I can't sleep
Everytime I remember your words
They snap and recoil
And hurt me awake
Next time when someone
Promises me forever
I'll just smile
Look them in the eyes and ask
How long is forever to you.

When I told you I missed you,
and you said,
"It's only been two days".

When I wrote paragraphs,
And exhausted breaths,
Explaining to you,
How much I REALLY liked you,
And you didn't say anything back.

All the times you outright ignored what I said,
As if you couldn't hear me,
And just smothered me with a kiss, instead.

Remember that.

I'm happy I'm out,
But the memories of me staying around,
Begging for your attention are what haunt me.

That's the tricky thing about relationships,
Not knowing what's temporary or permanent,
Because the good memories never go away,
No matter how old they are,
They can feel so recent,
Because we can always relive them.

But always remember,
Just because a person deserved you in the past,
Doesn't mean they will deserve you forever.
Just because they kiss you,
Doesn't always mean they like you.

For all the years
I've been living
Never once have I shared love
With a boy
For all those years
I've been thinking
That I'll be fine without love
Or a boy
Nineteen years now
I've lived in this world
Somehow suddenly
I do feel the need of love
To love someone
and being loved
Sharing stories
Giving inspirations
Getting motivations
When will I feel the love?
Because sometimes
I feel that love does not even exist
I feel left out
When almost everyone had felt the love
Puppy love
Happy or sad
At least they have experienced it
Holding hands
Knowing that they are loved

Does love exist?

Raindrops fall from the sky
The colour of the sky was blue
Teardrops fall, I cry
So tired of being blue

Crying in the rain
So they'll never see me in pain
Watching the rain wash away
But not my emotions, no way

I wished to wear a crown
Not to be their clown
Why can't they see me like "woah"
Instead of "ohh"

I am not as tough as you can see
I can't be strong as I wanna be
Stop judging me
I never knew how my life would be

Why is it so hard to get near you?

All I want in this life is you

The sky is still blue

Never changed like you

When can I get you?

I am desperate to own you

Once I got you

I will never let go of you

Whoever comes near you

I will kung fu

Because I want to be your only boo

I swear this is true

I want to be with you

Let's start new

Just me and you

A melancholic I am becomin'

I wish that you can feel my teardrops on your skin

After a long time I have been keeping in

Now the dams are leakin'

Trying to not make you feel mean

I hope this thing does not begin

When you are talkin'

It makes me feel like there is somethin'

You are the reason I could feel the adrenaline

When you are starin'

You make my heart stopped beatin'

When you are lookin'

I stopped breathin'

Now I am fallin'

Yet I do not want to get drownin'

It will make my head start spinnin'

Something I put on my face,  it is a big grin

And now I am gigglin'

Because I am forgettin'

The reason for all those things.