Depression and anxiety plot against me,
making my own mind the enemy.
Making it hard to sleep.
No rest, just tossing and turning.
I lie on my back and stare at my ceiling.
Stuck with my thoughts and dreams.
When morning finally comes,
I simply get up and force myself to get through the day.

Your love is my drug.
Your love has its highs
and its lows
one minute, I'm soaring high
E U P H O R I A
Then I'm falling \
D O W N D O W N D O W N
you pick me up
just to throw me down again
your sweet words caress my soul
then they cut deep
the words I'm dying to say
come bleeding out
but I patch them up
before you can hear my pain
I caused you pain
I'm not allowed to feel it anymore
you say you love me
then you say you don't know if we're meant to be
I want to set you free
I want to never let you go
why do I have so many confusing feelings?
Can you see the pain I'm hiding? \
Is the resentment in your eyes towards me?
Why are you even still with me?
time and time again
I hurt
but can't let you go
you hurt
but you won't let go
why won't you let go?
do you love me?
do you hate me?
do you feel both?
one day you're warm and safe like a blanket
wrapped around me softly
next day you're pushing me away
yet you're burning me like the sun
melting all the layers
deep in my insecurities
you pull out everyone

Sharing is Caring They Say
So I Gave Away Everything
I Loved and Lost
Letting Lovers Take Away
Things Most Important to me
You Took Away My Ability
To Love, to Trust
Stripped me of my Dignity
And Left me With Nothing
But Heart Ache and Pain
I am a Puzzle
With Pieces Missing
Look at me
You won't be able to Understand me
I feel like I'm empty
Who I am is no Longer Clear to me
but what I'm fighting to realize is that
I am in the Process
Of Healing
And Finding new Pieces
I Won't take Away from Others
I can't do the same thing they did to me
I will make myself better
I will be stronger
I'll be free from who I used to be
Don't look at me
I am a puzzle
for nobody but me