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Aug 2019 · 230
ED/Ana TW
Emily C Aug 2019
Im not overweight
But I feel huge
I'm a balloon filled with cement
Large and heavy
I only see round
I want to be little
Petite
Dainty
Underweight
I want a sharp jaw line
So sharp
I could carve off the pounds
Collar bones so deep
They could hold every tear
Shed while on a scale
Concave stomach
Filled up with water
Like the kind from the pool
Where I'm too fat to attend
I wish I could put the gender wage gap between my thighs
I want my bmi and my 7th grade age
To be the same number
But instead I'm large...
Well Im back ig
Nov 2018 · 115
Who would notice me?
Emily C Nov 2018
No one would notice I was gone.
Well what about the mother
With the caramel skin with tightly curled hair
Well what about the boy in your 1st period
The one with the gap between his teeth and ask for answers
Well what about the boy in your 2nd period
Tall with blond hair and uses your body to hide his phone
Well what about the girl in 4th period
Who uses you for a semester long bicker with boy next to you
Well the boy behind you in 4th period
The one with the tan skin, brown puppy dog eyes, with the braces, with a smile that makes your day
Well what about the girl who's locker is next to yours
Who always goes on about how hard it is to open her locker
Who would notice if I was gone?
Everyone
I'm back!
Mar 2018 · 508
Self Harm and Depression
Emily C Mar 2018
Depression is being boss at fake smiles
Depression is dealing with the jokes
Depression is always saying "nothing"
Depression is always feeling alone
Depression is longing for the end

Self harm is covering your self always
Self harm is liking cold days
No questions about you jacket
Self harm is a sea of excuses
Self harm is counting the days clean
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Mar 2018 · 471
Last Summer
Emily C Mar 2018
I remember that summer night
Everything much different from now
With the neighbor girl
Then my phone lit up
A text from you
A little bit confused
I thought you didn't know me
You said hey
And we went from there
Up till the sun rose
Then every thought after involved you
We all talked all summer
By the end I was convinced
Convinced we known each other forever
You promise to never hurt me
Never leave
Of course I believed you
Then school started
On the sunny August day
We were attached at the hip
Classes with you were my favorite
Then October left
And so did you
Everything you promised to never do
You did
But now we have that summer
to remember
To remember a lost friendship
"I miss you" is about the same person for those wondering. I hope you guys liked it.
Mar 2018 · 261
I miss you
Emily C Mar 2018
Crazy how it all slipped away
I miss you
I miss the good morning snaps of your smile
I miss waiting for you at our spot in the rain
I miss seeing you after football practice
Healing you after being injured
I miss the inside jokes and games of truth or dare
I miss that flawless hair filp
I miss face timing at 3 am
I miss our calls during our favorite shows
I miss us listening to Black Parade Together
I miss you
And I can't believe how you left
secrets and all
And now I am just another broken heart in the story of your life
But now you are happier with her
Mar 2018 · 368
Young Girl
Emily C Mar 2018
November 8 2003 8:42 AM
A girl is born
Bright eyes
Smile spread across her face
A good heart and pure mind
As she grows up this changes
The eyes dull
Smile disappears
Heart is broken
Mind is full of painful thoughts
All loss of hope
Growing up hurts
Mar 2018 · 164
Invisible
Emily C Mar 2018
Who is the girl you bumped into in the hall
Who is the girl who never talks in class
That is me
Silent
The girl who no one notices
The girl who gets pushed in the hall
Thousand thoughts but you won't
Words trapped inside my mind
But I will forever remain invisible
Emily C Mar 2018
Beep Beep
The alarm blinks 5:00 am
Have to wake up early to fix your makeup
You turn on the straighten iron
While you wait for it to heat up
You apply loads of makeup
Then you put on your most trendy outfit
Just a little revealing but not too much
You go to school and you take a math test
Wow you got an A
NERD
You go to lunch
But you don't eat
You flirt with every boy you come by
You go home
You take off all the make up
You stare at the girl in the mirror
You don't recognize her
This continues
Until....
Mar 2018 · 239
I don't love you
Emily C Mar 2018
I don't love you
You promised to love
To never hurt me
But that is exactly what you did
I don't love you
But really I would be lying if I said that
I love you
I gave one chance
Than another
Until you left me empty
Broken heart
Crying eyes
I love you
I don't know where this came from but I hope you like it
Mar 2018 · 554
Good Enough?
Emily C Mar 2018
I am happy!
But then a little voice comes along
Today is such a
Fat
What?
Ugly
But I'm happy
Ew do you have acne
But I'm hap
Gross your thighs touch
But I'm ha
She didn't shave!
But I'm
Your clothes are so cheap
But
Do you have an overbite?
Hey
Wait. Where did you go?
I'm not good enough.
Then another little voice comes along.
Yes you are
I'm not good
Wow I love your hair
I'm not goo
You a perfect smile
I'm not
I love your shirt
I'm not
Yes you are. We all are good enough.
I'm good enough and happy.
Take that society
We all are amazing human beings

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