Clutching my chest
I can’t breath
I can’t see
I can’t be
Me

why
AAHHHHHHH!
am i
AAAHHHHHHHH!
still here?
AAAAHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
...
oh right
...
i succumb to fear

Do I go round in circles, turn left or right?
It's all the same, the path leads straight to you.
Was it something I said? Were my words too heavy?
Or was the silence too loud?
Spoke my truth with everything I felt.
Isn't it funny how you're so peaceful,
While I'm lost in thought.
— No shift, no change, you're still the same,
While I’m stuck here spinning out of control!
You’ve carried on with ease.
But the space is still occupied by you,
Time ticks, seconds pass —
waiting for your countdown.
Beyond reason, I still believe,
This is hopelessly a state of flux.

A tempting truth, I must say,
like a labyrinth of thoughts that flow through my mind.
Your name still lingers, bittersweet,
Your eyes, like coffee, dark and deep,
A memory I can't defeat.

The fear inside, a knot I can’t untie,
One, two, three—
I tell myself it’s time to break free.
To be brave, to let the truth spill out,
Let you see the parts of me I’ve kept hidden.

Your voice, just like a vintage song,
With passion and sin, it unfurls.

This is wrong,
I shouldn't want this.
Uh oh, I'm falling in love.

We loved the rain for its rebellion on time
The way that heavy skies defied the hour
And the blanket of clouds said rest now
This day is for you
To stay in bed with your lover
Or a book that understands you
The way the sky roiled low and dark
Not to smother or drown us
But to antidote our time poison
And wash us back into that which we are.
Infinite

My heart beats louder still,
Seconds slip, no words exchanged
It's a silent oath whisperd.

I walk as fast as the rain falls harder,
Waiting for your call, a message,
for you to come over.
To kiss me, to hold me,
and tell me,
'Baby, it’s gonna be alright.'
—'Baby, we'll make it!'
Tell me I’m the one. Make me yours.
Tell me what I want to hear —
'Wait for me, I’m on my way.'

I hold on to you still.
In my dreams, we’re a fairytale,
But as soon as I wake, you fade away.
That’s all it will ever be— a dream.
I realise, as time goes by,
You won’t call me,
Won’t hold my hand,
Won’t let me into your heart.
But what you do is lead me on,
Only to let me down so badly.
I love you so, I cry into the rain.

Baby, can you hear me?
Desperately calling out your name.
And you'll never hear it.
Because all you are is a poem you'll never read.