I can't feel my face anymore
It's as if my whole world has gone numb
My wings have been snapped clean off
Now I'm living off the scraps like some type of wild animal
I can't breathe...
Feels like I'm being suffocated by the seven seas
But in actuality it's just the pain getting the best of me
As I crawl attempting to reach sanctuary
But everytime it seems like I'm getting closer to the light
I can feel the darkness creeping up my spine and yanking me back into the heart of the night
It then caress me like a momma to her new born baby
Whispering in my ears there is no escaping
I'm stranded here
And there is no one coming to rescue me
I mean why would they...
I'm in this mess because of those dimwits
Always kicking me and punching me
Making me feel like I'm nothing more then an old piece of chewed up gum stuck to the bottom of your shoes
Can't blame them though,
Because that's what I am
A nuisance, an inconvenience to society
So instead of fighting it let me embrace it
Now I'm dead trapped in a unmarked wooden box

Smiling...

I am insane
Is what society says when they say my name
I am insane
Because society and I don't act one in the same
I am insane
Because I don't actively participate in life's little game
Because I rather be free to fulfill my dream
And not be chained down and forced to believe this is not who I'm meant to be
So I am insane
Only because I'm free spirited and envision something different for myself
Something society doesn't quite compute in their little brains
So with that being said
I am insane
But I can't say I am ashamed

To my momma and papa at home,

I'm sorry, I'm not sorry
I'm sorry that your beloved son didn't turn out the way you wanted him to
That I took a gander in the reflecting pool when you told me not to

I'm sorry that I left home without asking you first
That I **** near died when I saw the truth

I'm sorry that I put up this wall that will forever be between us three.
That I didn't just come when you told me to meet y'all at the tree

I'm sorry that while I was looking at the sunset and dreaming of peace
You were being mugged by this low level thief

I'm sorry that I couldn't come to your rescue when you needed me to
That I abandoned y'all when you needed me most

I'm sorry I pulled the trigger that ended your lives
But please understand I did what I had to do to survive

I'm sorry that though in reality y'all survived
In my heart, the only thing I'm sorry about is the fact this is a lie

If I may have your attention please
Allow me to say just one little thing
And that is tragedy
Tra...ge...dy

If you do not agree that life is a delicate thing
This poem is not meant for thee
Well never mind this poem is meant for you to see
Because this poem is meant for everybody

So without further delay
Allow me to begin with what I have to say
But you cannot say you have not been warned
Because this poem will make become torn

Look around and what do you see
Life...Life is such a beautiful thing
Would you not agree
But life is being stolen from right beneath our very feet

A new threat has emerged from the deepest depths of the darkest abyss
One that has surpassed all violence before our very eyes
It is heartless attacking both our elders and our youth
Proclaiming no one is safe from it's voracious bite  

So one by one they fall
Both our future and our past
Causing one to think will we survive
Because as of now drugs smile as the world trembles beneath its feet

I been missing you
It feels like you have been gone for an eternity
Year after year after year even though you only been gone for a month  
Everyday is the same
I would stare at the skies wonder why aren't you here, where are you
I just want to hold your hand, and walk among the sandy beaches
Dance childishly under the majestic waterfalls
Then lay in a open plain gazing at the stars, as we make a wish upon the one that falls
Though my wish has already came true
I met you, the most beautiful girl in the world
Your eyes twinkle like the stars only brighter
Your smile them lips are nothing less than perfection
Then your personality
Strong independent woman yet sweet and incident
So this is me asking you
Will you be mine

I said no thus I lose another friend.
She claimed she "loved" me
Giving a lecture on everything she liked about me
How I was so sweet to her, always treating her as if she was a princess
Always there for her when she needed me to be
Now she is mad at me, ready to rip my throat out
All because I don't feel the same way she felt about me
I'm sorry you misunderstood my kindness as a act of love
I'm sorry I feel as if a have a whole life ahead of me
I mean...
Let's get real I'm only 17 what kind of love do you expect me to feel
Oh you are the most wonderful girl in the world even though I never left my home town
I wouldn't dare tell you that lie
You see I actually do care about you
So why would I dare consciously set you up to feel pain
What sense does that make to you but it's whatever
You want to be mad at me because I told you the truth so be it
I rather that then hurting  you with lies
At least I can rest in peace
Though I hope we can still be friends
If you gonna let that get in between us
Then I suppose we go our separate ways

