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Em Nov 2018
i never used to smoke
but since you left,
it’s the only time i can seem to breathe
Em Nov 2018
you've called me every name under the sun
but nothing hurt me as bad as the day you told me about her
Em Nov 2018
I am oh so anxious
I am so scared that I'm just seeing what I want to see,
and that you're playing with me
in the same ways you like to play with all those other girls.

I am stuck between
facts and feelings,
head versus heart.

Last night you told me the ways you like to hurt people,
just to see them cry
and even you could not deny that I was one of those people at some point.

How stupid would I be to try to love you again,
like I used to?
It's funny how I get my hopes up
again and again,
praying that you're not the person that I know you actually are.

When will I learn?

Will I ever learn?

I am told that I am a romantic,
bordering on fully delusional.
I look for love in the same places I've lost it,
look for my scars to heal in the arms of the one
who caused the cuts to begin with.
Em Nov 2018
I trust you,
even though you show me I shouldn't.
You hold my heart,
and you laugh as you toss it away.
"I'm yours" I tell you,
but you simply look right past me.
Em Nov 2018
tell me your secret
how did you make me lose my mind so fast?
usually so steadfast in my rationale,
i saw you and logic got thrown away
Em Oct 2018
you always seemed so high up and out of reach
acting like you were above everyone else
like everyone was meant to just love you
    you were like a god

I worshipped you,
gifting you my full heart
    honoring my promises,
    staying loyal,
    being there on your hard days,
    even when I was suffering
    and I asked nothing but you in return
but then you lied, lied, lied,
    all of those girls you were with
    but you had the audacity to come home to me after long days with them
    expecting me to worship you still

I seemed to had forgotten that not all gods are good
and that some require sacrifice
and for you,
it was in the form of all of me
I recently got out of a rocky relationship, and I'm trying to process the pains and move forward

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