there is much to accomplish in the desert between oases

we went to the cryptozoology museum
which was filled with oddities and people staring
at the oddities
and demonizing the oddities
and reading about other people demonizing
the oddities
poor secretive creatures
just trying to live their best hidden lives
it made me sad but

if I'm honest
                   I have
         an oddity
                           of my own
               and
  I stare
        and
                 demonize
   too

he rounded the liar's bend
falling into pointless cruelty
it made him feel special
     hey- how much cruelty did it take to make you feel special?!?
for years he went on
kicking puppies in the dark
spitting on women while they slept
spouting senseless accusations at hapless bystanders

until one day
he found a willing **** to return the abuse
he so knew he deserved
     it was love at first curse wasn't it?!?
off he went with her
henpecked and bruised
still kicking and screaming
into the sweet misery he sought

he was never heard from again
though a mound in his missus garden would suggest
she had the last word

the only wishes that come true
are those ladled from the heart of God

gentle brown eyes
kind peaceful smile
slender angular strong
deep pitched hello
easy-natured laugh
thick wild hair
stories stories stories
sharing histories
sharing selves
spirit tapping at our doors
love tapping at our doors
friendship tapping at our doors

angels hold their breath
on the verge of
our first kiss

the stars whispered to me about you
they sent me magnificent geometries to share
with my lips against your skin
our light ripples out across galaxies and timelines
where we loved well
many times before
they tell me this, but I don't remember
I just reach blindly into the shrouded mystery
of my future, expecting to find your hand
and it is there

I see them now
the beautiful woman chained in a dungeon
the highborn noble without conscience
the brutality, the hopelessness
the merciful death that was long to arrive...

I imagine lifetimes of despair and guilt followed him
compassion and empathy slow to form over millenia
forgiveness elusive
he still can't get it right
I see them clearly now

we all have old patterns
we play on repeat
in my spare time I
delete
delete
delete

saluting our common sociopathy
from the balcony of social darwinism
blind to humility or empathy
and obvious reflections of narcissism

change the script? with peace and compassion?
or run predictable tropes of rage and melancholy?
grow into an emotionally mature society and
put in perspective the reruns of human folly?

yes please,
or be relegated to the galactic library
of failed genetic experiments
our modern rendition of comical incompetence

hey, you're kind of cute
and I like your style

but are you staying in this timeline?
cause I was thinking of switching

most of my steps forward
feel like steps back

fate won't let you cast away your burdens until you bathe in them fully

a great wheel turns around me,
like a giant slow moving gear
it just appeared, about a meter wide, and dark
horizontal over the earth, circling my hips
it has no light or color
but it wants to
it wants to spin faster and faster
funneling into the ground
igniting a portal in my spine
it wants to become a tornado of light and shoot up into space
maybe it will land somewhere in sirius or vega
who knows
maybe it's a stargate or an astral healing machine
maybe it's a dormant orb
maybe I'm a dormant orb!

or maybe it's an etheric garbage disposal
I do have a lot of junk to clean out down there

silent dancer
led by moon light
love paralyzes the tongue
until compassion learns to speak
earth, air, fire, and sea are equally understood
self is equally understood
as projection becomes a healing light
rather than a glass of hidden pain
the owl dances
in the parliament of life in love

what are they hiding from?
the monster lives in there
I stare at the little pyramid
wondering if Teddy is eating the crickets
hiding from him
in there

my narrative is definitely shifting
reality is changing
thank you wonderful friends
thank you excellent day

I came across an old notebook today
an old poem
beautiful, lyrical words of heartbreak and love
did I write this gem?
I still surprise myself

most surprising,
these passionate sentiments of longing...
I had no idea who they were about