I do not have any epic metaphorical lines
For this poem is not me preaching from my soul
To me these are just lines on a thin sheet of paper
One that floats in the wind like a bird with broken wings drenched in sorrow's blood,
As it just attempts to become something better than itself
Not knowing that it is doomed to be marooned on the ground of this forsaken planet
Constantly being stepped on and kicked around by the wind's rough touch
Constantly catching the tears of others, but stay hiding it's own behind a cloaked mask
What a sad story for a weightless sheet of paper that just wanted to soar
Forced to live a lie everyday
Until finally it begins to decay

If I am mad
What am I mad at
This answer that I seek
The solution I cannot find

If I am mad
Who is to bare this misery with me
Pay for their crimes against my essensence
Burn in hell where they belong

If I am mad
Who is to draw my sword if I lose control
Save me from myself
Perish in the Pitts of no return

If I am mad
Is there a such thing as being "safe"
Who will survive the chaos
Break me if it comes to such a thing

If I am mad
Will I cry as I realize what I've done
Will I choose to continue my existence upon wretched plain
Or will I choose to say goodbye to all but I

If I am mad
God help these poor innocent souls
End me I beg thee
Force me to drop dead before their very eyes

If I am mad
Allow me to go in peace
For I know what comes next...
Is everything but

Never will I fail without trying
Never will I ever give without dying
Never will I
oh no, not I

It has been a long, long time since I felt this way
So long that I forgot how exquisite it felt
For the first time since that wretched day my soul is at ease
I can close my eyes and actually breathe
In my dreams I no longer see the rivers of blood
I no longer see the firey pitts of hell
No, I can actually see the beds of roses
I can actually smell their sweet scent
And I owe it all to you for setting me free
None of this could be if it wasn't for thee
Thank you for removing the shackles that forced me to my knees
You don't understand how happy I am to finally be able to be me
So I wrote this to show how grateful I truly am
Thank you for showing me the way
I'm glad you knew the right thing to say

When nothing else make sense
And I just want to go home
Ya know just to forget about everything
All of life's struggles
Forget about all pains that come my way
I just go to happy place
That place where I feel safe and free of all judgment
The place where I can run around happily in an open field
Watch the sunset as I wait to see the stars in the midnight skies
It's my break from society
From all the heartaches that love to be part of my life
All the stupidity that burns my sanity away  
The place where I can just relax and enjoy nature
Listen to the birds sing in the trees
Oceans crashing against the rocky shores
Feel the winds blowing against my cheeks
The place that only exist in my dreams
So if you need me you know where to find me
But I'd prefer if you'd just allowed me to be

My words are everything but everlasting
In fact they're more forgotten if anything
No one listen to me anymore
No one believes I can in this world

It's dark
Yet I can see so clearly
I think I have been here for far too long,
Because now I can even breathe in this ominous air
But never mind that
Never mind any of this
Why is so dark?
Is it my soul being reflected into reality
It even has the little speck of light that sits alone in the darkest corner
An exact replica of what I can't even see anymore
It's so cold here
Even though I sit in front of the firery pitts of hell
Oh wait I am dreaming aren't I
My eyes are just closed
No, this is real
This pain is real
This emptiness I feel is real
But I'm not alone aren't I
That light that sits in the corner of the room
Is it that you are waiting for me
I'm coming
I thank thee
Though I apologizes for making you wait for far too long

I woke up from a dream tryna understand who I'm meant to be
You know my destiny
My identity
But all I see is a black sea
Correction red sea
Because it has been tainted by blood you see
And it sad they call this a revolution
Because all I see is a mass extinction
My brother and sisters falling left and right
And I'm just standing here being me
Confused really
Because I don't see the point in fighting this war
When after we won there is no point in going on

Words
What can a man really say to the one he loves
It's not like confessing this emotion is the easiest thing in the world
Then they say,"oh,what's the worst that can happen,she says no"
YES,"NO" HURTS YA KNOW!
It's like taking a dagger to the heart
It can be quick and settle,but the pain is still everlasting
That could destroy a man
Such prideful creatures we are
Some of us get lucky and recover from the damage
Rising from our own ashes and all
But the others we collapse from the inside out
Becoming one with mother nature because our lives seem to be no more
But we don't ever cry
We have so much "pride" we'd let the skies do it for us
But it's whatever
Besides, in most cases the cycle doesn't even get that far
Because we fear this whole process to the point the confession never happens
It's just scary
Too scary for it to be worth our time

