ASPHYXIATE ME

EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING TO MAKE YOU STAY

STAY WITH ME

ASPHYXIATE ME

the coffee-stained picture of us tells stories
stories of misery,
pain
but isn’t that what love is all about?

the coffee stained your face
like the alcohol to your mind

i can’t see you in the picture
i don’t see you in the picture anymore

its hidden on the pocket of my heart
the pocket that I swore,
i swore it wouldn’t fade

but I forgot your voice,
your face,
your eyes

it did fade.
and you knew it would.

liar.

everyone had left you.
left you to die,
in knotted veins
oozing blood
among ***** chains

in the condition you’re in,
maybe its better to die.


that decease.


they left me.
did they, really?

teeth bite into the veins
but the blood didn’t spill anymore
i looked at you

it’s been years,
years of grief
if you keep silent,
how would people know?

did they really left you?

silent, but not violent.

mother gave her life to me
gave me her hugs,
so i could feel her heartbeat

she held me close,
and whispered my name,
like a promise.

all this went away
with a few words


…


blank, my face.


i never would have thought

i never would have thought.

im weightless in the sea

i try to swim, swim back

back to the flowers,
the footsteps

to the shore

but i chose to drown
it’s my fault i’m weightless

like jellyfish
i glow in the sea
swimming, free

take a breath
but you chose death

looked like immense pain,
but it was just the desperate pleading for me to stay

you speak,
and more cracks appear

through my face
my lungs
my heart

you speak.
‘you wanted me to face my truth?’
‘so why don’t you face YOURS?’

my body broke.
i am truly broken without them