If I collected all the tears
I have shed for you..
It would be an ocean..

To fall in love with someone else would mean I would have to fall out of love with him and I do not want that. I just sit here and rot.

You know, when I said I'd die for you,
I didn't realize you would be the one that would **** me.

I miss you.
You're the only person I ever loved,
The only person I could actually talk to,
The only person that seemed to care.
You made me happier than I ever thought possible.
You taught me how to have feelings.
You made my life so good I didn't want to go to heaven,
Because I couldn't imagine anything being better than life with you.
We had a future together,
Better than anything I could have ever imagined.

But now that you're gone,
My life is nothing.
I have nothing to hope for,
Nothing to live for,
Nothing to care about.
I waste away my days,
Doing nothing of importance.
All I do is gamble my life away.
I miss what we had, what we were.
I miss what we were going to be.
I miss us, and
I Miss You

You could be miles away
an untameable distance
impossible to reach
tomorrow or today
yet you sit two feet that way

Your could be slipping
falling of a cliff
into a darkness i can not follow
one hand dangling on the edge that is ripping
yet you stand firmly on the ground without tripping

You could be blinded
Sight blocked out by an unpenetrable veil
hiding me from you, unable to see the present,
memories forgotten as you go unreminded
yet your eyes shine, filled with confidence, decisions decided

Perhaps it is me
an impossible treck away

Perhaps it is me
slipping from the edge today

Perhaps it is me
blind folded, hidden from you

Perhaps it is me,
a small candle,  wishing to burn anew,

yet I battle for every breath to pass
as the oxygen is taken by your inferno
my speck of light, shining through miles of darkness
your blazing fire, through clear glass
snuffs out my flame, turning it to gas

i come with roses to your grave threw rain or shine
with a tear drop in my eye, so sad but my hearts alive

i come to tell you, how much i love you
you were my first and you will be my last

i stand here and think of our memerious of love
so vivid, so bright, so happy, with you in my life

i built my life around you and now i'm getting older
yet my love is fresh for you and always will

i would climb a moutain, just to say i love you
and to sit by your side

i now have a snow covered life from your tears of joy above
a life of happiness, love and forgiveness in heaven

20 years later i still feel the same
it feels like the first time i said

i love you