"arianna" poems
I ****** up
I ****** up
I used once more
after swearing up and down
I would never touch the stuff again
In a moment of weakness
IN a moment of pure agony
I got out my white powder
and did my old routine
I'm sorry Kaitlyn
I'm sorry Panda
I'm sorry Arianna
I'm sorry Sofia
Please dont get mad
I ****** up
I know I did
I'll try harder next time
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 4:32 PM UTC
intermission with the UMSL Orchestra
The backstage hall was wall-to-wall smiles.
Just moments before,
Barbara Harbach had charged the stage
after we premiered her joyous Jubilee Symphony
screaming at them all the way,
"That was spectacular"!
The Arianna Quartet's Kurt and Joanna
stormed down the steps
spewing out pieces of their minds
in no uncertain terms
"excellent" - "great job" - "beautiful".
I preferred to hang out on the edge
wrapped in the silken echoes
of Tchaikovsky's Andante cantabile
(so eloquently sung by our youthful strings).
Intermission was up and it was
back to work time.
In the abyss of despair
over his dying ears,
Beethoven flooded the world
with the blazing sunglow
of his prophetic second symphony
and it was now up to us
to pass on the word.
Just call me,
"Grateful (underscore) 1".
Oct 10, 2013
Oct 10, 2013 at 11:46 AM UTC
A boulder lays in a stream for centuries
The trickling water slowly smoothing it’s rough edges
Ending up a pebble at the bottom of that unforgiving stream
Slowly being covered by others
That little pebble, is still a boulder
Oct 29, 2012
Oct 29, 2012 at 5:44 PM UTC
What is really important in life
Is the delicate art of growing plants
Of course the animals come first!
My dog and three cats.
I have orchids the size of a quarter
I have a 7 foot tall Cape Jasmine tree in my porch
All of this challenging, growing things tropical
While it is -20F outside, living here, in Minnesota!
There is nothing like feet of snow,
Piled so high you are house ridden,
With a porch filled with tropical plants.
Sometimes I pretend I'm in Maui.
And I'll lay in the sun for as long as it's out.
The days get short here.
I believe the shortest day is close to
9 hours!
Having some help from plant grow lights
That guide the flowers but also
Brighten the house.
The plants have to speak to you.
You need to listen to them,
Long before they have a hint of brown.
I let my plants speak to me,
And they seem guided by my voice.
~Arianna Darshani
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 5:38 PM UTC
I had a simple wonder, one day,
As to why the moon has been yellow
Particles in the air, of course,
But what particles and from where?
I did some research on the wild fires in Canada
There is a jet stream carrying smoke
From Saskatchewan down to Iowa
Covering Minnesota, where I live.
This is an example of how the Earth is One Place
Events thousands of miles away can occur
Anywhere else on the Earth
And my first experience of allergies,
I willingly accept as part of the wild fires
That rage in Canada
Over one thousand miles away.
Harder to accept is,
the Fukishima nuclear plant which
Is still pouring radiation into the sea
And how that radiation has
Made its way to the US West Coast
All the way from Japan.
Something so very far away, is simultaneously,
So very intimate and near.
The Earth is all One Place
And we are part of the Earth
We make the Earth our *****
Instead of our intimate and loving partner.
~Arianna Elise Darshani
Sep 7, 2015
Sep 7, 2015 at 4:58 PM UTC
I am a big sister
to a little sister
her name is Arianna
she is almost two
we share the same room
she screams a lot at night
crying and crying
for mommy and daddy
it gets annoying trying to sleep
so some times I sing her a little song
Or sometimes I hum
because singing doesn't always work
She quiets down and grabs her binky
and stares at me
Icky
sometimes being a big sister
is such a hard job.
Oct 8, 2014
Oct 8, 2014 at 1:58 PM UTC
It was a water-cooler rumor,
an office joke circulating,
all about 'the girl in the picture' -
a framed photo on my desk.
They called her 'the mystery girl,'
a radiant blue-eyed brunette
with a beguiling smile. They
said they couldn't believe
someone so great looking would
ever have eyes for me, would
ever care about me, would ever
share my hopes and dreams. They
thought it was a lark. They even
said she didn't exist because
they never saw her, she never called
me at the office, never met me
for lunch
Tough! I thought. She's very shy,
very timid. She's an artist, she
works out of our apartment, she's
not a people person. But they didn't
believe me because I never brought
her with me - to Christmas parties or
weddings or the company picnic in May.
They said I made her up, that the picture
on my desk was something I got from a
stock photo book or from something I
picked up off the shelf of a dollar store
Give me a break!
And then the unthinkable happened.
She left me - just like that!
There was a note and nothing else.
I still don't understand it.
