What is worth is not when you know that he's never going to loves you, but when you know that he could have loved you.

I don’t trust you. I wish I could, but I don’t trust you anymore.
You just constantly break my heart.
I can’t anymore, I tried very hard to be your friend, to become close to you. I tried, but now I feel stupid.
You don’t seems to notice it, I can’t pretend anymore, something in your magnetisum must have ****** me off.
I really wanted to makes you happy even if it was not with me, I could have done everything for you.
I can’t force you to love me.
I’m not blaming you, not at all.

I loved you. I loved you. I loved you.

Yesterday I went to sleep at 3am.
And I don't like Ukulele anymore,
And I think kisses are the most beautiful things in the world,
And I think I'm attracted to many people but only one can truly have my attention,
And I wish I have stronger friendship,
I wish I succeed everything,
I wish I was smarter,
I wish I was special,
I wish I was prettier,
I wish he loved me

I can't work. I don't feel like working anymore.
Yesterday was a sad and beautiful day as the same time.
I felt like an idiot. But I didn't want to think about it.
Today I wrote a little note, where I wrote all my feelings.
How my heart was hurting, now I feel so much better. I know that I will feel bad again. For the same reason.
I'm just lost. A bit. and I don't want to talk about it.