My dear friend, how is life treating you?
Do you still watch the stars every night like we used to,
Or do you watch the ceiling in the dark like I do?

My dear friend, how is life treating you?
Do you still hum tunes when you get bored,  
Or do you think of me like I think of you when the lights go off?

My dear friend, how is life treating you?
Do you still cruise down the streets like we did,
Or do you walk alone, like I do, hoping that our paths would meet?

My dear friend, how is life treating you?
Do you still smile as bright,
Or do you now have to hide?

My dear friend, how is life treating you without me?
I hope you're not falling apart like I am without you beside me.

You once asked me why I never left.

"Familiarity" was my answer.

I often answered my phone without looking who was calling me but once I heard your voice, i already knew it was you.
You had the habit of sneaking up on me, but even a couple meters away I already know that you're around. Your scent that smells like coffee and cigarettes with a pinch of lavander lingers through the air and I already knew that you were there.
We used to stay all night on our rooftop just to see the stars I loved. I counted every plane that would pass by and you would count the hours of sleep you get from then on. For a moment there was silence and I knew you fell asleep, even breaths and slighty snoring, but i dont mind. I loved the way your face's calms when you sleep, your lips curve at one side and your eyebrows not scrunched up like always. From then on, i knew i would love to wake up everyday to your view.

After a couple of months you asked me why I was leaving you.

"Familiarity" was my answer.

Days would pass and you seldomly call or text me. The only time i could hear your voice was when I look through our old videos.
Time was never on our side, we suddenly had no time for each other. There were no more time for making out, no more time for some warm hugs, no more time to share how was our day. No more time to say and let the other feel loved.
It rained and there were no stars in the sky that night. I fell asleep on the window seat, watching every raindrop fall on the glass. The next morning when I woke up, it was like you were never there.

1AM
"Hello?"

2AM
"I miss you"
"Why did you let go"
"Was I not enough?"
"Do you have someone else to let you see all skin and bones?
    Someone who could see through all those muscles and enlighten your soul?
    Someone who would hold you until the morning light?
    Someone who could love you even with all your flaws?
    Someone who could love you more because of them and think that you're beautiful?
"I loved you."
"I still do."

"You know what? *******, ******* because you made me fall. Made me think that you would catch me but in the end I realized that you never to do so. *******, for wasting my time, making me think that you were worth my while. Lastly, *******, I am still inlove with you

7AM
What have I done.

1AM
*"Hello?"

******* crack rocks
blubbering baby
friends with guns
what's this lately
lack of response
suddenly favoring
fear of own self
psychedelic scenery
combining danger
in sanctioned blades
kindly handed to
in earthly glades