I joined the Triple F club
Finally ******* Free
I'm no longer caged by the pain
Came to terms with myself
Set free the shackles of yesterday
Paved the roads of tomorrow with today
I'm looking past the *******
Because I'm finally ******* free
Sad part is I have six months of therapy
Before I really get to say that

Would you cry over my lifeless body?
Would your hands be covered in my blood?
Would you show for my funeral?
Would you try to revive me?
If my wrist were wide open
Would you stitch them shut
If the nuse was tight around my neck
Would you cut it from me
If I would of called the moment
Before I decided to end it
Would you be standing over my grave?
If it all ended for me
What would you do?
How would you react to the news?

The past was brutal
Failed relationships countless times
Failed attempts at ending my life
Mother who abandoned me
I mean who the hell does that ****
She wasn't meant to be a mother

The present is just as worst
Distant relationships with the closest of family
Resentment for everybody who ever told me ******* cliches
Maturing too fast that it's unpleasant and unbearable
No one can understand me anymore
The sad part is that a future is almost unlikely

The future still unclear
I don't think I can salvage one
But I made the plans to go far
And I will take each step with a delicate caution
Till that one step that sends me to oblivion
Everything is just a blur

The past, the present, the future
What each and any holds for me
Is still quite unknown
And there is nobody to guide me anymore
Its all my fault because I pushed them all away
So whatever may happens I deserve it
Even if that may be more misery or death

I suffer from this every night
I'm afraid of my dreams
I'm unaware of what it is I will dream of
I'm an oneirophobic
Unfortunately I can't control it
And I can't sleep alone
I always have to be safe in arms of another
Which is harder than you think
When everybody you know has a life of their own

Please you're killing me
With velvet lips
Of pure ecstasy
Just release me
From your silken smooth skin
That has become my prison
I can't take it anymore
Tell me goodbye
Let me go
I loved you enough to stay
But I'd hate to hurt you
So please I'm begging you
Tell me goodbye
Don't kiss me goodnight
Just let me go
I loved you once
Now love me
And say goodbye
I am a virus
I complex disease
With no cure
I am a cancer to your heart
So tell me goodbye
End this for me
Please I'm begging you

Who will tell the story of my life
Who will keep the darkness at bay
Who will lift the sun up in the morning
Everybody and everybody needs a crutch
If you die today
Everything will collapse
Time wouldn't be able to keep up
As things began to rot away
If you died today
My story will never be told
My existence will be for nothing
I know this sounds selfish
But I need you to live
Breath please just breath

A sweet lullaby of what could happen
A night filled with pleasure
Ecstasy with shots of pain
Bedsheets freshly placed
They needed memories
She whispered...
I love you
But I never heard
Too busy drowning on my own problems
All I heard was tear drops
And my own footsteps
Captain ******* of the varsity ******* club
Too afraid to stop and realize
She was everthing I ever needed
She whispered...

I'd take you to see the sunset on the Florida beaches
I'd make you happy beyond your wildest dreams
I'll never hurt you
I'm not like all the other guys
All I did was promise you lies
Look at where we are now
Hating each other
No longer looking in each others direction
And I can't keep those promises
Only because I no longer love you the same

It's obvious isn't it
I'm laying on a stretcher
Clinging to life
My heart gave out
With a simple glance at your beauty
Looks can ****
I learned that the best way
By falling in love with you

The drums beat
People screaming
Adrenaline rushing
"Throw Me Somethin Mista!!"
Beads, cups, candy
Raining goodies
Float after float
Drink after drink
A city where the party never ends
Voodoo blues growing bluer
Every mile I drive further away
Still feeling the spirit of New Orleans
Burning in my chest
The swamp trying to flow through
Archaic veins always yearning
A new thrill
Yet here the thrill never ceases
Trumpets, trombone, tuba, snare
A succession of bands
Mask, costumes, cheers, beers
Voodoo blues tempting my return

You read my poetry
You love how I write
You now know the story
Behind those words
You understand the emotions
And the reasons why I have them
Sakota
You may not know me as a person
Yet you know me as a poet
You now see I am here
Whenever you need me
And I hope you pick up the phone
Cry your eyes out
Find a friend in me
And know your not alone
With the pain that you have
This is not the beginning of a friendship
But the beginning of a great team
We are greatness
We are poets
And we survive through the treacherous roads
That now you have me
All 5' 8 1/2", 220 lbs of me
Walking with you
Ready to listen
Ready to talk
Ready to help you
Whenever you decide
To dial (225) 244-0791

