I stretched my arms to those
Of my family and friends, but
No matter how hard I try
My demons are too powerful.

“You are a failure!”
“Just give up!”
I crashed and I burned, and my
Demons accomplished their goal.

My mind becomes flooded with
The ashes, still smoldering with
The Evilness of my demons and
Their words of discouragement.

I open my eyes and I see a light;
It shines so bright I become blind.
A voice I hear from the light and
I could not believe that I hear.

“Rise my child, from the ashes
You’ll grow.
Stronger, better, and brighter
Than before are you.

Rise my child, and spread your
Wings.
Your family and friends will guide
You along your way.

Your journey was harsh and filled
With so much despair.
The ups and downs, your journey
Was no a roller coaster ride.

Close your eyes and listen to
My voice.
Let it fill your mind with
Warmth, Love, and Happiness.

Your demons thought that they
Have succeeded.
But it is you who have succeeded
Thanks to everyone around you.

You have succeeded by knowing
Your demons.
Now wage war against them, and
Your demons will fall.

Rise my child, become the
Phoenix.
You are better than your past,
Reborn into Greatness.”

The Phoenix I am gives me strength.
Anxious I am, but fearful I’m not.
I am excited for a new beginning
And nothing can hold me back.

I am a Phoenix, stronger than before.
I close my eyes, spread my wings,
Hold my breath, and I break through
The Darkness of my mind.

He wasn't always this way
A life  of smoke and ash.
He's A burned house
Only ash remains.


" He wasn't always this way"
I declare.
Not knowing his past.
But knowing no one starts like ashes.

No one starts like the ruins of his old home
Which was burned down
While his mother was still inside
No one starts like his mother ended.

He wasn't always this way.
Now he lives in ashes.
He lives for smolder. Lives for smoke.
Lives for ashes.

With every cigarette he has
Every drug he sells.
He lives in smoke.
Smoke and cinder.
His teenage lungs up in smoke.
His brain fiery addicted.

He said he didn't care.
A life in smoke.
A young life... tossed before the flames
Consumed

They lick up his soul
Relieved
He is.

Cindering, smoking
Smoldering.

Burned.


Cauterize the wound.
Obtain life again from the ashes
That were the death of you and your mother.
Like a Phoenix be reborn from the rubble
Smoldering and roaring
You are a beautiful flame.

Obtain beautiful flame.
Not searing flame
So I then I won't have to say
He wasn't always this way.

Glimpses out a bland window at nothing but a sour scene
I wonder where exactly it is I am going and why.
Should you know, should you see me pulled over on the edge
please do tell me when I got there and how to free my soul.

Trees race me as I go west into the sunlight,
clouds and sea wave gingerly as we part at the crossroads,
flowers bow their heads south towards the warmer homes,
children dance north along main street asking who they could be;
I guess the world still has some hearts that care.

Then I leave town reminded of past friendly faces
yet relieved of pain inflicting demons of my home.
Perhaps this is an adventure that could be fun... I suppose
or maybe it's a vacation, world only knows I could use some of those.

So I keep going slowly slipping into a dream world
I can't keep my eyes open any longer, though I'm still behind the wheel,
Some people would tell me to get a room and sleep
but I know myself all too well, I can't do that and not not weep,
too many memories from places like this under these stars.

So I guess I'll just pull into the rest stop ahead
hold my mind in my hands and wonder how your life goes.

In a way this is meant to be my letter to you
simply saying hey, how do you do;
now though it's my cry to everyone and anyone at all.

Though I am not crying for your love,
nor am I begging for another new old friend.

In the end, I'm sitting here, just venting
about the pain my brain says I've seen
and explaining this trip
through all the cobweb and all
as I tried to find someone new to be.


With Love,
M.R.K

Rise from smoldering ashes, bring forth new life in a outward burst of flame, and holy cleansing fire. Like the phoenix, I have been given another chance to live again; You to can rise from the ashes of a world that is too clouded to see, take my hand, and begin to fade until there is only an ember glowing among ash, and erupt into a fiery flash blinding all who witness becoming a new you rekindling the flame of life, and beginning again. You have done to me what I cannot thank you enough for. You have given me a reason to rise from these ashes, I will in turn give you a reason to rise from your own ashes, or I will burn out with you.