I've got a secret
Kept it hidden well
It's destroying my soul
And gonna send me to hell
But I like how it feels
I love how it tastes
It's fun and invigorating
When I'm testing my fate
It boggles my mind
And clouds my eyes
Helps me become numb
And stops all the cries
I can smell the memories
Fading out of my life
With every pop, snort
And brand new knife

I say it doesn't matter,
But oh, how much it does
I know things aren't how you want them to be,
But can't you try a little harder?
I don't want to tell you
How much I care
Out of fear
That it won't make a difference,
I want you to hug me close
So I can hear your heart,
I want you to touch me
Whenever I'm upset
Because I felt I was being torn apart;
I just want someone
To  be there
I want you to kiss my cheek
No matter who is around,
I want you to sweet talk and flirt with me
No matter how it sounds

I say it doesn't matter - but oh, how much it does
I just want affection...
Is that asking for too much?

Pain runs thorugh my veins
Tears on the window pane
Why should I stand,
If you'll only push me down again?
Feeling so alone
Like I have no hope
Of ever finding a heart to call my own

What will be the end of it?
Won't you stop this torment?
I guess you won't stop till I mutter
You win