I quit my job. I cleaned out my
desk at the office and went back
to the apartment...she seemed to be
everywhere...in pictures all over,
her smile beaming at me from
every room
Now in my loneliness, in my drift
toward sleep each night, my heart
is hollow. I murmur her name in
the darkness...'Arianna...Arianna...'
- a name like the wind - free, restless,
rhapsodic, an anthem bursting
from my heart, the answer to my
most desperate prayers
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 6:33 PM UTC
Children who have nothing are crying
We drown it out with our preoccupations
I do, too!
Can you imagine the Republic of Congo
And what children there, suffer?
I have travelled to the 3rd world extensively and
Have been to Nepal and Madagascar.
The children suffer in a brutal way . . .
that is hard to wrap your head around
If you've never left the US, Canada or Europe,
Australia or Japan.
How can we have a conscience
And let it go on?
We pretend it's not happening
But it is.
Google "Jared Fogle".
Let us amend the Constitution
And create a safe haven for crime victims
Let's have a two strikes and you're out
Law for pedophiles who pray on children
Under 12 years of age.
For me, I can no longer look at it
With a blind eye
For helping the children
Is what I was trained by Life experience, to do.
I was one of those children once
And not a single person cared.
Let me be there for the current
Child victims
And let's try to heal that part of
Our sometimes, twisted world.
Let me do all that I can do!
All I ask of you, is to think about children
suffering around the world for just 10 seconds.
~Arianna
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 1:50 PM UTC
Nine years ago I met you
You were in rough shape,
Strung out on *******
A merc for Hire.
I was 12
you were 15.
Living your life in the shadows
hiding from the world.
The blazing sun could not reach you.
You were a monster
A deadly creature
Not to be messed with.
Living your life
On the wrong side of the Law.
A question that always plagues me
how the hell were you never caught?
I strode up to you
A fire in my hands
Reached out to you
And let the fire spread.
You are so much more
then you realize.
You mean so much
to so many people.
Me
Twittle
Kaityln
Arianna
Sophia!
and thats not all
Angel
Pop
Java
and
Mags!
We all love you!
in all your
****** up" glory.
You may have been a bad person then
But now you are such a good man.
The way you raise those girls
the way you look at your beautiful wife.
The way you are always there for me.
You had a ****** 23 years of life
I wont argue that
I know whats in your past.
but Guess what?
its a new year
A fresh start.
Lets make 24 and on
Be filled with light
chase away those shadows.
Shadow man
Shadow Man
Come out and play
In the warm sun light.
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 4:58 PM UTC
Perhaps I should
Not go into details
So I won't.
Just that . . .
In six months
My father
did more damage
to me.
Than my entire
Rest of my life
Combined.
Thank God
he did not raise me.
I would have perished.
Only that six months
that still rages like a forest fire
In the calm forest
Where I abide.
We all have problems
With our parents
But he is very perverse
By anyone's standards.
How many people
Start a *** cult?
And then invite
their 11 year old daughter
To come visit?
So I left my mother
Who had sole custody.
What a bad mistake.
I was only eleven.
Mistakes are allowed.
Gullibility is expected.
"Grooming" is not recognized,
for what it is.
I only hang on now
Based upon the
Magnetism
Of genes shared.
A few emails per month
He in total denial
But that's not rare.
I guess it's best
To not say anything else.
There is too much
to say.
And it happened
Forty years ago.
I have found new fathers
In my life.
That's good enough.
At my age
I am not seeking out any fathers
But did seek them out
For two decades.
That's over with.
~Arianna Elise Darshani
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 11:15 AM UTC
I guess you could say I have two children
One by blood
and one by soul
Arianna Olivia Chan
you were born
1 1/2 years ago
My blood
my family
You've got my eyes
Its kind of scary
Sophia Bridget Broderick
Holy **** you're already 6 years old
I've watched you grow up
Your Daddy would be very proud if he were here today
I know I am
You have become just like a daughter to me
And soon you will be
I promise though
I wont ever try to take his place.
But I am afraid
that I will fail you two
You two beautiful girls
You know I love your mommy
and that I love you too
But with who
and
what
I am
I might end up ******* up
But I wont ever stop trying
to do right by you
May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 10:59 AM UTC
You did not shatter me
I never lost my center
Even as you attacked me with your fangs
And now you will find, that by escaping you,
That I have only grown stronger
Im strong enough to own a conscience
Im strong enough to contain a soul
You will never have what I have
You will never have Love
You will never have Hope
You will never have a sense of Beauty
Nor will you ever be Innocent
You are nothing but an animal
Who has to **** your own child
in order feel anything at all.
How ****** up is that?
You are why I believe in Hell.
Good bye and I thank you
for the hard Life lesson learned.
Thank you for making me stronger.
