She waited by the window
For the sky
To turn heavy and aching
With rain

Then she went outside
With her blue chalk
And filled the driveway
With strange and beautiful things

When they all run
In a mad stampede
Shoving and screaming
For higher ground
Still, you wait

When the water
Drags itself away from the shore
With a dry ******* sound
Like the ocean
Is taking a deep breath in
Still, you wait

When the birds
Go deadly quiet
And the air trembles
With the stillness
Of each shuddering heartbeat
Still, you wait

And the wall of water
Comes surging towards you
With a sound like rushing static in your ears
You meet it with arms wide open
And let the raging riptide
Carry you into the sea

If you knew
What really goes on
Inside my head
It would break you

I would rather minimize the casualties
So please,
Please

Just leave me alone

I have been told
That I have to learn how to smile
Because I have been using it in the wrong way
I thought it was to tell people you are okay
Even if you aren't
Apparently it is to show people
You are happy

I will release these emotions
With a handful of words

Ink blots on a piece of yellow paper
Thrown into the fire

Watch them burn

so sad
everything makes me
so
sad.