I won't be there to catch you if you fall

            *If you don't tell me where you are



10:04 am,  Saturday, June 27th, 2015

Models are clothes hangers

      Bound to be tossed aside sooner or later

Fresh, new faces and styles erupt daily*

      Don't take it so personally

Being just a hanger on a rack

Take what you learnt and be grateful for that.

7:18pm, Friday, 26th, 2015.

Wish I had the taste of you on my lips..

The sound of your voice whispering in my ear...

To feel your firm hands grab me greedily

To feel you hungrily, lavishly bite me

To hear you tell me that I am all yours and yours only, forever and ever

To make me tell you I belong to you

Me already Knowing it to be true

As you embrace me tighter

To watch your face as you take what is yours to keep

And be lost with you

For hours upon hours-

Just A dream ..

You take us when we don't want to leave,

We beg you for more time

But you are heartless and cruel.

If only you were kind

To let us decide

When we are done frolicking

If only you let us decide

When we want to be taken

1:40am Wednesday,  24th   June 2015

I see it!
I run!
I leap!
I fall!
I am unconscious!
I'm awake!
I have lost the rainbow from sight!
I close my eyes!
I peek!
I wait for another rainbow!
I'm old!
Time is up!
Only to realise there was never a rainbow.

Knowing you could be gone at any minute

Should make your life all the more thrilling by the second


9:16pm mon,  15 june. 2015.

A seed sprouts from the ground,

fighting its way through

though it was buried by dirt.

So I too, can push my way upwards,

reaching for the sunlight.

Stretching,

hoping,

to be out.

11:28 am   Tuesday , 9th, June 2015

The angel of death embraces us all
One specific day
He comes to collect each and everyone
Destined to be the end of us all
That is-The end of the current physical form we are in
Not the eternal end
For we all go on
Perhaps to another realm
Or we remain in deep sleep for judgement
Maybe our spirit or soul Is instructed to Attach itself
to a new upcoming life
To get a second chance
Or merely to feel a different life
Have varied experiences
In the form of bird, a tree, a speck of dust,
a drop of rain, a tiny pebble, a ray of light,
a smudge of mud,
For there is life in everything
How is there life in even a stone?
For the Supreme Lord made ALL
It is all an illusion under his sway
He created all
so this means all is in him and in him all
We must see God in everything
Living or non living
Animate or inanimate
Moving or stagnant
In air, land or sea.

From the beginning
It was always known and told to us all
That death WILL come.
It's the natural ending season of a phase we called being 'alive'
The winter season if you may
But we must be certain that it is not the permanent end
Some other step comes
only seen to the departed
Some other form it takes
Where it exists or just waits
Death is absolute that it will happen.
But it is not the absolute end.
It is simply a parting.
A farewell
A goodbye
To the face you see that soul as.
Goodbye dear soul
May your next journey be one of light, peace, love,
joy, eternal bliss and comfort.
Travel safe.
Farewell.

25th May  2015  9:38am

This world is full of magic.


Look for the miracles.**






   *Just don't be deceived by the false performers

Light of my eyes,
angel that saved my soul,
beauty so divine,
more precious to me than gold,
warmth so tender
my skin never feels cold,
pressed against yours
I can grow old with you by my side
I Fear no more,
The one I was searching for has finally come home.
Where she belongs is here with me,
Tahirih we were meant for eachother
-of that I am sure.


Scarlet red were your lips that night,
So tender to mine I can feel it so close, taste so good I can hardly control my desire for you,
holding back is the greatest challenge,
you are one of kind there is no rival,
you are my Queen Tahirih
.. There is no reason for us to part
any who interfere should be charged for treason.
For I am your king and you are my Queen, and we shall create our own dynasty
for we are both royalty


King of the seas,
Queen of the fires,
beauty that burns a hole through any attire,
strength so powerful all shall bow,
we were born to take this world for ours. Waking to destiny,
you and I have begun,
our journey has started,
Tahirih are you ready to fight with me by your side?
Any in sight we shall conquer,
for you my love,  
give me strength to lead,
let us strive forward and plant our seeds, that they may grow and become trees.