I'm everybody's nightmare and nobody's dream

Is easy to trip and stumble
Over cute looks and six pack abs
Or maybe just the way he makes you smile
When all he has to say is "hi"
Or was it your name that sent you tumbling
As it rolled off his tongue
Down into the pits you now dread
Those black holes in the ground
Where spartan kicking you into it
Would only make it thrilling
Love makes nightmares
When you fear how easy it was to fall in the first place
What was it really
that sent you tumbling then falling
Only faster as the lies piled on
I love you
You're all that I need
Everything I want is in your eyes
So maybe you should keep your head between your knees
and stay staring at whats there
Between soft silken thighs
That only seem to ***** his **** before his heart
Its lessons taught that are misunderstood
Never the mistakes made
From an unsuspecting heart
So eager to find what is real
In a world she thought was only hers
But instead shared with her friends that had no idea
Her sister who was your bestie
How many stories must be told
Before the nightmare in them all
Becomes the reality you no longer can handle
Love is a nightmare
Till you can find someone who will make them disappear
Before he tries to show you he loves you

Bouquet of roses
Box of chocolates
Teddy bear stuffed with the finest cotton
Yeah baby I went all out for you
But where are you
Walked away the day after my birthday
4 days and you only have your silence to keep
Guess I was wrong to say I love you
Guess it was my fault for being so stupid
Happy Valentine's Day anyways
Guess you deserve that at least
Oh and thanks for ******* me over
Nice to know you cared oh so much about me

I'm no William Shakespeare
Or Edgar Allan Poe
I'm just the average
Insane guy who's in love

I'm no Vincent van Gogh
Or Leonardo de Vinci
I'm just the guy
Who's art keeps him somewhat sane

I'm no one special
Or going to be
But I'm the guy
With a heart made just for her

Every word in every poem
I've ever written about love
Was just for her
And some were dark I know

Every line in every drawing
I've ever drawn with her name
Was a memory for her
Because I know I'll fade and die

Just one day
All I dream of
Is to be able to call her mine
To hold her and love her

I would give anything
To kiss her
To say I love her
And share this love with her

But everything I want to do
Every memory I want to create
I can only make
With a pencil and a piece of paper

I will never have a chance
To really create those moments
Or indulge in her beauty
I just have to look at it from a distance

I'm the guy
No one knows about
Or even bothers to know
I'm the one fading and dying alone

I told the world this before
I'm a no body
My poetry can't define me
Because usually it's not me I'm writing about

3....2....1.....
Your dream forever seems to be fading
Sand slipping between fingers
Oxygen slipping through the cracks
You're suffocating on the fear
Realizing that in seconds
Your forever will no longer exist

i can't take back
the tears i never shed
just like i can't
take back all the evil
i have commited

the tears i never shed
have lead to my demise
because the world is black
the hearts are cold
that's what i've been told
when i refuse to fold

with the tears i never shed
we never look back
we can't go back
there is no hope

nobody knows
how the tears i never shed
changed the plans for my demise
now the tears i never shed
will bury me six feet below

as death takes me
the tears i never shed
become the tears i refused to shed
and the broken become the strong

This heart is red
The skies are blue
Yet it doesn't take a rocket scientist
To see that I loved you
Honestly
I have no idea what to call this
These feelings are all new to me
It feels like a fantasy
So take my heart
Do as you wish to it
I don't want to live
If my world isn't with you

It's hard to tell anymore
We have grown so close
Yet we are still so far from each other
And I’m starting to feel the effects

I just want to know where we stand
Friend or Lover
I guess we’re somewhere in the middle
We both want the same

We may never get the chance
I know you better than myself
You know me better than yourself
And this emotion is tearing me apart

I’m afraid I’ll never get the chance
To share this love for you, with you
I want to hold you closer
Embrace your silent tears

I want your burdens to be my own
So the weight isn’t so heavy
I’m here for you
Never far when you call

Are we Friends or Lovers
We are closer than friends
Yet we never made love
I’m in dire need of the answer

I cant escape the demons
I have created for myself
And you still stand at my side
Waiting to see the real me

I know that the end is coming
I know we will never be together
Yet I want you to know
It doesn’t matter because I love you

I am yours alone
Call for me and I’ll be there
I have tried so hard for you to realize
That I truly and deeply am in love with you

Friends or Lovers
I’ll know when the time is right
We just have to face the facts
We are neither

