Scent of your sins Woven in threads Of my sweater We unravel Sometimes Line dry, to high Fallen to earth Clothespin regret Beyond simple days Soap and water Baptize me Cleansing Smell of sage These are the days We paint them red Line dry, mile high Scent of sins It begins
You do not fear the trees You fear the forest in the dark The rustle of leaves you did not make The wind in your ears you did not fake You breath smoking against the crispness of the air Cold existence, creeping into your lungs Fingers not yet numb Clutching at sanity As it slips into the dark
You have no power here I thought we were too gentle for anger Too old for foolishness Too tender to spear our words against each other Who has been guarding you For all this time What did you fear would come for you When you said you were waiting for me Let the little things go Let the sun go down Be it on your anger Be it coming through the windows Gentle on the skin of love in the shadows We are hollow bodies Pouring out small victories Waging small wars There are no gates here Blank paper skin Traced with graphite fingertips God told me you were human I believed him What does that make me Are we not beyond this The moment it is lived Are we not so small in this world Smaller to the expanse of the universe Tiny in his hands as a grain of sand Will you wash with me Saltwater will unburden us Currents will take us further Pulling our love thin as a spiders web We hung once Participles in the air Thick and humid and heavy I will remember us as such I will remember
I could write many words that you would never read Empty rant words and deep flesh wounds I could tell you stories to make you laugh or cry But it doesn't matter cause its all a lie I could make you feel sorry for the girl behind the screen But it doesn't count cause there is something inbetween I used a crow bar to pry the hearts I mended And I counted stitches sewn by the witches I vainly pursued more than one empty shell But it wasn't worth it oh the stories I will tell
You asked for forgiveness. Forgiveness... ...and I said I withhold nothing from you, not even this. Yet still, I do not hold my grudges or my feelings against you for those are mine and mine alone; I hold only you accountable for your actions for they are yours as foolish as they be.
Heaven will break today Who can fault it Cornerstones have crumbled Are we passengers Or participants of our own lives I am painfully sober When I think of you The veil is torn Shroud me with it In the twelfth hour Will you bury my body While it's still warm I will long for you As a flower does the sun When I too am deep in soil Pray over me like I am living Do you believe it Are you loving Does God know of your humility As intricately as your sins Shall I tell him for you When I am before him I have no stamina for grudges What would I hold against you That I have not unburned myself of
I called the stars down They would not come I was not there When the sun split open To birth the moon These are my haunts Black holes on the skirts of the beyond I told you once When I was a prophet I warned you The earth will not remember me Now we are the forgotten ones The forgotten ones The only ones who remember
You, who I once found comforting Now curate such opposite energy What are you holding Not in your empty hands But inside Where my stomach would be churning If I spoke the way you spoke
Depression is a side affect of living The pills don't solve the problem Asthma kills the life inside my lungs And I am sick of being here Without anyone to care Far away from fear Trapped inside my head Just shoot me now And put me in an endless bed To sleep undisturbed With none to keep me warm Just put me to sleep And the dead will keep Their own
I am overcome with emotion For there is so much distance between us I love you, for all that you are And somehow that is not enough So many things Try to get in our way
The key to my handcuffs broke The water I drank made me choke The clothes I picked are to quickly stained The laces on my shoes never stay tied The messy buns just fall out The roads I drive are always dead ends The stars don't shine for me
The door is always open But you never come I will always love you But this is nothing new The light of my city That is never with me The path to my heart I lost right from the start
No velvet ropes Of ticket takers Just sunken chests And heart breakers
you speak like the first bite of an apple the silence broken like the skin beneath your teeth each word so fresh and crisp speak and bite and speak again
Can I ask you To filter air gently Through your lungs Before you release it Into my mouth I will devour you one day We will burn Like the sun when she finally dies Big, and bright, and beautiful You have never felt the cold before I would not believe ice existed After I feel The warmth of your touch Burn through me Peeling back my layers Until we come to center I’ve got you Right where I want you Under my skin Burrow into my soul She longs for you Like a breath of fresh air
You asked me why I was choking I said, it was because I breathed tragedy And you said, aren't you used it, the smoke of pain I replied, familiar, yes. Tolerant, no.
I have lung cancer I have asthma I breathe to live But I breathe and die
Maybe I'm not a good friend And my arms are not open enough Yet this heart still cares Even if my lips do little of its bidding I hope you can find rest in yourself When you cannot find comfort in me For you are still enough, alone Be it I am able or not to remind
I will chew until my jaw hurts I will dance until my feet fall off I will love until my heart breaks I will smile until my lips cracks I will laugh until my lungs explode I will be yours until I am no more
I stood in the cold today So my breathe could freeze in my mouth I knew if I cried My glass tears would shatter on the ground I know What it is like To be breaking
Is anger ever satiated Slow burn, smoking up clear skies In the back of my mind The ancient dance Barefoot with the blessed beings The magick in the trees Is stirring Who would stand Between the ache of an awakening Some thousands of years Even angels know The gods will return It is only a matter of time To the shorter wicks of life And yet we pray For foolish things like patience When we are ants To the eyes of ancients The dust on your shoes nearly settled Blush of the land Do not disgrace the motherland Will you waste your days Painting trigger fingers on the living Pain knows no age Joy no companion Your wishes to the heavens While unanswered Are not unheard
You are an open flower I cannot help but wonder Is this pure consciousness Have you closed your soul So soon Unburden yourself of the past She is not today's weight
They will catch you Find you, and put you away And you wouldn't of even - Known they were looking for you I mean sure as hell You were lost, but only - In your own mind of foolishness So it is so inexplicably rude For reality to interupt Things were fine - They are always fine And of course by fine I mean that they couldn't - Possibly, be more wrong But that isn't at all unusual Some of us live in eternal chaos Created by those - Who live off of chaos So I'm a high functioning dysfunctional And you found me in a place That doesn't even exist To bring me to a place That I should never ever be
The sea demons cold magic seeps into my blood The sun warm fingers lost by love A far embrace and distance stare Prove it was them who lost something here
I just want to put my hand over your mouth Stiffle the stupidity as it streams out of your head Maybe I am just bitter Time changes things But a rotten core is good for only swine The fruit does not fall from the trees You came back for the truth It draws you in But too close And at what expense You would light a fire Yet you have no fear of flames The apprehension tingles on my tongue and courses through my senses I pick my words as though they were flowers in full bloom As sweet as honey Oh how I wish they would sting For what is this mess you make of things Just turning over soil when you could be planting crops The nuts have been gathered By those that will devour them with the hunger of a winter If only I knew how to wait out the storm I clasp my hands together but they will not clamp The desperation beads on my forehead and slips into my mind Salty thoughts and a foolish tongue Must it be bound behind my teeth When I would lash it against you like a whip I want it to sting That you would turn your foolish head in shame For your pride carries everywhere you go You will come to find me I will be ready But not waiting The foolish feet that carry you Have many lessons to be learned You will look at me with eyes of desire And I will burn you alive with the fire behind my eyes Just to give you a glimpse Of what is waiting for you Just one gate away
No one Has ever let me Feel like this And just let me, let it go Without letting me go It is so beautiful That even when You are apart from me I feel your hands Cradling my heart The only one To let me fall apart But not let A single thing break