Abundance awaits with your belief,
you and I,
There is nothing we cannot defeat!

8:18pm, Sunday, 24th May,  2015

Swirling in a typhoon
Never wanting to be still again
For i have never felt so alive
So captivated by this natural force
A rush
A truth
A powerful pull
A true love

I AM the divine centre of this typhoon
Consumed by its very existence
Wanting to forever dance along with him
To be entwined with him
This typhoon of love i call --
*my soulmate

10:38am Wednesday,  20th May,  2015.

I KNEW he loved me

For before he was gone

He turned back to look me at me one last time

With a longing look of not wanting to be separated from me, his one true love.

Yet he must go.

BUT His look MADE me know...  

That he is and will always be- all mine


12:30am Thursday 7 th may  2015

Spun in his web** of love,

Adoration,

Admiration,

Desire,

And Protection.

-by this eternal spider.


12:26am, Thursday, 7th May 2015

He kisses my lips tenderly.

He is a butterfly and I, his sweet nectar.  





12:21am, Thursday, 7th, may,  2015

DROWN* me in your love

     Fill me with joy

My dear RIvEr.  



12:19am,  Thursday, 7th May,  2015.

Drooping slowly

Yet Refusing to shut

They spring right back open

Wide as if shocked!

How she works diligently

Forgoing tranquility

I shut my eyes
                         I hold my breath
Jaws clenched
                         Nervous Mind
I expect a lesson



                    Instead, pull out confusion.
In an unwanted explosion of emotions.

10:57 pm . Monday 9th March, 2015.

The cool water lifts my spirits as it takes me away
I lose myself in melodious , rhythmic waves
My limbs curling and twirling with each swish
Bending and whirling with every swash
The water is with me, being good to me
Dancing and Harmonizing with my body.

I visit ocean, she always takes me for a joyride
I'm her favourite human, she never shows me wrath.
She carries me far away and then she brings me back to land.


Jan,2015.

Thou wander'st desperately
Carrying thy frozen heart
in shaking, worrisome hands

Lack of love breaks thee
A beg of good fate- remains an unheard plea
Thy life an endless winter
without even a measly 'camp fire'

Thou art cold, unwillingly, remorsefully  cold
Craving warmth for thy forsaken *****
An ***** that has never been played
A thing thou carriest
An instrument called thy heart.
An ***** that has never played- the music of love.  


9:28 am- Tuesday, 3rd, March, 2015

Doubt anyone would get this..

Silver* - I'm enchanting and amazing

          Gold - I'm dazzling and glamorous

                      Red - I'm fierce, blatant and outrageous

                               Black - I'm pensive, pondering the hows and whys 
 
                    Orange - I'm kind and helpful, a humanitarian

          Blue - My sapphire heart burns, I love angelically

  Pink - I'm compassionate, delicate, a water lily

               Green - I'm conservative, thoughtful with care

                           Purple - I'm proper, polite, royally charming

                                        yellow - I'm ecstatic, eccentric, a fanatic

                              peach - I'm pleasant, quiet, beautiful to see

            grey - I'm sophisticated, driven, straight-forward, no *******

Rainbow* - I'm a rainbow!
My split seconds of elated perfection      
..oh those rare moments...<3

I am not one to be easily offended
                    
               My compassion kicks in  
                                            
                                     Bitter words can only come from a bitter source



So instead of feeling hurt for me,

I feel hurt for you...

I wonder, what happened that made you temporarily be so?

If it makes you feel any better, then please, continue to throw your darts

and then when you're done, I'll brush off the poison

and give you nectar in return,

for you are in NEED of something sweet

you need it, more than I do, I'll make some more for me later.

So I will do my best to make sure you leave with a full jar of it.



In fact I'd only get offended
                     IF you insult or harm others...
                                         only because I'm not sure if They can handle it .*

If I won't be there to explain what had just happened,
that they were not the real target.
That you were the one who felt so much pain
that it overflowed from your lips
that you had no control
that all you needed was a pretty flower
a loving smile to erase that unwanted stain.

7th, July, 2014   1:10 pm.

S        t         *r            a      n      g          **e

                                          ­                            becomes NORMAL one day.  

