Is it that hard to keep your promise?

You are the most annoyingly charming person
that I have ever had the unfortunate privilege to
lay my eyes upon, for your smile turns my
world upside down, while also makes me feel the
kind of happiness that I, never even knew, existed.

Everything is jumbled in my head,
Nothing makes sense at all.
It's like I'm awake but I'm still dreaming.
I'm in the middle of a crowd,
But I'm still all alone.

They ask me what's wrong, all I can say is, "Honestly,
I can't express myself right now, forgive me."
I don't even know what's going on,
I used to think that life was easy, that you just live till it's time to leave,
But boy, I never realized how hard it is to do just that.
Live, till it's time to leave.