They say I'm like you
And you're  like me
Well what the hell
Do people see

Cos if I'm like you
And you're like me
Then who am I
Supposed to be.

April 2017

Running ears flapping
Eating and sleeping at will
I want a dogs life.

twice I've known love
my first and my last
both from men who woke up as early as my father
inhaling a cigarette with their first conscious breath
beginning the day
with a groan of
dedication and discipline

one love came along when I was eighteen
another at twenty eight
my fragile legs carried me the duration
of a decade long marathon
searching for a finish line
with no guarantee of it's reality

now I hold a blue-eyed trophy
after I suspected my legs would
give out
and lead me
only to an
early grave

they say time
doesn't matter
as long as you finish
the race

I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes
I don't know why I wake up and cry
There are dreams I have that remind me of you
I am nothing without you
I don't know what to do
You would always protect me
Now I'm on my own
Now that I am without you
I'm all alone
You were my cousin and my only freind
But I know one day I'll see you again.

Because death comes to all
That's a natural thing
But yours came too early

Your life ended at only 14
But I'm strong
Because you'd want me to be