I'm sorry
I never notice
Your annoyance
Everytime I'm sharing
Stories that I thought
You'd love to hear
But instead
You'd rather not hear

I'm sorry
For I get excited
And I wanted to share it
To the person I cherish
Among the audience around me

I'm sorry
Please be gentle
In every word you tell me
'Cause without you knowing it
I already cried a million bucket of tears
For all the rejections
I get from you

I'm sorry
But don't worry
I'll soon change
For the better, of course
Hope you'll love
The new me
'Cause it's for you
And for me too

But lastly
I'm sorry
For loving you too much
That I didn't even feel
The hatred you have for me

Promise me this:
Promise you won't call anymore.
And you won't send me flowers.
You won't listen to our song.
And you won't build me all these towers.
You won't speak to me ever.
Nor write me a single letter.
*But over all, promise me you'll keep breaking your promises,
especially the ones you just vowed to.

i wonder

where your eyes will set
whose hands you'll hold
whose lips you'll tease
whose shoulder you'll lean on
whose presence you'll crave
what you'll stare at for hours
who you'll want
who you'll need
who you'll love

a year from now

I hope you cannot breathe without me
I hope you'd rather be lonely
than love anyone else besides me
I hope that when we end
you will never get over
the love that we had in hand
I hope you'll never be sober
I hope you'll beg for me to stay
and if you let me leave
I hope I will have the last say
I will say it is better that way
And then your heart will break
and break
and break
and break
and it will never end
I hope you'll never forget me
I hope you'll lurk
at the back of the Church
looking at how
I kiss the man I chose
I hope your mind will be dark
because you lost your light
you lost the path
the path that keeps you still
I hope you'll have nightmares
because you lost the girl
the girl of your dreams
and the lady who promised
she will be with you until
the chaotic side of you ends
I hope you cry for me
I hope you will love me
and love me
beyond what love can give
I hope you'll be crazy
I hope you'll lose your sanity
over this girl
who lied to you
who ignited you
and let your fire burn out
I hope you will keep on
sheltering me
even if
I am not yours to protect anymore
Because you realized
that I was the only one
the only one
who loved you
when you cannot be loved
loved you so, but
only for a numbered infinity.

I don't want a lavish celebration. I don't need new dresses, new shoes. I want you to be happy that I accomplished these kind of things. I want you to pray to Him and say thank you for everything He has given. I want you to smile and say things like you mean it. I just want you to be proud of me.

No one ever asked if I was okay.
And now I've catched everyones attention.
They're now asking me what's the problem.
THIS IS *******.

I want someone to comfort me.
But i want to drive people away.
I want someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be fine.
But I hate it when someone does it to me.
I always said to myself,"pull your **** together ****"
I end up opening my own scars.
Its me,its my fault.
I ruin everything.
Everything fragile,I broke.
Never again will it be the same.
I hate myself for craving for the attention not necessary.
Also,i hate myself for never being good enough.
I know i don't have to be.
But things are easier said than done.
Its always been me who gets to give the last part of my heart.
But never gets to taste what it is to be truly happy.
People are so loved.
I stand isolated in that very corner.
Looking at that very moment.
Seeing the spark,
the light
the ignited passion to love someone.
Who come?
I look everywhere to find my happiness
But I know it isn't anywhere
Its within me.
Somewhere waiting to be triggered.
What if no one comes?
No one ignites me.
Will I ever?
I'm too tired to do anything.
I want to disappear.
No one won't notice.
I know I am loved.
I forget.
I get the feeling that I ruin stuff so precious
I'm not and never will be good enough.

Tell me that you love me and that you'll stay,
because time takes passion slowly away,
and I don't care if you forget my name,
but all the same,
remember how I made you Feel.

See, love is just a word with no meaning
and more than once I've been left dreaming.
Hopeless romantics can't compete
with how much I succumb to cold feet.
But, all the same,
remember how you made me Listen.

Smell the dead roses scattered about.
The petals die amongst new sprouts,
just as this, you spoke my name,
but all the same,
remember please, our Taste of freedom.

My Senses spin with unfulfilled desire,
and upon silent lips, the coldest fire.
Yet still, I wish to hear that phrase,
"I love you," more than ever these days,

but all the same,
and upon my name,

what you couldn't say
I cannot blame.