Bow down to me.
Look me in my eyes and bow down to me
Drink my blood and feel pain to the extreme
Cry the forgotten tears of desperation
Feel the scorching flames that course through your veins
Then bow down to me
Gravel at my feet
Know who I am,
And what I have done
That I once was a hero of great faith
But now...
Now...
I am death,destroyer of all worlds

I was just a little black boy born in a raw town
Nothing else but me and my saw now
I could never say that papa was ever around
But I could say that momma never made a sound
She never cried never whined never did any of that crap
She just smiled and waved  as life hit us hard
But I never understood how the pain in her heart
She would never let it show like it wasn't there from the start
But we all knew the truth
Momma was breaking down
She cried silently thinking we wouldn't notice her burning red eyes
As she slowly died on the inside  
Still tryna stay strong for her four little children
But the truth was momma was gone
Died on the inside long ago
Unable to feel the pain that haunted her soul
Sorry momma we wasn't that strong
Should've helped her more
Now you're gone
Six feet underground
Sorry momma may you rest in peace

All this time I have been hating myself for falling in love with you
Letting my guard down now my heart never wants to be away from you
I don't even know what it is that keeps driving my back to you
I would say it's your charms, beauty, but that's honesty not the truth
Now every girl I see my mind automatically compares her to you
But no one ever exceeds you and that's the honest truth
I know I sound insane but my mind just won't understand
My heart is confused convinced that it'll come back to you
Not getting through its thick skull  that I lost you
So now I'm lonely soul walking a dreaded path
Not knowing why I was destined to face such wrath

I don't know why I bother anymore
The damage has been done already and it cannot be reversed
Yet I feel like I still can do something to fix this
As if this still existed
It was so long ago when we met
Everyone just seemed to hate you and I found it to be funny
I found it something I could relate to
The only difference was you didn't care
No, you actually seemed to laugh at it
Which intrigued me even more
Now we are fighting as if we're enemies in world war III
Guns pointed at each other head and knives at the throats
Wishing the other would just die
But funny thing is I don't want that anymore
I actually wish to be your friends
Not an enemy like everyone else
I know strange when I kinda initiated this war
Well not kinda I did start this war
I should of just backed down that day
Really didn't mean to hurt you
For that I am sorry
I'm sorry
Wish I could take back that day
I just wish we could be friends again

Leaves of orange red and green
Crystal blue skies as far as the eye can see
Fresh air flowing through the lungs
Birds chirping hidden in the trees
Long walks through the majestic woods
Eyes sealed shut letting nature lead the way
The sun's gleaming lights seeping through the holes above
Adding a certain sparkle to the already amazing world
Calming waves crashing against the ocean shores
Fish splashing down the rivers and streams
The children playing in the fallen leaves
You smiling at me as I hold your hand
The perfect autumn day if you ask me
But then again,
Any day can be perfect with you in hand

Hello mother
Hello father  
It has been a long time since we went our separate ways
Sorry I haven't come to visited you in awhile
Been kind of torn considering this is my faught
If only I had listened you we would've still been a family
I miss you guys
In fact I just wanted to say I love you guys
Of course I can't say it to your face anymore
I’m scared, it’s so cold without your warmth
I’m just sorry
Sorry I took my own life
I hope you can forgive me for causing you so much pain
Well I guess this is goodbye
Hope we can be together again on the other side

I said I loved her but she didn't love me back
My bestfriend tried to warn me but I was as blind as a bat
I gave her everything but all she gave me was a heal up my ***
As she laughed shredding my heart until it was thinner than the grass
How could I have been so stupid
Was the *** really that fat
Was I really that mesmerized by her slim body
Or was it her diamond like eyes that peered into my soul
I said I loved her and that was that
But clearly the love I had for her was worth nothing but shat

