No I never said her name aloud, or around you
Fainted collections by the bedside
Never known from the emotions felt
Prayers
Things families kept
My west side bedroom
And you didn't understand
Just how much it hurt you
The night time shell
You remained
Faded in my image
Turned away
Burnt out in shadows
Clothes in the closet
I wept the whole way home
Designed by the day
By the pain we realized
Prior to twisted agony
Never feeling how the road sways
I'll still be losing blood
Deep ocean drowning
Kick
Losing breaths
Looking from the lights of the aftermath

It doesn't have to be like this

Infinite years past
To dig with impatience
Seems like forever to you now
There's nothing here
But betrayal
Twisted words
Depths unknown even to you
Pleading
Again
To go home
Forbearing a tainted helix
Your fingerprints
Not much to see
But stained with rage
We beg for love
But are given faith
However durable
Unquenched
In the simplest of ways

Feeling too weak
She is torn out from my chest
Fleeting from my heart
You can call us even
Projecting sounds of defeat
Grandiose
Feeling better now
Throwing these things to the side
Giving off the scent of your skin
Finding you cold
Wet
Naked
For me
To taste
And warm you
Born with the bluest eyes
With the sin inside
Just once more

You could leave
But you can't go
I can still feel you in my soul
And for you to carry this away
I guess you'll have to stay
Or you'll end up alone
Please know
I can still smell you in my clothes

Will he ever love?
Tragic now,
As I see the footprints
Trudged through the snow
These ashes fall as snowflakes
And an endless winter
Has now been brought forth
You're alone now
There's nothing wrong
Must be too strong for you
Build your temples, child
Stay by the withering flames
Now once removed
Twice caught
Three times fallen
In it's most eloquent stage

When I was young
Solemn
We awaited this great Christmas night
With shining eyes
When I was young
And a heart of heavy gold
A carousel of lights and magic
Smoky evening and cold window-frames
When I was young
A child speaking sweet words
And giving cherished smiles
Across the gulf of a winter night
When I was young
I wish it would have stayed this way
Not to be caught in sleep
But to be home just once more
When I was young
A sister holding me with compassionate grace
A real warmth on this blessed Eve
And my heart pounding of pure love
When I was young