i finally learned to love myself, but everyone else forgot

i kissed a boy today.
i didn't receive life from his lips,
i didn't feel love on his fingertips.
our lips just came together,
and i realized that
i miss your kisses.
even if i don't miss anything else about you.

Tell me what I did wrong,

Was it the way I laugh at the wrong times?
Or maybe the way I just see smiling faces?

I don’t know.

I’m moving cinderblocks,
and you’re moving dandelions.

Why don’t you love me?

Grey consumes my life-
I thought you would be a definite,

I was wrong.

Wrong.

Wrong.

Wrong.