Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **

She turns to face him,
Her bright cobalt eyes glistening with salty water
She fights the urge to hug him,
To be there for him forever
But it's her job as is sister
To resist
To pull herself together
Brush aside her conflicting feelings
And leave him
Her mind seems to be screaming are you really leaving him?
She crumples to a heap, pleading
Crying, those bright blue eyes
Begging his chocolate ones
Forgive me, forgive me, I love you, forgive me.
She can't let go now
Forgive me, brother, for I have sinned.