i will wade out
                        till my thighs are steeped in burning flowers
I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
                                       Alive
                                                 with closed eyes
to dash against darkness
                                       in the sleeping curves of my body
Shall enter fingers of smooth mastery
with chasteness of sea-girls
                                            Will i complete the mystery
                                            of my flesh
I will rise
               After a thousand years
lipping
flowers
             And set my teeth in the silver of the moon

They said I would die
Before forty
My friends and
Their bets

Thought I would die
2014
When my world stopped

So glad I failed
To die as so much
I failed before

So glad to read you
And you and you

Hand in Hand.

Your hands were the first thing I loved.
Chapped by harsh times
We held them clasped together till the life was choked out of us
Hands embraced around feelings and hormones.
Clasped so tightly we took a blind leap over the cliffs of loneliness
The landing is always rough but I still miss their warmth.
Hand in hand hearts entangled then broken apart by the tie loosened.
Still the sweet sweatiness of time and love embraced by a firm
grasp of wanting to be comforted.
And maybe held close in a digital embrace.
Hands so warm at first, cooled by time and impact
Still memories of them remain
Chapped but integral to a thing that was true then apocryphal.


-Fin.

To the most awesome friend
To the strongest girl I have ever known
To that bubbly girl I met a year ago
To you whom I love deeply
(Although I don’t really show it)

For your broken hearted soul

I do not want to say “stay strong”
For I know you are strong enough to endure this
I do not want to pity you either
For I am sure you’ve had enough of them
But I am going to be here
To keep on writing words for you

You trust no one
And that is fine
I am not asking you to trust me
Instead write your feelings
Like you always did
With pen as your knife
The paper; your skin
Bleed them all out
And I’d still love you the same

Like you said
It is a goodnight not a goodbye
He did not mean to leave you
Yet alone hurt you
For Him who knows
That you are a tough cookie
For Him who believes
That you can keep an eye for your family
To support them
That is why he decided to halt
Take a break from this cruel and harsh world

Dear Sabrina
Promise me not to flight
Do not let yourself drown
Without trying to resurface
You are a great swimmer
You can survive the tides
Have some faith in you
That you can do this
You can make it through

I love you Sab
*Do not cry yourself to sleep