Carpe diem
Seize the day
I know it's scary
I know it's hard

But you don't have to be alone
Don't get swallowed up
It's not your fault
Don't blame yourself

Stay strong
Be brave
You are beautiful
You are chapter that need not end yet

Carpe diem
Seize the day
Live it well
Let it ring

It was one summer
With many goals
One summer that allowed me to figure it all out
In one moment I realized what I want to do for sure
But in one moment I also realized I missed you
Yet in the next
I realized that I am one person that doesn't need you
And that I am one person that can change the world
All it took was one summer
*One

It repeats, repeats
This feeling repeats
The need to hurt, to get this unspoken pain out
It repeats, it repeats

It repeats, it repeats
The panic
The shaky breaths, the heart racing
It repeats, repeats

It repeats, it repeats
The phone rings
Need to call, need to get help
It repeats, it repeats

She repeats, she repeats
Try to breathe
Find your favorite song, drink some tea
She repeats, she repeats

Song repeats, song repeats
I can breathe
Sing along, drink the hot tea
Song repeats, song repeats

Back on repeat, back on repeat
I'm okay
Just praying it will stay this way
Back on repeat, back on repeat

The fact that it's been 5 months
The fact that  you are gone
The fact that I can no longer call your voicemail and at least hear your voice there
The fact that this weight is crushing me
The fact that you would be getting married
The fact that you should have graduated
The fact that your nephew won't remember you
The fact that I can't hug you
Or yell "mom" at the top of my lungs
The fact that I still cry whenever someone talks about you
The fact that my best friend is gone

I miss you

Same old story
Same old tale
But to you it never seems to get old
Have you ever considered the way it affects me
Or how much it hurts to see your glee

I am backing away
This time to never return
It's time for me to go
And for once ignore my rear view mirror
Goodbye

To You,
I'd pinned all my hopes on you
now I'm feeling sad and blue
together we had so many dreams
and were so in love, or so it seemed.
I know I should get over you,
but I'm not sure I really want to
you had been the perfect guy,
can't believe I bought all those lies.
                   *wait,
but now I can do what I want to
without worrying what you would do
now if only you could see
just happy I could be
without all the rules you had
worrying I would make you mad
there's part of me that wants you back,
but I realize it's too late for that
you've moved on and I should too,
it's something that we all must do.
our lives have change I'll be okay
the twenty-eighth will be just another day
I really loved you with all my heart
but now I'm ready or a fresh start
goodbye to you
I'm starting new,
but just so you know I really did love you.
**-From Me.