Call it what you want
I call it relief
I call it easing my pain
I call it ending my sorrow
You call it ******
When its actually called suicide
But its a last resort
To someone who has been through hell
Who can't cope with any of it
So call it ******
I'll call it a path to peace

How many tears can a wrist cry?
How many scars do I have to open
Just to be heard
How many things do I have to give up
Just to stop watching the war consume us all
They say the only way to shine your light is in the dark
Mine has been shining for too long
I'm letting the vessels sink
I'm no longer the safe haven
The Lighthouse that kept them safe
I'll always be the rocks wading in the water
Waiting for their precious hull
To crash against my edges
Letting the tide
The hungry waves drag them to the depths

I stay up late at night
Wishing I could cry for you
Wishing I could cry because of you
But all I cry is hollow tears

You ruined me twice in one month
Should of never gave you that second chance
Should of said I didnt want you back
Yet my heart bled for you

My heart cried the ****** tears
You apparently wanted
While my eyes cried nothing but hollow tears
I hope your ******* happy now

Cry yourself to sleep
Because you hurt me
You ruined a great relationship...twice
And yet I still feel like ****

I cant forgive you
I cant forget you
Even when my eyes start burning
From the endless hollow tears
That just refuse to bleed from my heart

No words could describe how happy I would make you

You lose yourself in her closeness
You relish in the love you have
Everything becomes petty nonsense
You never want to leave her side
It's like her body is a magnet
And yours is the lucky
Piece of metal it latched onto
It's not everyday you fall in love
With total perfection
But everyday you fall deeper in love
With her perfection
This is how you feel
I know because I've been there

Like Broadway
Only brighter
The actors are stars
And their scenes are on the coattails of comets
One star falls
Another reaching out
Preventing broken legs
On this midnight stage
Millions come out to play
Only few eager to watch
Maybe oneday the moon will smile
At the love I'll have
But for now
Its all a play
Entertainment for the next
An empty venue
Awaiting an audience
For this midnight play
Where catastrophe and beauty
Dance in perfect harmony

Slithering shadow
Why after all these many years
Do you still walk beside me
Why oh why
Are you the only
Who cares to listen
Slithering shadow
Always there when I need a friend
No name for me to call you
Yet here you have a face
I do not look for a voice in reply
I look for an ear
Willing to sit with
Here the story to my troubled times
Slithering shadow
Are you real
Or just another hallucination

I can hear them in the distance
Sounds of their engines roaring
The hounds are on me
Flashlights and pistols aimed at me
Its just moments away
No point in running
Its all over
My life
My future
All those memories I promised her
Fading away
The closer they get
I can see them
Blue lights flashing
They wanted me
I'll sit on this cold asphalt
Waiting for those steel bracelets
To cup my wrist with anger
Its all over
Tin gods with badges and a gun
Surround me
Birds of supposed justice
Feed on my carcass
Draining the remaining hope I had
Of finally make something of myself
I'll be another soul
Cast out of society
Ex convict with nothing to show
Just tattoos and stories from jail

All those tears we cried together
Opening the faucets on our face
Trying to wash the pain away
Yet the stains of our history
Were never meant to be erased
Remember those sleepless nights
Where you would walk for an hour
Just to find comfort in my arms
But we never found rest
Just more tears we shard
As the nght went on
Remember those seeming less innocent days
When salt water licked our feet
Puppy eying us into taking a swim
Remember those days when I would want to fight your father
When I saw the bruises
When you tried building dams out of mascara
And tried hiding behind the blush
I just wish you were here to remember
All those special moments we shared together
All the pain and suffering
I wouldn't let you deal with alone
Remember me
I know this voice doesn't sound familiar
After all its been four years
Since I've been to your new home
Where you rest peacefully
Remember I'll always love you
You were my best friend
My one true love
I just wish we had more time to spend together
Yet days pass, then months
But as they pass me by
And poems forget to be written
I'll still have a poem to write about you

