miles and miles that run between us.

whilst I am crumbling and falling apart and you are dragging your body through hell we stumble upon each others echoed voices
in the dark
the whispers make the stars light up above me and slowly guide me to you
and I paint pictures of you in my head wrapped in my arms with the pale moon reflecting in your eyes.
these miles are slowly shrinking and closing between us, this feeling shattering through my body like I'd pulled a trigger on a gun

all of the miles between us close in, until there are none.

My heart rushed to fields ,
Frolicking around the plants,
Smelling the fresh dew ,
Twirling till I abruptly fall.
Looking up at cirrus clouds.
Plentiful batch of white cotton candy.
No amount of clouds remind me of you.
Where you are , is what you call home.
Where I am , is what I call lost.

Mommy why, i was just barely opening my heart to  you
Mommy you see me through the screen beating my life to you
120 beats per second ,faster than your heart mommy.
Mommy, I feel your smile broaden
Mommy I will love you conditionally
Moommyy what is this clamp mommy ,
please don't it hurts it hurts please mommy
Seven Weeks , Three Days Pregnant

I lost you my precious , Words will never define the darkness I feel in my heart . The darkness of how unloving my heart became, How heartless humanity was around me like infectious leech. Letting you go was the consequences of the bite. Please forgive me,  I made the biggest mistake in my life. The one mistake, where you won't grow up to learn from. What was left of my heart became stone cold , I let go my true shot of happiness, but I couldn't bring you into a world of brokenness and despair. You deserve better, but better than you will ever receive from me. One day I hope you understand. I promise you , my love lies deep in my veins.  I love you ,Heaven needed you back and I regret not standing like warrior and fighting for you. I never will wash dirt on my back,I can never stop apologizing for the vicious attacks you endured by me . Every sunrise and sunset I will forever mourn the death of my own humanity against you.
*One last breath,Mommy, I love you Forever
I'll float down the river ,patiently waiting for ocean to wash me into abyss , humming to the lullaby,I would have sang to you my precious gift.

I can't put anything above your horizon ,
There's nothing that compares you .
Fooled around and fell in love with Karma.
Everything I did to others , you did to me.
Lie with me , lie to me , lie within me .
Every lonely night , I stay in a pool of my tears .
Lie with me, lie to me , lie within me.
Your lips speak blurred lines.
I hate you, I love you .
I can't put anyone above your horizon.

Hurt people hurt people ...

The realization of it is the brutal part.

Letting go is the hardest part ....

To know when ?

Is the answer

Your heart still dwells on.

I lost myself like the way my silhouette loses itself in the darkest shadows.
About two limbs have been decapitated.
Two more limbs within the minutes.
My heart tries to move a step ,
But I am restrained.
God only knows , I love you
Reaching for cloud 9.
There's no ending to a rising cloud.
Heat trickles waves,
causing me to lose my embracing hands.
What am I going to achieve?
Turn my head into the other direction  ,
I look forward into mist.
Dreaming is a beautiful fantasy.
A wishful reality..
I feel you , but yet your rising star
There's no stop to a moonlight shimmering.
God only knows I love you.
What am I going to achieve?
As I dream , they become nightmares.
Memories becomes a ticking clock.
Sorrowful sacredness silence formed.
As the walk began to nowhere .
There's no cure for heartache.
God only knows I love you.
As well he knows what he is teaching.
Although there's no way to get inside a stubborn soul.
What am I going to achieve?

My heart is swollen from the deceitful kisses.
My eyes are blindly impaired to see the truth.
My lungs are breathing on a tight rope.
I could not balance the fate of forevermore.

Because forevermore... isn't the truth.