7th, July, 2014

I was just a caterpillar
               Eager to turn
Unsure what to do to make it happen
I’d sample all sorts of leaves
Wanting them to have an impinge on my existence
Nibble here, devour there
so voracious without a care
               Just Eager to turn.

All along I thought I was pink
Turns out it was all black and white
That phase was just a preparation
For my true purpose
All those struggles
Bending branches, forcing travels
Fighting my way through the chaotic lands of green battle
It was all a grand rehearsal.

Then one day without notification or indication
The real show came to play
In trance I start to weave in beautiful silk
a case, a home, a place to think, I pause…
For the first time I had stopped my crawling.
I cover myself without thought,
No more pondering on why, how, where, when and what.
I did it alone
I'm sure of that

A chrysalis was being given to me
That’s how I see it
For I never even knew how to make it
I never knew IF I’d make it
I’d always worry about if I would break it
Not knowing what that IT even was
Then it happened.
Simple in the end though intricate in steps

I stopped everything
And rested my caterpillar head.
Clung to my home metamorphosing
It was there I saw my heaven
I saw other creations
And found out secrets about divination
I saw why I had done what I did
I knew what was to come-just a bit.

                                                      Three­ months later,
                                                      I emerged slowly
                                                      Each­ day a part of a new life came to glory
                                                      A transformation  
                                                ­      A surprising revelation
                                                      ­Having not an expectation
                                                     ­ I evolved to a butterfly-human
                                               ­       Oh my, the new view is a blessing.

                                         5th, July, 2014     5:02 pm

Left* -

 my desires boiling...
my needs over-powering...

  carefree



                             ­                                       Right-       
                                                          ­                                                
                                                               my light flickering...
                                                   ­            my heart yearning...                                                                
 ­                                                            
    ­                                                            Passionate
                




                                                   Center -

                                                   Logical

                                                   Steady

­                                                   Reliable
                                                    ­          
- March 11th, 2014  11:48 pm

I feel waves rushing through me relentlessly 
I choose to focus on just them...
Starting to listen intently...
Beginning to move in rhythm 
to their sweet melody
Hushing me
In lullaby. 

This, her old soul, 
Is Illuminating her core
So that she continues to rise in times of darkness 
That has always been constricting her from tender two
When she began to feel elements like no other.
I am contented she can feel and hear the soothing whispers of nature.

I pray to All-knowing Universe 
Continue to bless this flower child...

- March, 4th, 2014. Around 5 pm....

Every thought is like a single red blood cell,


                                                         ­           it may seem insignificant,


                                           being­ only one,


but it adds up to enriched blood,


                                which powers and transports everything around your body,




                                       Disregard not, the small thoughts~




     Small tweaks lead to noteable improvements




- March 4th, 2014.     3:40 am.

*** is male
                                                         ­   **** is female

              *** for money

                                                          ­                                         *** for drugs

                               *** for lust

                                                           ­                         *** by force

         *** galore

                                                         ­                                                  *** as a bet

                 *** to fill boredom

                                                        ­                        *** for relief

                    *** for pleasure

                                                      ­                                        *** with passion

                               *** with fear

                                                           ­                        *** as bargain

                *** for attention  

                                                    ­                                   *** for acceptance

                                  *** make-believing

                                                 ­                                             

*** with feeling
.
.
*** with love
.
.
.....................................................Bu­t Making Love** ..............That's Real ***.  *** is Poetry.


                                            - March 4th, 2014.    3: 01 am.

You can* falsely call an apple a grape,

           can say the inside is silver and that it’s poisonous,

           can assume that the apple is bitter,

           can paint the apple blue,

           can believe that the apple could make you fly

You can talk about it all you like...


It doesn't change the true nature of the apple now, does it?

                                                                                        - March, 3rd, 2014.  4:29 pm.

My heart bleeds* for all those who have suffered wrongfully.

                                      My eyes water when I see what they've been through.


My hands stretch out towards them  but they are so far away...

                                      I wish I could help you  ALL  overcome your pain


I clasp, I bow and I pray - that any evil be removed from wherever you are           today in everyway.


A Reaction I Feel Daily

- Feb 28th, 2014  2:47 pm.