I can think of plenty of reasons to love this life
but if I couldn't

sunsets would be enough

there is a new atrium in my body
columns of light press into me from beyond
magic energies swirl in the prism
a garden is blooming here

the first guest, luscious rose
bringing hope, love, a full head of opening dewy petals
thorns proudly protecting

as I look
others come

periwinkle carpets the ground
knitting histories
intertwining limbs, loves, futures

aster sparkles
a constellation of playful stars
teasing in her spontaneous joy

calendula peaks around corners
then demands to be seen
leading by courageous example

frenetic color follows zinnia
explosions of unbridled absurdity
   and I fly
in the green mist of imagination

more seeds have been planted
are poking through the fertile soul
I fall endlessly into the boughs of white pine
safe, protected, filling my lungs with ancient wisdom

nesting, I am a small furry creature inside myself
pulsing in the ecstasy of Gaia's stewards
your garden of eden in my heart

I am not holding back
this stampede
I welcome it
I am absolved
in this desire
this annihilation
is my salvation

I hold my line
I hope he holds his
we are fantastic creatures
holding this existence between our teeth
we juggle sorrows and joys
we welcome angels and gods
we touch lightning rods between our fingers

you cannot stop us
we evolve
slippery as fish in primordial waters
we are the bearers of a new age
and we will love
each other
and you

when you tell them incontrovertibly
for the hundredth time
you're never coming back

be prepared

it still hurts when they pull away

but after each time you say it
the next breath
is fuller than the last
your wings
wider than moments before
and the vast distant horizon
more brightly painted than you've ever seen

the earth is a ball of metal fire
guarded by dragons and deceptively peaceful lions
I answer the call madam, maiden, lover, crone
with rivers running through my veins,
flames leaping from my skull
trees growing from my palms
and flowers filling my heart
on the silent wings of night birds guiding me to my station
I answer the call

gratitude is appropriate
he chose to be a lesson
allowing others the chance to meet their heaven
to be shown their path to joy
he reaped no sweetness
expecting nothing but blame
playing the messenger of others' pain
the light does not shine on him so I will turn mine
to acknowledge
with all due respect
each life has it's place

I do not tire
I am invigorated
by your cards
your mouth
your desire
never ending fascination
I am your love
sought in this time
happily bound in eternities
inevitably collapsed in our unity
thank you, love
for joining me here
in this existence
I did not know
I would need you so

I woke from a dream this morning
with three penises
and three sets of testicles
sprouting from my groin

I was astonished
wondering about the implications
could they all perform?
could I have *** with three women?
or three men?
which gender did these penises prefer?
and how would that work?

or would I be too embarrassed by this mutation to ever have *** again?
I imagined a hand touching down there and felt
extreme embarrassment
no, this was definitely the end of my *** life
I would never have *** again

then something shifted
in my mind
and I woke
from THAT dream
original factory settings restored (I checked)

relieved (so relieved)

this was one problem the universe had not thrown in my lap (haha)
I can still see those tiny peckers though
like a bouquet of newborn masculinity

what high jinks
are going on
at the bottom of the ocean in my brain?

the wind terrified
howling vague forces slamming chaos
what would become of the world?
shaking, he braced himself against her
eyes alert, ready to attack
she stroked his head gently, cooing comfort
wrapped around him like a blanket
he calmed slightly, after a while
shakes subsiding into the pillows
tail uncurling from between his legs
still pressed hard against her
his emotional support human

he's so elegant
every piece of him an accent
every smudge of dirt aligned with the stars
every smile wood stove fired
he's authentically heart
mine

my Valentine has written me lovely words
thank you Valentine
my heart flutters low
a moth looking for tiny flowers in low grasses
it is forever spring when I see your smile
warmth rises on the horizon
rays of light bring love straight into my soul
the sun is between us
the moon is between us
stardust is between us
I've found another portal to infinity
winking in your sparkling eye

desire is an intoxicating pain
howling at the winter moon
he paces and stares at me hungrily
leashed and growling low
I approach timidly
as he presses towards me against restraint
and unclip
his collar

a smile that invites love
heart like a love cannon
thoughtful, gentle, wise
also
hilarious