He said…
Other guys go out to play cards
Other guys go out to the bars

I tried to say no
Without starting a fight

He wanted to feel like he could go anywhere
He said I was his ball and chain as he left


Finally the pieces fit the puzzle
It made sense

Now I understand
This series of unfortunate events

I didn’t know what else to do
All I know is…

Misery loves company
That’s why I left you

He took me to a field for a picnic…so he said
To share his cup of bitterness when he snapped

No One heard but the wind
As I cried and begged for my life

No One felt but the earth
As he dragged my body to the ground

No One saw but the sky
As he choked the life out of me

No One knew I was there
No One knew of my pain

The wind stormed
The earth trembled
The sky wept

Lightning struck as he ran
As No One took revenge

With every pill I take… I lose a little of myself
It almost makes my life bearable
With every pill I take… my mind borders on insanity
It almost makes my life bearable
With every pill I take
I break with reality
Pop another pill
It will never make my life bearable
Pop another pill
Just in case

When you put your hand upon my face
I was transported to a safe place
It helped me come to realize
I had so much pain to erase
But I wasn’t alone…
I drew strength from your touch
Your kindness meant so much
It came from your heart
And went straight to my soul
Making a connection showing me how
To win back my life
To take back control
But I didn’t miss
The wistful look in your eyes
It came as no surprise
As if to say:
“Another time
Another place
Your hand upon my face
No pain to erase
Wondering
What might have been….”

Today my sister died…or maybe it was yesterday
I’m not really sure …how… why… or  when… it doesn’t matter now
If only I could talk to her again
I would let her know…
That If I knew that our brief encounter would be our last
I could have been kinder
The words flew thru out of my mouth
I wish I could take them back
Yes maybe I could have been a better sister
You pushed me away so much
That I had no reason the stay
You were wicked… spiteful… and …mean…
But you were my sister
You never moved on with your life
You suffered from the day Daddy died
Never to love again…
Your high expectations were written in stone…
In your cold …broken… sad… heart
You never knew the love you so needed
You never got what you deserved
You asked so little of life
Yet should have gotten the world
Your life was not sprinkled with true happiness
You were loved...but only felt pain
Why I will never know…
You had so much love to give
But you never found peace..
In life and
Now death
I now wish you peace
I wish you love
I wish you were here with me again
(roll your eyes at me…I know you want to)
Love is for giving
Love is Forgiving
I wish that from you…