Part One
Cold wind rushes in beneath the cracked
window that was never fixed after you threw
that rock through it in a fit of anger when you
were drafted to the war in your mind,
the one that leaves us silent for days because
your pride keeps your jaw shut tight though
we surge with energy from the tension of our
love that dances around us and teases us with
the knowledge that one day we will come around.
I leave the broken window open now so when
you return again I’ll hear the pebbles
crunching beneath your feet as you make your
way up to the door, fumbling through your
pockets looking for the keys. You won’t need
them, you know, because I’ll meet you at the
door before you even try to open it.
I have a cold from the draft coming in through
the window. You’ve returned from the war
but I know it’s never over. You’ll stay here
with me until you’re drafted again. I’ll
savor each moment with you until then.
Part Two
I bury my face in your collar bone and I hide
my tears with the sniffling cold. I have missed
you, I always miss you. These days I have
with you are too precious to take for granted
I know my time is limited, you always leave,
duty calls, I can’t make you stay, I gave up
trying. You go to war, you come back again,
you come back for me but there’s always
the draft. The one through the window, the
one for the war, the constant reminder our
minds can’t ignore. You come back for me
you always do just like I’m always fighting
for you. One day the war will be over and
we’ll both see the sunlight from behind the
smoke and together we can close the window.
written at two different times about the same petal that keeps coming back.