I hate this place
Our colors may be purple, green, and gray but all I see is orange with a number on our backs
059 please step this way
056 please wait in line
0 what the **** is wrong with this ****
We come to school to learn and to better our futures
Not to discover what it is like to be in shackles and orange jump suits
Looking like professional garbage men with guns pointed at our heads 
The air is so stale here that I feel like I'm about to pass out with every breathe I take
Over here got me hyperventilating as I try to squeeze my small self through the small cracks in the hallway
Half the time I feel like a dart on a dart board the way they have me pinned against these lockers
Then I'm the rude one when I finally say *****,get the **** out the way
Cause if we are late it is another penalty going towards us
And I ain't got the time to be sitting in the hole over something I couldn't even control
Like what kind of game do they think this is
Treating us like kindergartners when we are **** near adults
Hell I'm 18 I beat the statistics
A black male and still not in jail
And before you say where are we now
This place isn't jail, this place is hell
Life may be harder outside these walls
But this place I swear is just ridiculous
They swear they are preparing us for college
But in actuality the only thing they are preparing us for is failure

What's the point anymore
The depression is too strong and I am too weak
I can feel it clawing at my soul
Breaking my bones turning me into jelly
I can hear its whispers in my ears
Telling the rest of my body to just ******* give
What's the point anymore
My blood has already blackened
And eyes have already dried from the nonstop crying
My head aches and my heart is non-existent
I just need a respite from the ******* called life
Only I wish it would be permanent
No more tightropes, afraid I may fall 30 stories to my death
Not that it would be a bad thing to begin with
Funny I say I hate life so much but I'm terrified of death
Maybe a part of me wants to live
Forcing me to second guess every move I make
Only making it that much worse
What's the point anymore
Maybe there is one and I just can't see it
Maybe it's not just my left eye that is blind
Maybe it is me as a whole
And death isn't the answer I seek
Maybe just maybe I'll see

I write this sad poem because I don't know what else to do
It feels like my mind and body has been separated into two
I find myself staring mindlessly at the sunset and the moon
But In actuality I'm just glaring deeply at you
It has been a long time and I think you should know the honest truth
I love you but that feeling is slowly going  mute
It's funny you think I'm talking about the love of my life
But I'm talking about the guy who lost his sight
The one who wrote this tragic poem on this very night
Who said goodbye as he held his trigger extremely tight

I was told tears are a sign of weakness
That they will lead to my demise
So I laugh just to test it out
Looking pain right in the eye
Why am I still alive
I'm crying after all
Do you not hear my tears of joy
Its sound is splashing all over the place
Loud and clear "demise"
I guess that makes me... mortal
A slayer of demise
For I am laughter, bringer of joy
Healer of all pain

Will the fighting ever stop
I understand that humanity thrives off the violence
But this...this is just ridicules
I feel like a frightened little school boy
Screamed for my mommy and everything
Why must the explosions be so loud
They are really scary
I run with head facing the ground
As my crimson tears fly off my face
Screaming for my life as everything behind me blows to bits
My mommy dead
My daddy dead
My brothers dead
My sisters dead
I'm all alone now
The only one not dead
Finally I wiped the blood from eyes
But I was no longer afraid
Even though it appeared I had walked through the gates of hell
My mind seemed to have snapped
I had became a rose born from hell's fire
Whose only destiny was to burn as desired

In the dawn of day,
This poem was written
My love was scribbled on a thin sheet of paper
As the stars danced in midnight sky
And the moon just whispers
So far away you are,my love
So far away
My heart is weak
Though you're only down the street
My mind lost in an endless pool of thoughts of you
I just want to hold you in my arms as I listen to your cute laugh
Look into your beautiful eyes as the river flows by
I wish to feel as if this moment is nothing but a dream
A dream in which I never wake from
Your smile, your smile is something beyond this world
It shines brighter than something, well bright
In all honesty it can't be described
Nor can my love for you
But I guess this little poem will have to do
I really love you

There are a thousand things I can possibly say
A thousand things that roam freely through my head
With all this pain, the endless nightmares that haunt me in my dreams
As I play this stupid *** game life forces upon me
It’s hard, life just isn’t fair
It possesses me, corrupting the way I think
Destroying my sense of awareness as I burn attempting to hang onto my sanity
I feel weak crawling upon the floor made entirely of dead corpses
The thought of death dances in my head as my mortal self fades from existence
Who am I, why do I exist
Why does it feel as if a dagger is piercing my inner soul
I feel like a bird with clipped wings
Standing here watching a part of me fly off into the distant winds
I can’t be alone, there is no way that this is where I was meant to perish
There has to be a way out out of this dark hole
There has to be, there has to be, there has to be, there has to be
There has to be, right?
Why wouldn’t there be
I’m going to die here aren’t I?
No, I’m going to survive
But if I don’t allow me to at least go out with a smile

If you are one who hates to shed tears...


