Just like a spider on a web
You trapped me in your lies
I was prey in your eyes
My heart was just a trophy on your display
You treated my love like fools gold
You sold me false hope of a loving relationship
Stabbing me in the front with a smile
Just so you can get high off the pain inflicted on my face.

I think I’ll find a needle in a haystack
Before I find a soul mate
It’s exhausting to keep the faith
My confidence is slim
My expression is grim
I feel out of place in a world that beats me down to shame
I know love is not a race but even a marathon eventually ends.

Washing my face in her gushing waters
My favorite skincare routine.

It wouldn’t be her birthday without a gift
She won’t look hard to find what it is
I can see it in her eyes that she’s ready for it
Her gift is wrapped in my boxers
Come and unwrap it love.

My curiosity peaks for this unknown
Wandering thoughts on what lies past this door
Mind riddled with new beginnings and endings
Lust rattles my soul as my imagination takes control
Excitement takes over my body yet fear takes over my mind
Hedonistic fantasies playing on repeat
Knowing that this waiting game will end
To be stripped of my last piece of innocence.

Love skips pass my doorstep
As I wait patiently for it to ring my bell
Immune to all the nights my heart wept
25 years without a single love story to tell
  Love keeps passing me by
I wish to experience love’s presence
Imagination could never compare to the heated touch of a lover
Or the passion filled gaze from fluorescent eyes
25 years without being the object of someone’s desire
Love keeps passing me by
Love must not love me
I’ve waited and contemplated if it will ever knock on my door
Each day brings a new shade of disappointment
Ashamed to be robbed of the one thing I crave the most
Realization dawns on me as I believe
Love will always pass me by.