My mind is shattered
as emotion tries
to conquer all of
my being.

My mind is malfunctioning
as depression slowly
overtakes it and makes me
believe that I cannot
do anything
correctly.

My voice is lost
when I see you
leave
because I'm
not what you wanted.

You didn't want some
broken person who
cries when their gender
isn't what is considered
normal some days.

You didn't want some
sad person who
screams at everyone
when life gets
tough.

You didn't want someone
like me,
you honestly just didn't want
me

You don't love me.

That i can accept.

But i cant accept that you ran and hid
while I sat in bed and wept.

I cant accept that all this time,
I've been longing for only you
and that all this time you let me believe
that maybe you longed for me too.

I cant accept that i'm afraid to meet your eyes,
for fear you might see through me
and you let me believe that in your eyes,
I would always be.

I cant accept that after all this time,
I still cant cry in front of you,
for fear that my emotions might be too repulsive,
and push me further away is all you'll do.

I cant accept that after all these years,
you're letting everything we had fade away,
especially because you're the one that said we'd always have each other, and that you'll always stay.

I cant accept that you wont talk to me,
when all i wanna do is talk to you.
and i cant accept that you don't even know how i feel,
cause maybe if you did,
you'd love me too.