Cold and stagnant* - I was found by a creature with two legs and two arms.
I was in a safe, concealed space before it took me.

Buried - it stuck me down without my consent.
It would not listen to me, almost as if it couldn't hear me.
Probably because I was too tiny. 

Panicked - I was afraid I'd suffocate but somehow I found a way to breathe. 

Scared - It always came back to spy on me, but I was smart-
I stayed hidden below and remained unseen. 

Thirsty -  I soon discovered and made a friend called Water.
 It told me to let it in- that it'll help me feel better.
 It seemed friendly, so I did what I was told-
and let as much in, to my heart's content. 

Changing - I felt myself swelling.
I was nervous of this new bulging yet I kept in-taking-
before Water stopped visiting.

Stronger - I became comfortable with new found energy and decided to stretch below and tour my new home.
 When I did that I met another friend called Soil.
It gave me delicious treats and later in life taught me to search on my own for more.

Brave - One day I had the courage to peek outside.
I stretched upwards amazed that I can change myself in such a manner!
It was then I felt myself glow for the first time!
Instantly, a new friend I met!
Helpful and wise- her name was Sunlight!
She taught me how to make my own food and reassured me that I can utilize her glow whenever she came out to play. 
Seeing Sunlight was the best part of my day.

Bonding - Water said he and Sunlight are best friends.
He goes up to see her and he hitches a ride back down with his Cloud allies.
I wanted to have a close relationship too,
so I started to stretch even more,
reaching as high as I could,
trying to touch her. ( never been able to touch her but at least I felt her)

Growing, stretching and enhancing- below and above -
Green velvets graced my brown limbs and down below I sunk deeper.
I sprouted delicate pink studs on top and learnt to dance with the Wind.
That was the most blissful thing.

LIVING -
Soon after, I even grew fond of Human! That's the word, a Butterfly who drank my nectar, told me it was called.
In the day, out of kindness I gift Human with rich oxygen and in return it enriches my home with good intentions.
Just to let me be me-
pretty as could be-
It sends me positive energy, much to my glee.
Human had let me be free-
never plucked at me.
I was and still am thankful.
I blossomed to the best of my ability until the day I started to wither.

Serene - Soil told me to be optimistic, that it will let me be one with it.
How kind.
It even said "Together, we can help the newcomer and show it how to fend for itself. "
I was overjoyed to hear that - for that meant even in my death- I can still help one more, allowing my essence and presence to be absorbed by its fresh existence

Fading
Just wanted to tell my story
-Before the fall of my last petal.
My life as a flowering plant was exceptional.

- Feb 28th , 2014        2: 44 am.

Music - the only friend who you can listen to -
                                                       But can never answer the questions you ask.  

Music- can be responsible for your joy -
                                                      Should never be blamed for your bad actions.

Music is part of your life. Music is your friend.
                                                      What's your friend like?

- Feb 28th, 2014.     1:45 am.

When smoke fills lungs

            Blood in veins freeze

                       Tears stream down on face

                               Hands collapse disgraced

                                   Heart's screams ignored

                                           Lips curl

                                                   Mouth exhales.

Angel cries for that soul.
When smoke fills lungs.



- Feb 23rd, 2014. 3:13 am.

Yes, the sun goes down
And the stars are no longer mine
The weather gets rough
- not all the time.
The night comes again
and I admire the sky
- Hopeful? Yes!
- Worthy? Yes.
It's all a cycle I guess
one to embrace
and accept with grace.

-2013

The waves of the ocean are as endless as my thoughts
Calm during the days and recklessly crashing at nights
But the horizon sets beautifully reflecting on mine waves
In need of the water, in need of my phase.

- Dec 18th, 2011. 11:41 pm.

Strolling down a path
Enjoying my rhythm
Curious, brave and happy.
Creatures observing animatedly
Some ferociously
But I smile in response
For whispers in the dark
Knives behind backs
Won't stop these tracks.

A new light beams
A new love for The Supreme
Something real.
Profound happiness beckons me
Soon I will be floating
Truth be told whole heartedly
I wouldn't have it any other way.

-Feb 1st, 2014. 5:45 pm.