~Arianna Darshani
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 4:18 PM UTC
The fireworks explode above my head
lighting up my daughers faces
Arianna wide eyed with fear
Sophia wided eyed with wonder
Kaitlyn met my eye
Smiled at me
knowing what I was thinking.
Fourth of july is my Holiday
something about the fireworks
And seeing my children light up
just like me it made me smile.
Arianna's first 4th of july
Sophia and I's first one together
Kaitlyn and I's first one
As Husband and wife.
My favorite holiday
just got even Better
Jul 7, 2014
Jul 7, 2014 at 10:23 AM UTC
I wasn't there when you were born
Daddy was struggling to get better
I met you six months ago
for the first time.
I missed your first steps
and your first giggle.
I missed your first word
by only a week.
Your big brown eyes stared up at me
I could tell you were afraid
who is this strange man in this strange bed?
I guess being in the hospital
with wires all attached to me
wasnt the best place to meet.
I'll let you in on a secret.
I was afraid too.
what if she doesnt like me?
What if I fail her?
But you reached out to me
with your short little one year old arms
and I held out my hand to meet yours
Your little hand in mine
so tiny, so Fragile.
Being one you don't know any better
You reached out your other hand
and touched my left eye
where the scars still Stand out
You didnt cry
or try and run away
You looked thoughtful
the way only one years olds can.
does that mean you accepted me?
I missed out on some of the important firsts
But that day with you in my arms touching my face
I promised myself
I would never miss another first again.
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 9:52 AM UTC
Dear Swamiji,
How I miss you
Since you've gone away
I know you are in a better place.
How can I begin to describe
How much you have meant to me
Your calm voice
Your touch
You have been my father
You have been my mentor
You have been my friend
I am a grateful recipient
Of your unconditional love
You have been my spiritual guide.
You have taught me relaxation
You have taught me meditation
You have initiated me into the Tradition
You have taught me Yoga Nidra.
Thought your 83 year old body
Was wracked by illness
You never suffered
And you always had an easy smile on your face
My last lesson, which is how to alleviate my suffering
Was never completed
And now you are not there
To teach me.
Not in corporeal form, anyway
You spoke of Will and it's a Koan
I have not found a resolution to
You have forgiven all my many flaws
You have forgiven all my mistakes
I have have been filled with plenty of both
You never rejected me
Nor did you abandon me
I came across your teaching
At age 19
And then studied with you directly
For 20 glorious years.
And for 33 years I have benefitted
From your sacred words.
Somewhere a lotus flower
Grows in the mother Ganges.
It is blooming for you
And bears silent witness
To the legacy of your life
Death has not set us apart
You will live in my heart forever
Truly, you will be the jewel in the Lotus
And i will continue the work.
I will continue to study your teachings
And I will live the way you have lived
To the best of my ability.
Dear Swamiji, I love you and I miss you
~Arianna Darshani
Sep 7, 2015
Sep 7, 2015 at 9:28 AM UTC
If there is one thing I admire
Is the fine poetry all over this Hello site.
I so admire those who have such
Facile skills with words.
I find I can't write a single
Poetic sentiment
Leaving me with
Envy mixed with Admiration.
So I thank you all for sharing
Your wonderful gifts with me
Im truly in awe.
I have different gifts which are irrelevant
Im really good at advanced math and science
I try to bring my mind to a artistic place
And it just won't settle there.
Thank you all again.
I love your work.
~Arianna Elise Darshani
Sep 16, 2015
Sep 16, 2015 at 10:36 AM UTC
Hellopoetry has the greatest poets of this time.
I am so bless to know them and to share too.
On the site that has the very best of them all.
There are so many to name on here right now.
Brandon Nagely, TheRaven,CJLove,White Wolf.
Vicki,Bijan Rabiee, Darrell Landstrom, Patty m.
Openworldview,forgotten, samanthax,Arianna, Fawn.
Dennis Willis,Evangeline Ruth Hope,Muzaffer.
Naceur Ben Mesbah, Faizel Farzee, Dan Hess.
Crazy Diamond Kristy, Katja Pullinen, Deb Jones.
M-E, Long Rager,Amulya,Pradip Chattopadhyay.
Madison,Joanna,Sally Bayan, Wendy ,Izzn,Fredrick N.
There are many more praying Blessings upon your works.
Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 8:55 AM UTC
but I have thoughts of Arianna grand
and Carly Rea just in my mind
Taylor swift with her legs
wrapped , well ,
I leave that to my imagination,
is it bad
an old dude thinks like that?
I guess for the young things
with my drool on em
it might
Aug 14, 2016
Aug 14, 2016 at 7:05 AM UTC
the voice of
the
wooden lute
awaken
the
laughter
break through
Arianna's
eyes
Aug 14, 2015
Aug 14, 2015 at 1:03 AM UTC