Falling softly, sweetly,
melting deeply,
tingle with every touch,
our love means so much,

Surrounded warmth,
a golden glow,
tickling tummies,
'come on, u know!

I don't know why I'm here again,
Too weak to fight myself once more,
I'm strong but now not in control,
The grey is growing blacker,

Put pen to paper through self divulging,
Frantically searching for the answers,
From head to toe unexplainable confusion,
Frustrating me to the point of my angers fuse,

Please help me I'm pouring unconsciously,
No one hears or knows how can they?
I'm a stranger fighting the evil inside,
Unknown this is scratching my core,

To lay my cursed shell beneath the waves,
And breath in my last breath of sanity,
Only to drift with the peace of knowing,
No shame will be done to innocence below,

Upon birth should never gasped first life,
The devil placed me here to cause this strife,
I know I'm good please trust me its true,
So why does everything i touch disintegrate,

My poor flourishing precious pearls,
protect them from myself not in body in mind,
To take away the anger and pain,
Only to leave uncertainties oh dam!

Help me please! the good says fight,
The black satanic inner sister surrenders,
I'm looking for cures, for answers I'm crazy,
Therefore my body has given up my mind wanders,

When the light shone into my life,
Fate knew this bitter path would i follow,
I'm bitter I'm shallow I'm selfish, relentless,
**** everyone and everything no self control,

Oh for god sake please save me before its too late,
Give me the strength to blow the dark clouds away..

If I could write my thoughts
You may not quite understand
For the words we are stapled with
Seem ridiculously bland

Music flows like colours to beat
Hypnotising my soul, sparking my senses
Controlling my body I'll jump to my feet
Unimportance of visuals like seeing through lenses

If emotionally moved why not be 'fantabulous'
Eyes closed I see clearer and all is so peachy
Bisto relates to Sunday but life is better gravy
Grey Monday's depress but not 'Grey..You get me?

Just separate your instincts of colours and such
Words are just letters You'll see in a bit
Brains installed with viral fake mush
Some never stray from the path of life's Pit

So blasphemy like '*******, **** and ****
Bad letters because swearing is ...wrong?
The four letter 'C' word the worst though admit
Cos **** is just letters made worse for too long

Sue is my name all over the world
Yet Mum can be Mom, Dad, Pa, Pere
If taught **** for Mum wisdom are not pearls
Red is not hot blue is not cold transparent unclear

So simply my mind see's what's gone so wrong
To un -train what's been taught like losing a limb
People are 'Crazy' to not follow and conform!
Don't get the page yet? read on its no sin

Fantabulously individually Humans
My DNA matches no others so why  march to the tip TOP beat
How beautiful we are 'ALL' Races of humans, Us
The recent power crazed gave racism a ******

****, Racism, diets, Religion
War, Rich, Poor, just made up words
Humans empathetic risers to imagine
No hate, selfishness, Malice in Humans that's Absurd!

Do we find Racial abuse amongst Dogs, Cats and such
So many species but a ***** is a ***** regardless of colour
Rabbits in the wild don't live in a hutch
Straying the point lets try to mull over

From born colour coded, numbered and named
Associated colours, Pink Girls, Blue Boys
Lemon and white if scans are waylaid
Colours are just preferences or visual noise

Taught to be the best you can be
Strive to the top, the higher, the best
Already are wedging the You and the Me
Hang on..Oh look.. I come from the 'West'

How hard to be taught to embrace our uniqueness
Respect, Love and cherish the short time we're here
Selflessly love, change this bare rotten bleakness
Humanity release this dark You enslave

No rich or poor just balanced and happy
Heinz not for me still love store brand
Caviare Hallooga Ballooga, Whatever, Really?
If not jisting my drift now... You're not of this land!?...


