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Deep Jan 2021
I'm fighting a war in my head,
Plant few armed forces there too
So that they can separate the infiltrators
crossing the mind border...
Tint Jan 2019
Suicide this, suicide that
all I hear is how they know it
how much knowledge they can tell
because they have the purpose to say it
and their commentaries of hate

Did you know?
Do you know?
How it felt when the voices
when their words are on repeat
and my soul made up of paper
is scribbled by ***** names

When the darkeness is my lover
and it embraces me with hate
no place to run to
no person to care
All I could do is be in a corner
I sat and rocked myself to sleep
hoping the scary lullabies
will give me a little peace

It hurts. Did you know
My head hurts with all I'm thinking
and my resolve is frozen in
I was touched by coldness of a monster
but I found a warmth instead
for it gave me a little vision
that everything will end

That is suicide, it is self-free
a one way road to run to
if the void inside ablaze
and yes, maybe it is selfish
but let me think and breathe
for many years I have been fighting
don't I have a right to wish?
for all the pain to be over
for a freedom to embrace

Did you know?
Do you know?
Suicide this, suicide that
Stop. Stop your happy endings
there is no cure to my self-hate
I just hear too much and nobody listens to mine.
Cloak Oct 2017
Sometimes...
    I sit here and cry,
       Because it's You I Despise.

Spend every waking hour
                                by your side;
    Hearing every I Love You and
                                      Goodbye.
  
With every kiss you give,
          I feel Empty and Sick...

Why do you deserve to be Loved?
When everything about You is...    
                                             Flawed.

  You're an Accident,
                   A Disgrace.
  You don't belong in this place.
                       Dead and gone,
            Where you belong..

So My death
     Do not prolong.
                I Hate You...
                         I Hate me...

You can hate yourself...
                        
                            ­        Apparently...
This was after a 2 year relationship, my life spiraled out of control into hard substance abuse and an obsession to die. I blamed myself for it... But I now realize Love cannot be regulated.. Either you're all in or you're out.. Even though you can blame yourself all day and focus so much on aggressive self destructive behaviors, at the end of the day you will find that peace you have so desperately seeked.

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