I am warm because your thoughts are burning me from the inside.

And if you think
that finding true love,
and keeping it,
is the hardest thing you've ever done,

try losing it.

I want that old love.
Deep down inside feeling of being loved.

Not this present kind with no substance that vanishes quickly at the first sign of trouble.

That thick and thin kind.
Just to think about the theme of love bring your significance to mind.

That old love that makes you reminisce about it.

i spent my life trying to please
someone with a twisted disease
i broke myself down
and tucked my feelings away
to become the person
they wanted me to be
i let myself be watched
through the glass of a two sided mirror
of a sociopath
i wallowed my spirit away
and begged for acceptance
but there’s nothing in the world
that i could do
to let the narcissist know
that i am human too

my one wish is
to find someone
who sees the world
as beautiful as i do
with their mouth
preaching poetic beauty
as i have once done
to all the boys
i have loved