Although I dont know her all to well
With a first impression flawed
Ive wrote this poem to show and tell
her happy birthday! I KNOW, this is odd-

Who writes a poem as a birthday gift?
So personal yet incomplete-
Its because im here so spirits lift
And to show remorse for my deceit

Im not really as rude as i was;
Not nearly as mean of a *****,
Still im unfiltered, simply because -
When around lucie hehe, sometimes I switch
So Shay,
im sorry
for unleashing my inner *****.

Happy 24th Birthday- from me, to you-
Im too poor to buy presents
So I hope this will do.
With words incandessence
Do you boo boo!

You can't stab and apologie,
You can't say bad words and take them back,
You can't make me say something and then say you are sorry to force me,
You can't make me believe you are perfect and then take it all back,
You can't say you are sorry when it's too late.
You can't, that's it.

Please forgive me
I have the worst kind of writer's block

I have thoughts pouring out
from everywhere
I still can't touch my pen
I have no right to be angry
no right to be hurt
no right to be sad
It was my fault

So please forgive
Give me back my right to be
my right to write

When I lost you
I don't remember losing a part of my soul

In fact since I lost you
I don't remember having a soul at all

I lost
I know I did
I did not realize I was
Losing
I know I lost
I stopped fighting
You don't have to remind me
I lost
I already know I did

After 5 years
a little less
I lost you
I lost you all
I know I did

You don't have to
Keep yelling at me
I already know
I lost
I stopped fighting

I lost
I know I did
I did not realize
I was hurting you
But now I know
I hurt you
So I lost
I know I did
I said sorry
I am walking
Away
I lost

I know
You can stop yelling
I apologize
I stopped
I am walking away
I lost you
I know

I lost
I know I did

                                   So please stop yelling