Alone. Always alone.
Feeding on the souls of the fallen.
Watching the weak crumble, like paper.
The hearts of the unloved are black and bleeding.
And the shadows of all that is dark, awakens.
Fragil, hopeless, innocent, and broken.
We are all alike, but not one of us can compare
to the desperate creature, the insidious stranger,
killing all which is pure and luring us into the arms
of a fatal sickness, such a deadly parasite.

You came out of no where
I hadn't been searching for someone like your
Nor did it ever cross my mind you'd become such a big part of my life
Because of that I'm forever changed, but it's far from all good

I met you during a dark time
Where liars, thieves and users waited in the wings
I didn't expect much from you, but the more we saw each other the more we started to grow
I'd found a friendship that I wasn't even looking for, of thought existed at this point

You were clean, honest and fun
The stories you shared we're real
In some I could physically feel your pain
But, a smile forever on your face to keep pushing forward
I found it refreshing

I found myself trying to think like you
Seek guidance from you and tell you things but then see them through your eyes
I never thought you could tell a lie
You always seemed so blunt, so real
Honesty that I yearned for after being lied to so many times
Even when things felt shaky I forced myself to believe you told no lies
At least to me
A best friend, my best friend even with my demons...

But, we know that just isn't true
You aren't even honest with yourself
You're everything to everyone
Make promises with no intend to keep, oh and endless excuses falling at my feet
You're a fake
No where near the sophisticated and nature vibe you try to put out there
You may not be as bad as them, but your ability to feel you never need to own anything has taken its toll on me
You've taken you're toll on me

I don't want this to be the outcome
I hate to think of you as one of them
Knowing my heart was fragil but having toyed with anyway
It will break me to lose trust in another friend
Especially, one whose seen me on my darkest of days

Can we fix it?
Are there things I'm not understanding to lead me to feel so betrayed?
Am I over reacting to situations between us?
I know I can be as stubborn as a brick wall
And spiteful on purpose..
But only when I feel threatened do these claws come out
The more I think
The worse it gets...

If we don't talk soon, it'll all explode in my head and there won't be anything left
Just ashes of a bridge burned
Because, you also don't like to budge or admit fault and accept blame, no matter how balatant it is

I found you on accident
A kinda best friend I never thought I'd have
Am I going to lose you with no fight?
Only tears shed??
I can only ask and reach out so many time before it becomes a game

A game of tag
I'm always it
Always chasing love and acceptance
You weren't supposed to be the way
I don't want to play but if we must......

Tag, you're it

Lamp light glows through drops of resin

Trapped life in heavy honey

Honey  that flowed from ancient trees


Your pale finger touches the smooth

surface of soft stone


Eons of treasure in cased in sap;

into our brief tomorrows

you wear these  fragil jewels...



The drops of resin like you

preserved forever in a beautiful

magic from the past...Rarefied

Within The Heart Of The Rose

The blush enfolds the richest glosamor at the tip of your fingers that’s where the wonder lingers but
thats just the outward adorning go within to depths go beyound the veil you have ventured into nature’s
sacred dwelling cool night mysteries rest until the suns warmth leaves a fragrant excited exposoion that
ever so gently wafs into the consiscus vessitudes that draw a myrid reponses the creeking tree over the
vale this loving tale decribes its host ultimate tender nature so fragil a degign with pedels that there
greatest strength seems to be in the pixel colors they produce tilted forever in spectaculars arraying the
gradual play of light ever so softly engages delightful excitement would I speak of love then I must call
your name nothinng else is so fitting spill forth emotional waves they trully never languish they would
only slightly touch the water suface then from this enrichment go forth speaking all that lovers
demand and long for it trully resides in the heart of a Rose

I am done,
You have seen me
Unravel,
Wilt
And shrivel.
No longer a flower
But forever bound to your garden.

I apologise  for peeling your eyes back
And letting them burn as they watch me suffer.
I never meant to be your trigger,
I never meant to pull the trigger
On your fragil stability.

I wish, I wish
You didn't have to watch me die.

I'm done. I'm done.

Why do you insist on doing this to me?
Hurting me over and over again.
Was my love not enough?
I was always the one who never gave up on you,
though I had a million reasons to.
I guess I just knew that somewhere inside you there was a fragil boy.
Someone who was at the edge of a clif ready to jump.
Reaching out for anyone to hold onto to.
So I grabbed you and didnt let go,
and I still dont want to.
But now you insist that I let go.
Let go of all the memories, talks, stories.
Everything.
But I cant, every day it haunts me.
If you really want me to let go, then Ill have to leave this place.
Say goodbye.
Slip into the darkness of nothingness.
If you insist.

like the snow flakes that fall from heaven above

each flake is unique just like each time we fall in love

it starts out as something small that gos undetected

while it grows more visible but not enough to be protected

floating on the wind it begins to take its beautiful form

when it reaches you it may go unoticed, or may comsume you like a storm

you can handle it, though making it last will be the true test of your will

with something so delicate and fragil maintianing it takes great care and skill

so when you finally have love so much like a snow flake in the palm of your hand

take the time to inspect and see it for all it's beauty and I think you'll understand

slowly as it melts and fades away from your view

these things were not meant to last  and theres not much we can do

nothing so wonderful will last forever even if we hold on tight

so enjoy the moment no matter if it last weeks, days or just one night

pouring rain
falling down
your cheeks

cleaning up
every bit
of sadness
left
in your
fragil heart

Don't assume you can pick a rose without being bit by the thorns
You picked me because of my beauty
You picked me because of my aoura
You picked me because of my kindness
You picked me because of who I am
But you assumed
You assumed id be okay with whatever you did
You assumed I wouldn't mind what you said
You assumed I didnt get jealous
You assumed I trusted you 100 percent
You assumed I wouldn't speak up
You assumed I wouldn't take a stand
Well I gave you plenty of warnings
I told you to stop talking about her
I told you not to compare me to her
I told you that I don't like  the topic of her
I tried opening up but you got offended
Now you scream at me because our relationship has ended
I saw her pictures on your phone
The kissy faces
The low shirt
The blonde hair on her head being held up by her arm
The bright red lipstick
The big eyes
I saw it all
I saw enough
Then you over reacted
Then you dropped my hand
Then you got mad at me
Then you left me with your friend
Then you made me cry
And now you dare ask why?
Well don't assume that im a fragil little flower
Because I'm a woman who has power
Dont assume you can pick a rose without being bit by the thorns

STAY AWAY FROM MY HEART**

It is fragil
it is dying
don't you dare think of taking it
of stealing it

I have changed every lock
and swallowed every key
because I told you I loved you
and now you are still gone

The day you left.
I ate my words that day.
Actually bit down,
chewed them,
swallowed them and
felt them
slide down my throat like glass
until they were so broken and damaged
there was no possible way
of those words could
rearrange
and
repair themselves enough
to be spoken.

The pain is all I feel
I feel empty
and lost
and it will not be fixed