I remembered the day we talked
I told you I have to go away
That I would have to say goodbye
As I turn to go
You embraced me like you won't see me again
You did not let go
You said you fear that once I go the rest will follow
You said you needed me
that was the first time you ever said those words
You lay down with me in your arms
I escaped your hold only to try to leave but my body just made me face you
You looked me in the eyes and said
don't go, I need you. I want you
Your hand caressing my cheek while the other still wrapped around me
Then after you shared your desire to stay the way we were positioned but in another scene: under the stars, with a blanket and some snacks maybe candles and a nice song as a background
Nothing to be weary of
No hiding
No worrying about the time
Then you made me stand up
You made me slow dance
You apologized for the scarce space and your silliness
But actually its all I ever wanted
You made it happen unexpectedly
If only we could've stayed that way
I would never have left my love

Lets build a fort
Just you and me
We'll protect it
We'll keep it that way
Even if it rains or storms
Lets make it stand its ground
It will be our sanctuary
Our dwelling place
Away from all of this
Away from everything
You would never have to feel alone
You would never have to be invisble
You won't have to pretend to be anything
I would listen and so would you
We'll swear to secrecy and idiocy
Lets build a fort, just you and me
What color would you like it to be?
I want to see a sunset from that fort
I want to be near the ocean from that point
You'll be free and so will I

Surprises
Sweet efforts
They make my heart melt
Make me forget sadness
For even just a little while
I appeciate them
I even treasure those moments
Because for that instance
I feel they care
I know they thought of me
That I am a somebody
But I want to sleep
I'm not a warrior fit for battle
I am not a fair maiden to be saved
And I am not a victor in this conquest

*the world will go on but I-
I will not

Weeping under my sheet. I tried to endure but one thing's for sure, there'll be no cure!

My mind's distracted like an abstract making myself lose it. There might be a dose but my eyes... please scrutinize for you to realize.

It's a dark empty room and I'm all doomed. I want you to witness and caress my wet cheeks and if only you can squeeze me tight on this cold night :(

As I recall, you disappear through a throng. Left me hanging with a thought, 'what have I done wrong?'

But this solitude is quite rude for dragging me lifelong.*

-A

8/14/14

I like how the skies turn gray when a storm is coming
I like the wind blowing towards my face that makes my hair all shaggy
I like the sound of the first rain drops falling
I like it when its raining

I guess the cold is my comfort
The sound of the rain drowns my thoughts
The air is refreshing
The scent is mesmerizing specially the smell after the rain
That petrichor  
That calmness
That peace

They said define okay
Well I guess okay is something I need to say
For people to stop caring
To please their ears
And make them go on
Okay is nonchalant I guess