Somewhere within the confindes of my mind
An image ..........
A youger age ,
A little more vigor
A little less unsure idealistic ,
Thats for sure
Looking hopefull
At the world

Saturated

Missunderstood

The pleasure of leisure
truly evanescent in fact
An albatross around my neck
A spectre ?.
Possibly.
Tell me ........
How can i say it doesnt exist to me ?
I used to gage fondess for me with it .
Its utterly useless to even try to deny
One free second
You watch and see.minum one person
I lean back begin to smile
Appear ing out of thin air
Casting aspersions into my characture
And most of them i have heavily carried
And they knowing compounded
With the fact that they know
That i done so without
And did so without made a mention
Oh wow .......forgive me
Oh how i so utterly
In this muse have need
Out
Of an absolutely violent desperation.
Please. I am cryptic and eclectic and use long runon sentencing and get side tracted and make up my own words that noone understands yet .........my poetry may seem incomplete and i have a tendency to sound pornographic one min then morose the next
  Wait
Please
dont stop reading .
Im really really really hoping that someone,
at the least one person gets me.
In the apex of my , .....what began  as a pretty thought, i thought !.......
I thought i would let it out and just free style
4 a minute.
And without fail i went from pretty to petty
Petty to pitty
Pity complain
Complain to whine
Whine to rant .
I cant or maybe .......
Imagine how.......oh yes i can .
Wuz on the cusp of somehow goin pornographic
But i didnt .
Suddenly a smile on my face and i laugh at myself
With myself
A slap in the face with a ironic epiphany
Perfectly balancing my life an giving insight to ponder
As my anger increased from my subject matter.
One could only think " ok ya lost me
Here we go again"
Then i realize the one thing i need is one friend or acquaintance
Or anyone who could prove my petty theory wrong
By doin whatever it was they were doing .
Without "the look" or the "well are you gonna help.? "
I know youre sick or back is injured ,
But cmon you could do somethin.
Light bulb ....flash bulb
Realization .
Me ..........i am the exact uber opposite to the extreme.
I mean most all the time its what i do to unwind
I go an do things for people in need or not
Just doing good works and asking for nothing in return
I feel is what the world needs
I love to do it as a surprise but at the least
Never ask for help
Thats just me .no one gets me in the fact that i......working .
Full filling there needs allows me to coalesce and heal.
It seems i needed to write to right the wrongs i see
In order for me to see the quality of me and see that i am being the change i want to see and another reason to love me more
Now i sound concieted