I was travelling along a busy road-
Eyes opened and closed.
I had music in my ears so loud that
I could hear the sound of
Ringing with every note.
Way out of the window,
I raced the ****** train to Scotland
Up a dual carriageway and felt rapid
Time dispel all notions of
Going nowhere in life.

Without warning my world was jolted and
Came to a stand still.
We were in motion but
I was trapped and uncomfortable as
I remembered that yesterday,
In your thoughtful, rash way,
You texted me from a tent in Leeds
Telling me that
It was over.

Grass looked so much greener on the other side
Of the glass, yet I was
Unable to let go of the past.
I thought to myself  
'This is not how I planned my life would turn out'
At least, not today.
It hit me that I can
Never plan to be happy because
On the days I plan to be happy I will
Think of this moment and
Be sad.

Earth seems out of tune as
I lose the race through thoughts of you and
Begin to
Hate my favourite songs;
I love you.

I should have known better.
I can't decide whether to
Live my life and jump onto the train ahead or to
Jump in front of it.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough and
I could never be
No matter how hard
I tried.

I'm in a traffic jam now.
I watch the sun become eclipsed by the clouds and
I wish you were
Here.

Sometimes I wonder
where is the people
that say they will be by my side
in the good and the bad times?

They suppose to be here
helping cleaning my tears,
taking a good smile
from this sad scar.

Oh, dear loneliness
you became part of my life
Now its just you and me
walking through the path.

What's going on next?
Who I suppose to trust?
"No one should be trusted,
now you will have to be alone."

I constantly could feel
like drowning in a glass of water,
always looking for answers

It's time for me to be happy
with them or alone
It's time to stop please them
and become someone who I will be proud of.

Oh, dear loneliness
thanks to be by my side
you help me to understand everything
and now its time to act.