This is not a poem for your eyes to read

This is not a poem of happiness
This is not a poem of hope
This is not a poem of light

This is a poem of shattered dreams
This is a poem of broken hearts
This is a poem of pure sadness

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There once was a boy whose name shall not be said
This boy had dreams and the motives to complete them
He was foolish enough to believe he could do anything

One day this boy came home to a tree
He starred at this tree with great interest
Wondering how in the world this tree fell on his house

Little did this boy know that tree was only the beginning
He slowly walked towards the tree and realized that was his home
So he walked to his neighbors house failing to take his eyes off the tragedy

The little boy knocked on the door with a smile on his face and said
"Can I use your phone to call my mom, there's a tree on my house"
Then he laughed as if this situation was humorous to him

When he finally got to the phone he was fascinated by it's old school design
Slowly he dialed his mom's number only to learn some heartbreaking news

His momma died moments earlier from a stray bullet
The boy dropped the phone and slowly began to back away
His eyes were widened in disbelief

The boy was so broken he could not cry
He walked away after that and disappeared
That fateful day was the last time that little boy was seen

Some say he killed himself and his body lays dormant at the bottom of the sea
Others say he is still alive alone in the woods somewhere
The truth is...

Tyler burned himself alive causing the biggest forest fire in history
Tyler was only eight years old
Full of hope now spreaded all over the world as ashes

Rest is peace young Tyler

You're always running away
Running never looking the other way
But what are you running from
Are you really that afraid of the pain that you try your best to disappear from society
As if society is the source of your true sorrow
As if the pain is not an inner sensation that erupts in your heart
Where are you going to go anyways
Aren't you tired of always running away
Don't you want to run towards something for a change
Have something other than yourself to love and cherish
I can see that look in your eyes
That look of emptiness and dispair
"Stop hurting yourself",they yell
Just stop and turn around
There is nothing chasing you away but you're still afraid
What are you afraid of, yourself?
You use to be stronger than this
Always running towards danger to protect those you loved
Now you're just a shell of your former self
SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY!
Stop running
It's going to be okay

I use to write a poem everyday of the week
All about the injustices that caused the soul to weep
Because back then I still believed society had a chance
But now as I look around...
I hope you enjoyed your last little dance

I write this letter with blood, sweat, and tears
Broken dreams that rest in a dark ally
With nightmares that have become reality
All that sugar and spice and everything nice seems like fairy tale of a distant past
One where the streets didn't appear to be the gates of hell
Erupting in chaos as religious people pray to their god for mercy
But where is their God when they are burning in a pits of everlasting fear
Where, no where to be found, that's where
But still they remain loyal believing that he hasn't forsaken them
It really is funny how faith makes one so naive
But at the same time I respect that
It is only fair for one to clinch so tightly on the idea that the world hasn't been completely engulfed by darkness
But to be real we will be the cause of our own demise
Not our so called God
If he does exist all he does is sit back and watch as the creatures he created cause the extinction of one another
It is sad but true
It is even sadder that this is our destined faith
Am I really the only one who sees it coming?
I just pray that I am not cause I cant fight a losing battle on my own
Please someone rise from the trenches of ash and save mankind from its own demise

I wrote this for you

I'd be lying if I said you're most beautiful I've ever seen
I'd be lying if I told said you're the smartest girl I know
I'd be lying if I said I didn't have any other choice but you
But you see the way love is set up...

