my fingers
her bare smooth sides
a blanket spark
electric, electric  

dragon-fire
breath at my neck
luminescent veins,
electric, electric

a predatory
lunge at the lips
throb siren wail
electric, electric

then in your grasp,
gorging tightness of desire
a heady buzz,
*electric, electric

When the blood turns to pain
When the words disappear
When the day can't be long
And the night must be dark

When the moon turns to wane
And the world turns its back
When the stars start to die
And the stairs lead to hell

When the root turns to stone
When the bone turns to dust
When the fire that burns
Leaves everything ash

When the sky turns to grey
When the shine turns to rain
When the sun turns to darkness
And all life is death

When the root turns to stone
When the root turns to stone

I will still be alive
With love in my heart for you

You're going to realize that I'm not worth staying for
You're going to realize it even if you don't have to go like you say you might
You told me you might disappear and never come back and all I could do was cry because I finally gained some hope that you might not leave this time
You might not come into my life again just to leave it a wreck like the last
Like a ******* tornado, ripping all my heartlessness and disinterest out of the roots of who I am and seeing some of the things I keep down so deep inside just to vanish
Abandonment should feel normal by now but I never felt like my entire structure was collapsing when someone left until it was you
I realized that hope is the worst thing a person could have
It will destroy everything you thought you had
I'm going to blink and the only thing I loved is going to be gone
You're going to leave me
And I'm going to act like it's okay until I can't breathe and I haven't left my bed for weeks and I quit smoking because it's too much to move from my mattress to the window
Because I can't find a lighter and I lose everything I touch
I shouldn't have ever touched you
I shouldn't have ever met you, you're going to destroy me
You're going to leave me in ruins but none of it ******* matters when I've got your skin on mine and your lips on mine and your eyes on me I could care less about the things that you're going to do to me
I've never meant what I've written so ******* much in this moment
Abandon all hope
It's a sinking ship
If you want to die, hold on but I'm ready to jump
I wish that things could be different
In a different life I think we could be together for a very long time
But this world isn't that one
And no matter how much I wish it was and how much I want to wake up to you every morning it just isn't going to happen

I'm trying to remember how to write poetry, but lately I've been living it
Touching your skin has calmed all the words that I've ever had boiling in me
Being with you is like putting smoke in the honey combs to calm the bees and you're the smoker
But also the honey I want to protect with all of my little life
I'm the swarm of bees because God knows I can't keep my mind quiet without you
It's not a good thing, I don't rely on you but I've never felt something so surreal as laying down entangled in one another
I'm addicted to the way you talk in your sleep and the way you place your tongue when you think and the things that you say to put me at ease
Mainly, I'm addicted to you
Your messy hair and messy house and messy words and you're still beautiful throughout it all
I've been completely love sick for months on end and they just keep coming
Something new, to scare me, to make me feel like everything we built will collapse
But you're still here and I'm still sleeping in your bed when I actually can get to sleep and stop looking at my world snoring softly beside me
I love you so fully it's eating at my mind, because all I can feel is my heart swelling inside me

I want to write it all down.
I want to write it all down;
I want to get it out of me
Because I am so full of empty spaces,
You could run a river right through me
And there are lines,
Lines that trace all over my body
Some of them point to my limbs
To my extremities,
My fingertips
My hairline
Some of them scribble around
The holes that cover me,
And try to fill them in.
I'm covered in scribbles
I'm covered in holes
They cover my mouth
They fill the air.
I just wanted someone who would take them away,
Untangle my lines
Untangle my hair

I want to dip my tongue,
inside your flavor.
With no waver,
I savor your taste.
With a desires pace,
your liquids turned to paste,
a love potion laced with our grace.
Delicious lips glistening with ours juices.
A cocktail  saturated with your nectar.
Our fountain we await,
satisfaction at a hieghted state.
I greet you with my pleasures
at an amazing pace, our lips embrace
lacerated by my tongue --
I trespass your pearly gates,
where your pleasure awaits,
I await - at the mercy of our warm embrace.