And my heart still feels for you, the feeling as we were close is still real in my senses. The feeling of belonging and warmth, as I closed my eyes and enjoyed being within the warmth of your arms I will never forget that feeling of bliss.

30th may 2014,  9am
Rootz Modebelu

It's passes by like a train from station to station, my mind is blank, but at the same time I wonder what it's all about, creative by mind yet encased by societies grasp, I've had enough of this candy crush that turns your brain to a mush, but still my mind is blank, longing for some positive stimulation from my with drawn self , this life is not good for my health, and my mind is still blank,

I'm on the verge of putting brush to paint, paint to canvas, but my mind is still blank, I see colours so bright yet they fade in the light that is not my mind, it's really darkness I feel blind. My mind is dark. I'm out of sink with the reality of me. Trying to lift myself up with my head held high but that's living a lye, my soul the consistency of melted ice cream I can't control as it runs out to form a puddle on the floor in the form of salty tears. My mind is numb and it's the best way to be when you feel the wrong side of life.

Here I am standing here looking forwards to the coming year,
So many things I have to learn, this year it's time to take my turn.

This way that way back and forth it started from the 24th.

From here I start out on my mission, a break down depression, from living in the system.
These corporate companies will never listen, as they only have one goal one mission, that's making money at our expense we are the cogs in a world of dispense.

It's sad that society has gone this way, can only wish this control ends one day. We all have to stand up and have our say, else things will always be this way.

So come on people have some courage, with your help this world could flourish . Stand up be strong, there's nothing wrong in telling society that this game is wrong.
If we all do then maybe some day our world see a brighter day.

A flash of insight In a heart beat ??? Perhaps !!

Boom boom bang a dang dang!!!  a nights sleep Leads  a merry dance in my chest I am awake!!!

Fighting to remember, to remember the words my subconscious is longing to tell to someone that will listen.

I lend my ear but it's to late, silence is the word once more.

02.21 am 3.6.14

Mum u were amazing.
Mum you we're my rock
when this daughter of yours did things wrong her actions you never knocked ,
instead you gave her your advice and support along the way

its a shame you had to go, had to leave the earth that day.
I was only about the age of 26 I was in Bristol u lived in the sticks that day will always haunt me those words ill never miss that you'd gone and left your body the sweet thoughts i can't dismiss

Mum you took your time to guide me, just shower me with love but now when this girl has to make these tuff decisions you help her from above
I appreciate and love u these feelings will never change
You will alway be that part of me as we very much the same.

Mum I know you would be happy, to know that now I found my dad ,
It with amazing reunion the new love they gave was vast.

I have this new wonderful family, but mum i ant going to lie it was so hard in the beginning,
to except this love and smile ,
but now I love them dearly and of this they may now know as it was hard to show emotion, as showing feels was no go

Mum I am so happy to feel this love once more it gives me the strength to carry on now as a person i can grow.

But now mum ,I have a new mum that will never replace u of course ,she threats me as her own and welcomed me from abroad . She didn't have to do so, to share her love with me, but For this I am truly great full I have another chance you see. so Chinyelu I thank you for your welcome your love and acceptance, happy Mother's Day to both my mums I look upon u with respect and love you are both so amazing both so strong.
I am truly blessed to have you, you really are divine so I wish you both a happy Mother's Day now I'm ending with this line.

Happy Mother's Day


Ruth's Rootz

In the every day, see the wonders of this life. Don't let the negative vibes run rife.
It's so easy to walk with your head held down
And go through life wearing a frown
Instead !!!!
Look up ,smile with your gaze held high
Make a positive canvass of the sky
Paint pictures n thoughts of positive vibes.
Practice these steps every day,
With a  little meditation along the way,
Its about the game of life and how we play It's about what we believe and what we say
positivity is the only way !!!!

Time my killer, my friend, my Excelerator through seconds minutes hours and  of the clocks mouth. Tick tock Tick tock!!! Into the next world of my life. Only two facts are certain in the vast expanse of universal matter.
Life
Death and that bit in between!!
In this time we have to find out who we are, but in this world of sheep it's easy to stay in line. Breaking free is a punishable offence, where freedom of speech is dumbed down and moulded into language more palatable to the recipient. Media tells us what they want us to hear, fear is their only real message. Our off springs senses forced into the next pop-stars message of naked, ignorance, in these so called hits. Sell your soul and you could have it all. Or just go with the flow, and u will be enslaved by a system cold as ice.

Despite all this stay strong, positive in the knowing you are doing the  best you can with the hand that's dealt. Keep driving forward, be a messenger unto the people of deaf ears and blinked eyes that there is another way and if we all stick together we are onto a winner. Have faith and face up to what is real. Knowledge is power.
Rootz Modebelu
5th November 14
00.30.

As i elevate one  foot after the other to place it down once more, i'm on the move, my heart tells my brain that tells my body this is how we roll.

The trees of my extended lungs keep me oxygenated  this action is underrated taken for granted by most. The rivers of my flowing veins lead the red matter with an ease of grace from peak to base. I am really alive!!!

A generation of change in life's rearrange this world is harbouring a big change I'm in it.
The great depression is upon us creating a nation of Prozac ravers as They try to in enslave us most become yet a shadow of themselves!!!

Control is their game, as all they care about fame, and monetary gain to them and this life is just a game.  But to us is a struggle, we all feel we're in a muddle so we continue with life on our beautiful struggle.

Universe come save us from ourselves in you we trust.
15/07/14

A figment of her forma self,  
she roamed aimlessly in this world of no tomorrow.
Lost with a inkling of hope from yesteryears.
  She longed to speak a story never to be told twice.
A tale mostly found in story books, that not many would understand with heart.
It was time to tell, time to move on, time to have hope once more, time find that hidden strength to carry on.
Time to become a winner once more.
3/11/14
23.12pm

Life carries me a long it's way, sometimes skipping but most of the time dragging me by the scruff of the neck, to places i never thought or wanted to dream of. Some days taking me to valleys of beauty and light and others to caves not of my choosing, rendering me helpless and alone with my mind in places where closed eyes is the only method of vision. Awake in a dream of a day that I wish to never show it's self to me ever again.
Then just when the warm mellow rays of sun, caress my olive skin once more that dark and changeable cloud draws it's self near, I argue with it to leave my side, and go play some place else, but  it sticks like a loyal lap dog I can on pray that it leaves my side someday.

03.04 am 30th May 2014
Rootz Modebelu.

( spelling and grammar are not my thing I am not an English teacher I am an artist.)

Here I go a again
Here I go a again
This journey on my own
The destination unknown

From green to brick
The eyes tell no Lyes
Wipe these tears dry

Oh me oh my , oh me oh why⬆

I ant going to lie
I just wana run faster all alone
Won't stop cant stop until I'm done
Destination still unknown

Oh me oh my , oh me oh why
my soul can never lie

Take these shackles for my arms
Pick these feet up and just run
But the world has another plan
Keeps me lock up dumbs me down
I got freedom on my mind
But there is no hope underlined

Oh me oh my , oh me oh why⬆

Some times I feel i could just die

Oh why oh why

But I'm stronger than steel
And one day this will be revealed
Will be free to build my life, I see children and a wife.

But from here I have to go destination still unknown

Wish me luck ,think of me, that some day ill be set free some day they'll set me free,some day ill be set free......... Is someone watching over me I guess someday I shall see.....I guess someday I shall see.....
I guess someday I shall see.....⬇

Rootz Modebelu

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