17 years alive
and I can't bear living
in this world
any longer

17 years alive
and I can't even wait a few months
to be 18
and **** myself then

17 years alive
and I can't handle the pressure
******* nonsense spoken
makes me want to chop off my head

17 years alive
and I did nothing to be proud of
wasted 17 year
full of suffering
and the thought of being dead

if only these pills would do the trick
end my life in just a blink
deep into the darkness i want to sink
for now I am no longer considered sick

i really want to sleep

forever, if it's possible

i need a long, long rest

starting now but i am unable

i'd swallow the pills

if killing me with it is plausible

love
was one thing
that I never seem to get

hoping that one day
when it's here
it's not something i'll regret

i've had enough of this
stupid
meaningless
life

for once I have no regret
choosing death
over being
alive

save me
from me
from what i might do
from what i will do
stop me
help me
for what i might say
for what wrong i will do

every morning i wake up
is another day filled with regret

the demons in my head won't go away
endless discouragement is all i get

no wonder i want to disappear
with nothing more to fret

as i will be gone from this earth
nothing else but death

i'm a listening ear to anyone
and a nobody to everyone

you may say i'm somebody to you
but we both know it isnt true

showing false compassion
for a nobody like me from you

manipulation
deception
is what all
you adults do.

why would i
inform you of my depression
when oppression
is where itll lead me to

i recently realised
that i've always been weak
weak-hearted
weak-minded
weak-kneed

my eyes closed shut as i lay in bed
the constant throbbing can't seem to stop in my head
the thought of tomorrow filled me with dread
as i prayed to the gods for me to be dead.