how fast things can change, but why dwell when you can move on to the next chapter...

Yesterday I felt low.
Today I want to feel high.

Another sleepless night.
Heavy thoughts
Staring at my iPhone
Waiting for a text I'll never get
Praying to God for happiness,
and that things get better.

I pray that things get better.
Goodnight....

I saw him today.
I wanted to speak so bad.
I wanted to hug him, kiss him, tell him that I missed him.
I wanted him to know I only wanted him, that everything about him made me weak inside......but my pride.
As much as I wanted to do all those things I didn't know how, where to start, I didn't know how to let this man know he played a heavy part in my
thoughts. That his warmth & embrace is all I think about and God I wanted to ask him did he feel the same.

But he said nothing.
I said nothing.
I just saw him.

I've made a couple of "mistakes".

This past summer taught me that mistakes are nothing but lessons.

Think of it this way.
You can learn a lesson about the French Revolution at school and that'll just be an easy lesson, hard to listen to but fairly easy not so rememberable, but nonetheless a lesson.

When you give your all to someone carelessly forgetting to put yourself first learning that the problem was you because somehow you forgot to love yourself enough and remember your worth and to be a ride or die for not only him but God.....

now don't tell me that isn't a lesson.

Now any relationship you get into you remember not to wear your heart on your sleeve, you remembered not to get to carried away too fast.

You remember this because you made a mistake your paying for every day because it has now become a lesson you just can not forget.

But the cost isn't a bad thing.

Your wiser, you now remember to never forget your worth or to question yourself. You no longer forget that you are beautiful. Now again I ask are mistakes really mistakes?