It was something about the way you talked
The way you walked
The way you thank
The way you believed
How you were so optimistic about every little thing

It was your smile that sparked this raging fire that burns in my soul
Your eyes that nurtured the flame that could of easily went out of control
Your personality that kept dragging me back to beg for more
It was just you, something I could bare forevermore

I have watched from the moon scanning the earth a thousand times
Attempting to find the perfect girl to call my own
But every girl I thought to be the one just stomped on me
As if I was nothing more than duck tape to cover their wounds

But not you...
You made me realize a new truth
Uncovered a hidden path that was right in front of me
Made me believe that I actually had a future

When with you it felt as if my eyes were open for the first time
As if I were flying in the wind with snow white wings
I actually felt free from the chains society placed upon me
No cage could ever hold me again

So I ask now with great pride and dignity
Would you spend the rest of your life with me
As husband and wife
As one being

You walk around with mask upon your face saying this is who you are
Claiming that the mask unveiled your true identity that was once invisible to the naked eye
But at night you cry not knowing why your hearts drop every time you tell yourself this lie
Causing you to tremble at the knees as you look in the mirror unable to recognize the person staring back at you
That's when you notice it,
The crack in the mask revealing the scar tissue beneath
The blood that drizzled down your forsaken soul as it cries in pain and agony
The lies that unravel as the mask continues to crumble
And when the mask finally disintegrates, you faint
Traumatized you lay there in a pool of your own tears as you hold the imaginary gun to your head confused
Forcing you to take one last breathe before pulling the trigger
Killing a version of you that was never truly you

I swore I'd never let her go but I watched her walk away
Instead of chasing her I stood there with a frown upon my face
My head was full of shame and disgrace
The thought of failure,
Did I really make a mistake
My heart began to crumble as she got farther away
Move fool move why are you still standing in this place
I did not yet understand that it was already too late
For when I finally made it to her she already had a new mate

You tell me not be afraid
But for what reason do I have not to be
The world is in gulped in flames
The sun has been blocked out by its midnight counterpart
Why shouldn't I be afraid
It's the apocalypse can't you tell
We're all gonna die a painful death
I don't wanna die
I'm not ready to face what's after this world
The stars shine purple, as the darkness corrupt their minds
The trees are crying shaking in terror
And yet you just smile,
Holding me telling me everything is going to be okay
Your warmth calms me
I don't know what it is cause I can feel your heart
It's beating so fast,so I know you're scared  
Yet you smile telling me everything is going to be okay
Is this really the power a mother holds
I now know what must be done
No longer can I be afraid
I must protect you  
Just like you protected me all these years
I love you mom,
And no matter what emotion I may ever feel...
That is one thing that won't ever change

If I'd known you'd leave for real,
I would of wrote you a love poem
I would of held you tighter,
And whispered," I love you", in your ears
I would of gave you the world,
And made all your pain disappear
Only if I knew you'd leave for real
I would have never taken you for granted
I would of listen to your soft sweet voice
I would of looked you in your eyes and accepted I got lost in them every time
Baby, only if knew you'd leave for real
I would of held your hand,
And walked along the shores of the sandy beaches
I would of acknowledged your beautiful smile,
And made you feel like you were the queen
But see I was focused on the wrong things
Now you're gone because of me
If only I'd known...maybe you'd still be here

Black skies...
Blue moon...
Storm clouds destroying everything on the move
Bad dreams...nightmares
Then there is you
Your eyes are like precious jewels
Your smile so scary because it is so perfect
Leaving me to daydream thinking about you
Ignoring the the black skies that surround me
The thunderstorm that strike the ground before me
Out all things that live on this earth you're the only one that scares me
Because you're so beautiful
And I am me

Where is everyone going
What have I done
I'm all alone now
WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!!!
I can only cry
Thinking of the good I could of did
The pain I could of healed
But instead...
Instead...
**I became death,destroyer of all worlds

Do I love her?
I can't say that I do
I mean I love her
But I don't love...her
She is really nice and all
Always got my back and what not
But alas I am too young to love
Too young to be loved
I'm not mature enough
Not strong enough
Not fast enough
So do I love her
Maybe...
But as of now...
Love is the last thing I'd call this

What kind of sorcery is this?
This is madness I swear
Every time you walk by you take my soul along with you
Every time you speak my mind goes boom, causing my entire vocabulary to burn to ashes, leaving me with nothing
My heart just stops
As my eyes gaze upon the sunset over the horizon
Well, that is what they see, but in actuality it is just you
A bright new star over the midnight sea
And just like the legend of the Phoenix
Where we end it is where we begin it
Leaving the old chapter of our lives behind and starting anew
You know a life where it is not just you then there is I
But me and you
This was just a dream I had, ya know
But instead of just resting on this dream, I really want to make it reality
So this is me asking you no, begging you to be mine tonight
And every night to come