Its almost ready
In 5...4...
I can feel it
The spotlight growing brighter
Everything is on me
I'm the star of this one man show
Its always been me
Just me and the friends I create
The voices I put names to
3...2...1...
ShowTime!!
Sound of the gun emptying
This Shakespeare play starting
The way all others end
I shouldn't run
For the first time im a holy man
The curtains close
Ready for act 2
5...4...
There's so many chapters
Too many loves
Oh so many more lives
Wasted wondering how this will end
It seems so simple
The answers before you
I'm a false Romeo
Looking for my Juliet
I'm Macbeth hungry for power
3...2...1...
The stage is set
Audience vacant
Only mannequins attend
Production still going
My mouth moves
Yet words make no sound
Its a silent film
In slow motion
Fast forward please to where I'm happy
Where love attends all acts
But I'm misguided by a wish I made
On a star that went out
Call the curtains
Hand me the loaded gun
I'll send you all off
With a au revoir and **** it
Trigger slams back
Curtains fall
Standing ovation
Only 2 acts
My name was recited
Age was announced
And the reason this was another tragedy
The stage was set
I put on a play
Pretending to be happy
Knowing all to well
I'm nothing in the eyes of society
Another corpse
Another obituary
Another paycheck
Director will call cut
And my job is done

I whisper lines in dark nights
Hoping one will stick on my tongue
So I can give you another shot
Every word another cc
Every syllable another mg
I want you to choke on them
I want foam to line your mouth
You don't know what you did to me
Forced my hand
Said love was an irrelevance
No place for me in an empty castle
That I wanted to call home
But homeless was what you left me
Now I'll leave you an addict
Waiting on every word
Hoping the next one you'll overdose on
Guess some stories aren't meant to be written
Even though I tried to write ours
Every ending was seen a mile away
All because I wasn't the drug you needed
But a distraction...

Through countless years
Almost endless days
Thoughts of suicide
Played banjo with my emotions
And here I am at a funeral
Watching people cry and wither
Wilting in their realization
Their beloved is gone
Sad to say
There's no silence in suicide
They'll moarn till they die
Think of ways to off themselves
Gun shots echo
Sounds of nooses tightening
Pill bottles emptying
Bodies dropping
There's no silence in suicide
Death just echoes

She's screaming joyful laughter
While sinking her teeth into the tears
Of her new found toy
Playing cat and mouse
With his head
He's screaming agony
While he pounds his head
Wanting her to stop
But his heart tied her to him
So he just chases the love and the thoughts
Out with a single bullet

I forgot what you smelled like
The way your perfume
Followed like a shadow
Engulfing rooms
Fields of random flowers
Blossoming in my nose

I forgot what you looked like
Long hair covering sparkling eyes
Trying to hide the beauty
That keeps breaking your heart
Only finding comfort in buttered hands

I forgot what you taste like
Gentle lips dressed with cherry lip balm
Slipping away
Every time I immerse myself in memory
I wonder what you taste like now
A million miles away

I forgot how you felt
Soft skin of silken desire
Gentle not to hold you too tight
Fragile frame I towered over
You were a perfect sculpture
I couldn’t hold on to forever

I forgot what you sound like
A recipe of lullaby’s and similes
Sass, humor, life flowing in harmony
Your giggle precious as angel choirs
Voice of piercing softness
Silencing demons for only the hours we talked

I forgot what it was like
To remember everything about you
And now my memory fades to black
A silhouette remains
Maybe I’ll see you again
In this life or the next
To refresh my lost senses

If I took my life
If I said I love you
If I can't be loved
It doesn't matter now

My life is over
Was from the beginning
So whatever step that kills me
I can't take it soon enough

If someone said they care
If someone wanted to listen
If i could rage even once
It doesn't matter now

My world is collapsing
Was from the start
But trying to find someone to trust
Was **** near impossible

If someone hated me
If the world wanted me dead
If it got any worse
It doesn't matter now

I am who I am
The way I think is negative
And if it offends or worries you
Go to hell its my life

They never go slow
They live life in the fast lane
Never looking back
Hitting top speeds
Reckless and oblivious to so much
Only fools rush in
I guess I'm one as well
I rushed into love
And paid for it with my heart
Just look at my feet
There it lies broken and bleeding
Knowing she's alone and crying

One pedal gone
Two flowers opposite of the same field
Winds screaming the same thing
My heart says with another pedal gone
She loves me
I love her not
Torn between this
Relationship fading
Will I ever see her smile
Or will I be the reason she cries rivers
She'll eventually drown herself in
I love the silence
She loves that I'm still there
Even though our mouths are sewn shut
She still tries to knit one more i love you
In the text that will lead to its over
She loves me
I love her not
Two pedals left
I already knew the end result
Nature never lies
It tells whether we're meant to be
And today we got our not to be

