today i've realized that
it's been a long while
since i've ever asked you,
"how are you?"
and
"how was your day?"
"have you eaten?"
and i feel so guilty
that i took advantage of your pure heart
and amazing care
that i was too focused on myself
to notice how you were doing.
i feel so sorry
and so angry
and upset at myself
for not loving you like
you deserve
and i hope that one day
you'll forgive me
and i'll be able to listen to
your
endless stories,
beautiful passions,
and crazy thoughts
that i once immersed in
but forgot to
because i've been
drowning in my problems
and not taking the time
to listen to you.
i'm going to try to be less selfish
and take the time to get better at
learning
understanding
loving
you.
because you've given me your
faith
time
love
and world.
and i feel so sorry that i haven't been giving you all of mine.
this is the time when i blamed myself for your long departure, and how you haven't been gone. i realized i had some faults, but it was wrong of me to place all of the blame on myself when a relationship takes two people.
