I am burdened
With a delightful weight
Your expanse covers me
Where I would not be exposed

Like night sky over deep waters
Gentle stars looking past the beyond

I am yoked
Neck and neck
Footsteps in the same direction
Joined as one

Like vines we are intertwined
Until we are buried in the earth

She is breathless in wonder
At all that lay before
Green may be more than a color
And blue more than a shade of sky
For how can you reduce such beauty
To a color and a scheme of land
Could you not say it is how you felt
When you looked upon such a thing
You would never want
To tear your eyes away
Even when the storms
Came down to visit the mountains
You would see the beauty in the anger
And be breathless all the same

Delivery:
Harsh words (for the freak)
Please sign
X____
Last name?
I wish it was yours.

Love,
This cruel world.
Xoxo

I lay in my bed
Maybe my fingers a bit cold
The warmth of the body next to me
It only goes so far
Maybe warming my whole arm
Most of my leg
And enough through my side to reach my bellybutton, but that's about it
I have bad circulation
Yet the thoughts in my head get around just fine
I am hesitant to wrap my fingers around yours
Shy in the dark
So I settle for just one single lock of hair
It can't be more that thirty strands
Still it is thirty pieces of you I can't do without
I think quietly to myself
Maybe love isn't falling
It's laying.
Laying down next to another
Listening to them breathe in the dark
Its a pace
With no moving
Just a chest rising and falling and sheets dancing along
Just two warmths in an emptiness
That could of been filled alone
It isn't chaotic
It's quiet and peaceful and if you were afraid of the dark atleast you're not afraid alone
I'm shy in the dark
Maybe it's the moonlight on your skin
Coming through the window
I stayed awake just to see it dance on your face
But I'm shy in the dark
Even though I know it so well

When the earth dies
The sky will not remember me
But I think the water will

Draw me closer, oh my love
Push me against the wall
In this year since you have scorned me
Oh how things have changed
These thoughts I retain
But feelings not so much
For time does heal
And time does change
Slowly all her mysteries are revealed

I loved you for you
When you wouldn't
Now I will love me for me
When you won't

How many stars is a soul worth
Would you sell?
Buy?
Or trade?

Or keep you soul entrapped in a beautiful cage
Known as your body
So that your heart would never be alone?

When I say you are my light
I mean you are a soft glow
Gentle for the moths to gather round

I know naught of your ways
Such as your gods know nothing of me

Here
But lonely

Is that allowed?

Just anther devilish smile
The kind that fades after while
A cruel joke like a deep cut
They broke my shell like a nut
The names and hands come like knives
Beating on innocent lives
She tried so hard to be brave
But there was no one she could save
A kiss goodbye soon forgotten
That's proves this world is rotten

The length, the love
The silent beauty
Radiant, covered by duty

The dress and the flowers
All just a show
Dreading the night
And where it will go

The pictures on the wall
Remind me of the past
I need only one look one last glance

A second name
A second life
A second chance

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¿He dicho algo gracioso
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Let it go
Just let it go
You have held on for to long
All this time you have been wrong

Just let it go
Just let it go
What you don't know cant hurt you
But what you do digs so deep

But that's okay you will come out stronger
Refined by the fire

Let it go
Just let it go
Its okay to hurt
And I know you will cry

Just stop the pain and say goodbye
Let it go
Just let it go
You need to be yourself again
And you will always have me for a friend

Let it go
Let it go
As the wind starts to blow
Lay your wishes on the stars
Nothing can hurt you from so far

Let it go
Just let it go
Unclench you hands from the fists
Take to remember all the good times you missed

Just let it go
Let it go
The air is still clean
Let it go
Let it go

Just let it go
Its okay
Just let it go
And come my way
Just let it go
Just let it go

You did not find the truth you were looking for in my words
Yet the honesty was in your intentions
This is weights and you are a measure

my heart wants to come home
            but it is lost in your veins
                    so used to your love map
                          that it cant find any other way
                                         it had the treasure I lost
                                               you gave all the love away

