What.

He ate out my heart and threw it up.
Poison lungs, poison veins-
****.

Viscera numbed, spined eels wriggle,
I am ******.

****** as in : a shut-in, swain of Gehenna, rocked, rolled.
He needed more rope for his net and so cut out my tendons.

What skies to worship now? What skins?

go on
spit me out
and forget about me
like that piece of gum
on the side of
the road.

I need to stop overthinking
and just pause for a moment,
...do something distracting
just become frozen.