I have to die one day. So everyday I’m praying & giving.
Do I qualify to get in according to how I’m living?
Character took me places deposits couldn’t.
& I’ve played the hero on days I said I wouldn’t.
How can you sleep on my cape & then let them talk bad on my name?
Mentally torn, the script says to turn the cheek to the false claims.
My mind is engulfed in flames.
but they’re always extinguished by a heart that’s tamed.
Character assassination is the ultimate disrespect.
Failure is a two sided coin, one side effort, the other neglect.
How could they condemn me with how little they know??
Be vigilant and take notes.
Beware the day I actually want to be Thanos.
Nothing they say about me is in my heart.
But, I’ve heard the script so much I’m starting to want the part.

If She keeps breaking my heart

time after time,

A whole book of

poetry

I’ll eventually

rhyme

I am just a mess
Of wonderful contradictions
Like my heart says one thing
But my brain just cant listen
That's what's cold
About living in a world so cold

Days turn to freezing nights
Friday nights turn to starting fights
Your shirts are my sweatshirts
Tucked in a drawer
To help me
Sleep at night
Don't steer to far from the sidewalk
To scared to walk at Night

Ever Since you left
things have gotten a little harder
Try not to think about you
Just to get past it
But every time i see these little couple
looking cute with their boos
It gets a little bit harder
to stop thinking about you

But don't forget
you were my king
I was
your Queen

Our exteriors like gold
and all you did was
scratch me
Had mental breakdowns
every time your your name
had crossed me

In your arms
the only place i ever felt free
your word were the key
the key to my heart
Filled with your lies

But every time i paid the fee
Every time i rebuilt me

And i admit
it had hurt
Cuz i had thought
you were my gift sent--
sent from my guardian angel

But instead
you were the best dressed curse
Sent down as a test
and i had failed
Cuz i fell for you

For a second i thought you were falling too
But on contrary
you turned out to be playing games
Out running rampant on these streets acting strange
i guess that's what happens
when you let your man run on free range

I swear this life is so funny right
Living in a cold world
Every one is in their own inner wars
Losing battles, dodging love, and chasing acceptance
Running towards the closer exit
to scared to be loved
to familiar to what their ex did  

Young girls walking around with their hearts already broken
lowering their voices
trying not to be outspoken
face soaked in
tears
so tired of sulkin

Living in a cold world
our hearts are all frozen
my hearts already broken
I guess tha'ts why i cant stop smoking
i figure if i just keep rollin
i might be able to escape these emotions

My flaws
My fragments
My scars

Living in a world so cold
Living  in a world were
Your self-worth is equal to Instagram likes
Lowering your self worth hoping
He'll reply
But babygirl sometimes
its better to be shy
To shy away from the people that make you cry
the people that make you wanna run away and hide
The people that make you believe it would be easier to die
The problems you can't answer why

Living in a world so cold
It's greatest Contradiction
it's beauty held in it's own mass destruction
Its beauty held in the paths it corrupts
Its defined as beautiful corruption
Recycled, broken pieces
that's beautiful destruction  
Living in a world with wonderful contradictions
It's freedom blooms in it's own restrictions
all facts start with fiction
Our opinouns transform to our definitions
Between all the religion, politicians, and convictions
I don't know if i'm ready for all the
Deceptions, Contradictions, and Obcessions

Living in a world
A world with wonderful contradictions

Escape
so wanted
but only comes
Once a year
for me.

You see me standing
here,
yet you do not see
the hands that hold me
to this world
that's not
my own
with force so strong
I cannot leave.
I cannot
slip
away.

My world
with grass so soft and lush
purple sky
with blue that
leaks like a stream
through a garden.

The lonely tree
so tall
a single branch
weighed down
by a swing.
my swing.

Walk some ways
down the hill
so steep
that in this world
you'd fall right off the edge
and down into the sky.

But you aren't in this world
you're in mine.

And you'll find a circle
of stones laid out
around a pit
of electric blue
the flames of a fire
but it
wont
burn.

Spread your arms
fall backwards
into flame.

This world obeys
ask for flowers
and they will grow.
I wave my hand across the sky
and
paint
a
rainbow.

But these hand so strong
grip me here
this world
where nothing changes.
overcome by sadness,
and half
as mad
as me.