All I'm saying is we are all unique so live life to the full, embrace love and happiness, help others where you can, be selfless, respect costs nothing as does a smile, no need for fad dieting, embrace your unique self, let's strive to make Humans be the best we can be but embrace the journey together, life is not a competition or a race, beauty can not be visualised or bought, true beauty 'can' be the ugly ducling surrounded by selfish nasty swans.  Feel the love in all Humans globally.  The one's who lead us at the tippedy top have been hypnotised by some othre in-humane greedy, selfish sub species, who I shall name the darkness and unknown fear we only feel, because remember to visualise is irrelevant to our existence , it's through our feelings, fears and thoughts they attack first, causing panic amongst the trustworthy of our so called Governments.  If they all wanted the best for us then by al means pull together as ONE Government, but to diminish the value of money is just a way of controlling us, keeping the rich rich and richer and making the poor the lowest, ,maybe now homeless **** in society we all feel uncomfortable around?  If all houses cost the same, all wages paid the same rate and no unnecessary taxes to park a vehicle, drive the vehicle, toll costs when in the same country and no tax on wages...What they spending that **** on? We already pay tax on the area we live, yes roadworks, police, fire crews, New Homes even, street improvements have to be funded by tax to pay wages... fair enough.  No taxing us on our hard worked, underpaid jobs that we lose blood sweat and tears over and lets face it 3/4 of that goes back into the government with tv licence, overpriced food, tobacco, extortionate fuel companies conning you out ya money with standing charges and charging you more kw for the £ on the ever gracious £5-8 emergency they put on pre payment machines.  Then If your lucky enough to have worked and lived an average life you can buy your own house which you pay of untill your pension years.... god forbid you need residential care if u lose your mind or you can kiss your financial future for your kids cos that care don't come under the good old NHS.... and is soooooo over priced and understaffed by mostly aliens of society that the government take the house and money to pay for their care???? ******* rediculous.  And of course when U die you have to pay a % of the value of that house to the government.....for?? Yea what the **** for? My house? Go **** yourself!...The free bus pass don't cut it, the discount priced fish and chips DON'T cut it!!

You know the thing that grates me the most? TV Advertisements, e.g Washing powder ads.... 10 years ago it removed 'all' stains and made whites whiter than white... now 10 years on and Fantabulously new and improved with colour protection and stain, bomb, bullet proof...Yes you have guessed it, makes whites 'even' whiter! ha.. white is white it don't get whiter.....all scams for money....stick a trusted celebrity in the ad....and you could sell chocolate teapots to the masses...

My Motto..... Eat well, live life, embrace our imperfections cos perfection is unreachable, unachievable and installed into us to get more money, more power, more **** knows?  Don't be ruled by the soldiers and the puppets of society, believe in what you like and respect that others may not always agree with you but we are entitled to our opinion, not everyone is going to agree, that's what makes us different, never seen a war starting over country A likes coffee Country B likes Tea....lets go to war to battle it out....Make war against the law... would solve asylum seekers, ad that god dam racism word, bring back golly Wogs and baa baa black sheep...ridiculous...my childhood was when thatcher was in reign.... oh how the man 'o' species let 1 woman come into power and claim she ****** it..... anyway straying again...Wake up People Freedom is lost,  lets not let them take our souls too!!

Sanity drifting, rising from within,
Grey clouds and fog enter my soul,
Sorrow and self hatred seeping in,
Why now? my life bares no hole,

Hiding the pain from little eyes,
I feel so cruel sometimes to them,
Reach deep within to smile happy lies,
Won't let them see my blue stem,

Touching the brim of my consious state,
Am I losing it? would i be aware?
Sadness suffocates my happy fate,
Head blank, mind full, just sit and stare,

Needed help so asked for a saviour,
my body, my being against a brick wall,
Scaring me now this mental behavior,
But immediate help not promised at all,

One day, one pill, the capsule of hope,
Is my life and my marbles packed so small inside,
Yet gradually notice my head starts to cope,
My chirpy old self wants no more to hide,

And now that its passed my life i am living,
Ecstatic to the point of my once darkest hour,
How could i be blind to gifts i've been given,
Finally and for good i feel my hearts power,

Now when the sun shines it brightens my day,
Want to share this feeling it's such a relief,
i won't let this cruel world get it's own way,
My cares and worries i'll send them a reef,

So much to look forward to, my life now has meaning,
Unable to express, I feel i'm reborn,
Can't fully express the hell I have been in,
My once sorry life felt shattered and torn,

The grey days have passed, i'm jumping for joy,
If the day is grey now it's the sky not my mind,
I have sun in my heart, I know it sounds coy,
As my cloudy view at long last is not blind.

© Susan Michelle Baker