There's no beauty in it
It's just a false emotion
Filled with pain, misery, and ugliness
Wrapped neatly in a bow
Just to fool you
It's the Christmas gift you prayed not to get
It's the dry *** turkey on thanksgiving
It's the fire blazing in your living room
From faulty fireworks on New Years
Love is a lie
Never was it as beautiful as death
Only as ugly as life

I'm that baby in the cradle
******* on a pacifier
With a loaded gun in my face
Waiting for a flash then darkness
I'm lost again to my own thoughts
Traveling street corners
I no longer remember
Waiting in almost every one for death
Like bus stops into the afterlife
Yet mine only promises
An emptiness filled with a paralyzing numbness
Leaving me dumbfounded
Confused on which way I should go
It's the small things in life I embraced
But watching pulses drop
Quicker than raindrops
Has me terrified of tomorrow
I'm scared to live yet too scared to die
I'm in between in which direction is right
Yet everyone who listens tells me
Have faith in The Lord
Give yourself unto God
Yet what do they know
When they can't tell me
What the color of their aunts brains are
What the smell of your soul taste like
As it rots away in your arms
....
It's those dots you should worry about
Bc it might lead to me no longer existing
In a world of people I thought I could save
And put meaning to my own life
Leaving a sense of hope that I'll be ok
When all else fails to give it to me
But a blind man will create a false world
Where only he can see
A deaf man will create sounds to hear
A mute man will speak in riddles
So he can be the only one with the answer
Yet what does a depressed man have
When all he had faded before it existed
....
It's an ending to a life
An maybe all this death has me petrified
To the point I'll go insane
Far beyond the breaking points
Of my own limits


....I'm sorry....

You are my muse
You are my inspiration
You are my one true love
Yet I don't know you

I've told stories about you
I've heard your voice
You can't be seen
You're just as lost as I

Who are you
What is your name
If I only knew you
Better than myself

You're a myth
You have no reflection
Yet I can describe you
If I only knew you

You have no pulse
You have no shadow
You have a voice
But still no face

I don't know you
But I'm in love with you
You say your hurt
Yet you don't reveal yourself

You don't want my help
Your the reason I live
The reason I get up
When I fall flat on my face

I can trust you
But I don't tell you my secrets
I can love you
But I never tried

You need me
More than you need air
You love me
But you don't say it

If I had a magic hour glass
That could rewind the times
I'd relive the days of going to school
Back when I had a reason to socialize
When friends came in the call of your name
Across halls and thrown out on the gridiron
I would have enjoyed it more
Knowing then that things really do get better
I would have picked up my chin
Faced reality bc I was pretending
I was looking down on the earth
Watched my steps closely
Precatious of never letting them see me fall
Practiced ballet to be leary of pranksters feet
If I had a hour glass
I'd write to myself and say it was better
Even if it doesn't seem like it
Another breathe is worth breathing
When dreams are achieved
Instead of bought
I'd try to enjoy the friends I had
While they were around
Would have laughed more
But its the little things we forget to enjoy
We seem to regret

I'm Sorry

Kissing you for the first time
Holding your hand
Walking down the road
Or driving to your favorite restraunt
I wish I had those memories
Where there's an us
I wish there was a memory of love
Romance woven, our fingers intertwined
I wish I had those memories
But they'll never happen
I live too far
Your heart a barracade
A mountain fortress
Maybe one day the treasure
Residing within with no longer be held prisoner
Considered cursed
Corrupting all who seek to possess it
I wish I had those memories
Taking journeys creating adventures
Just me and you like it always should have been

In echoed darkness
I wonder what life would be like
With you on my arm
I walk through parks
In the late hours of dusk
To wrap my head around streetlight
Hoping the light bulbs turn on
With ideas on how to fix this
I spend endless nights scrolling through
The dusty collection of phone calls
Searching your number
Debating to text you or call
Searching your name
On social media
Thinking what I could send you
To let you know I still care
But no amount of notifications
Could describe my endless feelings for you
I find myself searching
For ways to tell you I love you
Nothing ever comes
So I lock the screen
And drift back into the darkness
My world became after we went silent
Do you think it ever gets better
Or does it remain this desolate
When love leaves you vacant

Does it scare you
To realize that your own son
Perhaps your daughter too
Has more wisdom than you
Does it scare you
That even the young have wisdom
Tell me my dear friend
Have you realized
That we have the best insight
Into what our environment holds
Even the young have wisdom
So remember that the next time
You decide to look down at us
When you want to say
We are just stupid little brats
Remember that even the young have wisdom
The next time we give you our opinion

