My feelings and sense of who "I am"
were still involved in the strange online
communication

Not needing my voice to stroke
you stroke alone
kissed the screen and said good bye

Have a great day baby, it's only cyber

Really?

You just took my humanness and ****** all over
me and made me feel like a *****

So,
Good bye baby...no hard feelings
after all it's only cyber we're playing with

Right?

You attempt suicide
and I'm the only one that died

There isn't one threat you can give me
That isn't equaled to all I have on you...

Do you really want to go there?

Test me...

....and she fell asleep with thunder in her hair
  and lightening as her breath
fearless~

I stay awake
Thinking of one
While another sleeps

Longing to feel wanted
Wishing to be held once more
Wanting to remember
What it ment to be safe

I lay awake
Unable to sleep
Creating false realities
Just to help me feel

Perhaps another level
Or another page
Might help in this
Long night ahead

I never noticed that my heartbeat was so beautiful,
In the solitude of my evening,
I discovered this delight,

As my heart played a symphony of treat,
Lub dub Lub dub Lub dub
In this melodious Serenity, I found myself wrapped in my own embrace.

It was today, I came to know that
The pulsing of my bounded soul, the cadence of my fading heart,
Is my harmony to myself, my whisper of peace.