You wrote me a letter it came in a box
A box with no key a box with no lock

The words on the outside were as formal as could be
But I was exited to have something just for me

I ripped up the paper and put it aside
To exited to see what was inside

You asked how I was and how I was doing
I told you of my latest plots I was brewing

The letter riddled with X's and O's
But nothing sappy enough to blow my nose

I wrote you a reply written on some paper
And put it in the mailbox the day later

I signed my name with hugs and kisses
And lots of pointless heartfelt wishes

I wait and wait and wait some more
Until the mailman knocked on my door

A patient emptied from my lungs
And as I read the words I sung

Kisses are dreams from your face
And nothing ever shall take your place

I was the last flower blooming in spring
Until your teaching
I knew not what leaving was
I boarded our boat
Set sail upon a sea of dreams
Darkness fell quickly
Our sea of dreams became nightmares
Our boat, stitched together with trust
Fell away, as we fell apart
Swimming in nightmares
Was not something I was prepared for
These are not the apple juice box memories of my childhood
This is a grown me, trying to find the right band aids
For the right wounds, always with the wrong people
Holding hands is warmth, I needed treading water
Holding my breath, for hours at a time
While the people who said they loved me, loved each other, and loved God
Screamed their ignorance into the walls of our house
Words fasten themselves to the studs of the walls, slip into the cracks of the floor
Ghosts you wanted in the middle of the night never sounded like this
Love is screaming.
A vibration engrained so deeply into me
Another layer in the crust of the earth
Love is screaming.

So, when you whispered your love to me in the water
I did not hear it
I did not learn listening
I did not think it was meant for me

etching
sketching
watching
catching
finding
reminding
and drawing your name in the sand

I am a monster behind closed doors
A dark evil contours my soul

Promises last
As long as you make them
Intentions
Of promises being kept
Is a fickle measurement

There is one thing I have learned
That this sorry life has taught me
Time and time again
It is that when you are at a ******
Or lost in a dark abyss
The ones that you love most
And cherish above all the stars in the sky
They will not let you down
But that love will hurt
The knives will come pouring like water
Out of broken once love-kissed lips
They still promise to catch you
But they will not stand by your side
And when the waters rise above your eyes
The shall be your lighthouse
Where they used to be anchor
Once fun-filled careless words
Now guarded by white dragons
Holding back a beast you used to tame
And when the darkness comes they will not be the light
They will merely stare through the window
Watching from the night
I have told myself never to trust
No matter the cost
But the cost of not trusting is humble
Compared to when that trust is broken
So shattered pieces of glass
That my feet tread upon
Let the blood weave a trail
Of something deeper and more beautiful
And live your life for love
Something less that dutiful
I cannot teach you my lessons that I have learned
Merely show you the scars where I got burned
As each soul rises to heaven
Compared to a setting sun
So I will rise
And it shall be done
A final drink so bitter-sweet
A final breath a solemn treat
So love with all your heart but not with all your strength
For it will be your savior in your grave hour

Endings are as neutral as change in the weather

Winter always comes around eventually

I read your writings
You said “God was a woman,
But she was not mine.”
And when they say; “my God”
I did not know we were speaking
Of property
Of ownership
Are they truly a God
If they belong

Will you not tell me
Of your longing instead
Not of your wishes
For her to open her pearly gates
I know you tasted heaven once
I know you licked golden honey
From the fountain of life

It seems you will always thirst
For the juice, of forbidden fruit

Listen to the quiet
She will tell you all you need to hear
Not all you must know
For learning is the way in life
Journey on.
You follow whispers
To the next horizon
Yet be still as you are
And listen to the voice
In the silence

if I could concentrate
the paper would fill it's self with ink
the pencils would sharpen themselves
and I wouldn't be thinking about you

You have let Life teach you what it is to live by the light of the moon - when she had no daylight to give you
Though often those who have lived these lives
Have let their kindness be robbed of them
And their joy lay stagnant like pools of water
Such are you to drink daily of the cup that overflows
So such your spirit quenches
And she will know no drought