As I sit on the beach
To watch the sun set
I think to myself
How is it that I loved
Yet was never loved

Fear has struck me cold
Like a chilling wind
It will blow over
Lost to the shadows
Never to be loved again

By as much beauty
As yourself
Has used it for evil
Poisoning heart
As you walk that war filled path

I have no good memories
I only have this Titleless poem
To remind myself to
Never love unless loved by first

225 719 9187
Call today and save my soul
No money neccesary
Just a ******* and have a blessed day
Preach to me the teachings of god
Tell me how I'll go to hell for my sins
Where loving once pays in dying twice
Enlighten me on what I did so wrong
Curse my name
Spit in the ground I walk
Bury me under my own misery
What else can I say
We all knew I was a **** up
Sanity not a birthright
Hell if you wanted perfect you should have never came to me
I've slept with more women than I could count
Chased emotions away with broomsticks
But like any rabid beast
Give it attention
It knows where home could be
So call today and maybe your words
Could take this lonely soul
And free it into the place it was meant to be born into
But you wont do it
You're scared
You fear me
Not knowing what kind of man I am
Second guessing the reason you chose
To dial my number in the first place
Maybe you should forget it
I'm sure I'll find my own will
To do the devils work for him
He's not to blame
God should be ashamed
I am he
He is you
You are me
Me is dead
So I guess we all are
When we were born in his image
I'm done talking I'm taking action
Feel free to cleanse your own soul
By trying to cleanse mine
PLEASE SIR
PLEASE MA'AM
TELL ME HOW YOUR GOD CAN SAVE ME NOW
WHEN THE ONLY THINGS THAT NEED TO BE SAVED
IS THE THINGS I'LL ABUSE TO DESTROY MYSELF

I said she'll be fine without me
I thought he'll be fine if I wasn't around
But she ran off with a razor
Jagged edges and sharp exterior
Piercing smile with dig deeper eyes
And he found paradise floating
At the bottom of fire engulf seas
Thinking he was a pirate king
I thought they would be fine
I thought...
I thought....
......I thought.....
                          .......I......
Thought...
We had it perfect
A love a thousand miles long
But now that only seems like a walk
Compared to the wounds on your wrist
And the last thing you said to me
"I'm fine."
We had it made
Best friends till we died
Ride or die
**** or be killed
But alcohol took you
With an empty shell leaving your last thought
Painted clear to see on the wall behind you
"I'm fine."

Table clothed in razor blades and whips
Serrated edges and pointy objects
I wonder how long my victims can last
A slice to each ******
Lay on a bed of needles
Drill holes under each eyelid
Cut a whole in the back of their head
Skull **** them and watch as ***
Bleeds out through their nose
Cigarette burns cover one leg
While the other is dressed
With barbwire growing tighter
Stretch them till their toes snap off
I believe their dead
No
Alive
Rat in a bucket with a torch
How fast can this rat run through your intestines
Lets time it
Not fast enough
Perhaps this method of torture
Doesn't beat the one you put me through
But any form
Its still uncomfortable
That's how I killed the voices in my head

it sent me to hell
it sent me to die
it made me lie
i try to keep it in a cell

it wont let me sleep
it wont leave me alone
it has an eerie moan
it made girls weep

it wont **** just me
now its black as night
never to see light
its a criminal to be

it plays a dangerous game
now it sick and twisted
their souls are listed
leaving me full of shame

my dangerous heart
i cant trust it now
its killing me inside
as i try to hide
for i will not bow

death shall come sweet
the pain is endless
im totaly mendless
as i listen to its beat

Can I not be free
From the shackles
That are my pain
Each link in the chain
A symbol to each sin

Can I not die
From the suicide
That is my poetry
Each line on the paper
A symbol to each scar

I want to be free
I want to die
I can't take it anymore
I have grown so weak
I have no strength to fight on
And don't you dare tell me
To have faith in God
Because all that ******* gave me
Along with all his false disciples
Was a finer from the heavens
With a royal *******
Whispered on the winds
I want to touch my darkness
Feel my oblivion enclosing
I want to ******* blood
Let the flavor linger on my tongue
I want to smell my decay
Sniffing the decadent aroma
I want to no longer hear my voice
Reply to those in my head
I want to see the world collapse
Watch as it falls into peace
But sadly some things are impossible to obtain
At least on your own
But one thing I can obtain
Is being free and dead
:) finally reaching peace (: