I'm sorry I complain so much
I understand you don't want to talk
To me when I am emotional
It's just that you have been my rock

I have no one to vent to
You're still one of my best friends
I need someone to spill my heart to
About how tired I am of dead ends

You don't want to hear me whine
Or listen while I get mad
Besides you can't make me feel better
Because you're the reason I'm sad

Sinking into my bed again
You're in my head and on my mind
I said I was over this but it seems
My subconscious hasn't left him behind

At night I'm haunted by his voice
Although my days are pulled by you
I thought I had killed old memories
The darkness revives what I once knew

I close my eyes and I see his
Every time I doze they come alive
These beautiful blues have become my foes
Unyielding no matter how hard I try

My dreams are out of control
Teeming with unwanted scenes
Unstable, they start spinning fast
Easily breaking heartfelt routines

I guess I can't trust my own senses
The signs I created are not even real
My imagination is misleading
I need to listen to what I feel

I'm unable to believe in visions
I'm imprisoned by my own design
This betrayal wasn't my decision
And the guilt I'm facing isn't mine

Desperate for a bit of rest
I wish his face wasn't always there
But I'm helpless and it's impossible
To change the scenery beneath my hair

What used to be a masterpiece
I no longer consider art
And I'd fare much better if
Me and my dreams were kept apart.

When your life constantly knocks you down,
It’s hard to wear anything other than a frown.
I know I’m down, but am I out?
My whole being is filled with doubt.
I find myself slipping into the depths of rock bottom.
Will I be able to make it till autumn?
Something tells me that it doesn’t matter.
And every part of my mind is scattered.
So I guess all I can do is try to get out of this pit.
And try to make it another day but I know I won’t be missed.